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Disclaimer : this is simply a story and not based on real life or assumtions and hasn't been written to offend or upset anyone. The story will brief on sleeplessness , depression and self hatred so if that triggers you please don't read. This is my first au so im sorry if it's bad. English is my first ( and only lol) language but I do struggle so please don't yell at me if I get something wrong.
Chan looked up from his work space to see the clock. 2.34am . Not bad , normally when he decides to stay in the studio producing music into the night ,he isnt finished until 4am . He smiles , he was getting faster , jyp is bound to be impressed with his progress.
His eyes slowly fluttered shut as he layed his head on the piles of paper on his desk. His breathing slowed as it got darker and darker and darker.
He jolted awake. Maybe he messed up. Or there was some good ad-libs that he could add , after all ,attention to detail is key.
" What's a few more hours when I will have a musical masterpiece " he said to himself , knowing fully well the price he was giving.
He would rather obsess over the song then sleep. Anything but sleep.
Ever since Chan was young he has had sleep paralysis and not one that he can just pretend didn't happen. The fear grew at the slight mention of sleep. The darkness surrounded him . Although he didn't like to admit it. Sleeping terrified him.
Later on in the day
Jisung ran into class and stumbled into the back of the class and sat down on the floor. He adjusted his oversized top to make sure it wasn't to tight against his body whilst receiving death stares from the teacher. He looked up and have a apologetic smile before looking at his hands.
" As I was saying before I was rudely interrupted " she glanced towards jisung " partner work is important in making music , it takes a great understanding to be able to compliment eachothers strengths and protect eachothers weaknesses "
The words started blurring and jisung stopped paying
attention to what was being said he was to busy thinking about his trousers. They were quite tight. His legs were more visible then he would have liked , he felt his heart rate increase as he looked around the room. He could hear there thoughts now :
" Ew look at his legs"
"Imagine going out like that"
" He's disgusting"
He pulled his legs up to his chest and pulled his top over his knees , he just needed to focus . It's all in his head .
The partners were announced and everyone divided into groups of three or four. Han watched as two boys walked towards him.
One was a boy he has spotted in class before , always had his head down , his music in and sat far away from everyone else. He almost always wore black head to toe , today was no different. His black cap covered his face as he looked down to the floor.
The other was slightly taller but not by much . Again he wore black but less like he was trying to hide and more like he wanted to be seen. Like he was trying to stand out . His hair was died blonde and was in very poor condition , as if it was about to fall out at any moment. He wore a smile on his face that almost took away from his sunken eyes.
"Hey im Chan " he introduced still smiling " what are your guys' names "
The boy in black looked highly uncomfortable , as if he had been asked a deeply personal question . " Im changbin I guess" he mumbled
"You guess ? Do you not know your name ? " Jisung
joked , only to receive a offend look.
" Sorry , um I'm jisung "
" Well " Chan said rapping his arms around the other boys shoulders " let's make some music !"