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Seokjin stared at the ceiling. He had been staying still for a while but he couldn't sleep. Too many thoughts ran through his mind. Seokjin could feel the warmth of his boyfriend, Namjoon, right next to him. Unlike Seokjin, Namjoon was fast asleep. Seokjin suddenly had an idea. Maybe his boyfriend would be willing to listen to his random thoughts.
Seokjin lightly shook Namjoon's shoulder. "Namjoon-ah, wake up. This is important."
Soon enough, Namjoon was wide awake. "What is it baby is something wrong?" asked Namjoon with a slight worry in his voice.
"What if we all are part of a simulation?"
It took a moment for the words to register in Namjoon's mind. "What?"
"Like, it's possible right? That someone is looking at us through a computer screen and controlling our actions like the game Sims? This would explain why we sometimes forget what we came to do when we enter a room."
Namjoon turned to look at Seokjin. "It's past 1 am baby why are you thinking about this." He moved closer to Seokjin and started playing with his hair.
"Sorry. I just can't sleep. Do you think it's a possibility though?" replied Seokjin with puppy eyes staring right at Namjoon.
Namjoon felt his breathing stop. Even though it has been two years since he started dating Seokjin, he can never get over how beautiful and cute his baby is. Namjoon could never ignore any of Seokjin's questions even if he tried to. "Maybe," he yawned. "Though they must be some kinky people to watch us or anyone fuck."
"Namjoon!" Seokjin playfully pushed Namjoon's shoulder. Laughter filled the room.
Soon, Seokjin was able to fall asleep after talking to Namjoon.
♡
"Why do humans only have two feet?"
Closing his book, Namjoon let out a deep sigh. This was the fifth question Seokjin had asked in the span of two minutes. There was no point in pretending he didn't hear it because Seokjin would continue to bug him until he answers. Namjoon loved his baby but he really wanted to finish the book he was reading too. He looked at Seokjin who was lying right next to him on the bed. "To walk, Seokjin. What else are they used for?"
"That's not what I meant but I can think of something else people do with their feet. Like…" Humming, Seokjin scrunched his nose and pressed his lips as he took a moment to ponder. Namjoon stared at his boyfriend without saying a word. He can never get over how beautiful and adorable Seokjin looks every single moment of the day. "Footjobs!" exclaimed Seokjin after a moment.
Namjoon took a second to realize what Seokjin had said. "We're not continuing this conversation."
"You know I'm right," giggled Seokjin. "Honestly though, why do we only have two legs? Why can't we have four legs like dogs and cats?"
Namjoon looked up at the ceiling. Even if he didn't want to think about such ridiculous ideas, he couldn't stop his brain. "Maybe because we don't need them? Cats and dogs don't have hands. We have hands. If we didn't have hands then we would need two more legs."
Seokjin gasped dramatically, bringing both of his hands to his mouth. "Oh my god I never thought of it that way! You're a genius!"
Namjoon could no longer be annoyed at Seokjin. His boyfriend was too adorable. "I wouldn't say I am, baby, but thank you."
"You're not allowed to say that." said Seokjin firmly as he rolled on top of Namjoon and sat on his lap to face him. "You're one of the most intelligent humans I've ever known. Your big brain is fascinating."
Namjoon chuckled as a light blush spread across his cheeks. "I love you," he mumbled as he brought his palm up to Seokjin's face.
A soft grin formed on Seokjin's lips. "I love you too," said Seokjin before he closed the distance between them for a kiss.
♡
Namjoon could feel his eyes getting heavier as he listened to the mundane sound of the bed room clock ticking. It was already past 1 am. Just as his eyes were about to close, a heavy weight landed on him. "Namjoon-ah are you still awake?" Namjoon felt his entire body jolt awake in shock.
"Well now I am," muttered Namjoon. Groggily, Namjoon wrapped his arms around Seokjin's waist and brought Seokjin closer to his own chest. This wasn't the first time his boyfriend had decided to literally throw himself on top of him, but he could never get used to it. "What is it baby?"
Seokjin snuggled deeper into Namjoon's chest. "What if we could will ourselves to become tiny like ant man?"
Another ridiculous question. Namjoon doesn't understand why Seokjin is doing this. "Why do you want to know?" asked Namjoon in an amused voice.
"I just wanted to know, you know? It's interesting."
Namjoon brings one of his arms up to play with Seokjin's hair. For a moment he appreciated the fact Seokjin was in a big, fluffy and pink hoodie with loose shorts. Namjoon was glad that Seokjin is now more comfortable wearing cute clothes than before. "I would probably let myself explore nooks and crannies in my own house. Maybe bring a toothpick to protect myself. It would be a whole new perspective that I couldn't have accessed before."
"Wow," Seokjin breathed out. "That was so deep. I would have just said that I'd use it to hide from Yoongi after annoying him so he'd get even more annoyed."
"Valid." Namjoon smiled at the thought of Yoongi frantically searching for Seokjin. "I also just wanted to impress you."
Seokjin hummed. "You always do so that wasn't really necessary."
Namjoon gave a gentle peck to Seokjin's forehead. "Let's go to sleep baby. It's very late." They fell asleep with both of their legs tangled together.
♡
"We can call different types of cars as car breeds right?"
Namjoon stopped petting Seokjin's hair at the question. He has now gotten used to the randomness but this probably the most ridiculous question Seokjin had asked. "No. No we don't. That's not how that works."
Seokjin looked at Namjoon with a pout. "Why not? What else can they be called anyways?"
"Oh I don't know. Maybe call it types of cars instead of that mess?"
Seokjin let out a giggle. "Nah, too boring. Car breeds for the win!"
Namjoon covered his face with both of his palms. "I won't be able to stop you huh?"
"Nope!" Seokjin smiled playfully. "Besides cars deserve these rights. Also a car hybrid is basically when two car breeds are merged together right?"
"Where in the world did you hear this?" squeaked out Namjoon. "Cars don't even fuck. They can't fuck! They're non living!"
Seokjin moved away from Namjoon and gasped out in horror while trying his best to not start laughing. "How could you say that? Cars have feelings too! I can't believe the man I'm dating has an anti car agenda."
"I have a what now?" Namjoon asks bewildered.
"I saw a picture of them fucking!" said Seokjin as a wide smile spread across his cheeks. He couldn't pretend to be serious anymore.
"Why? Why would you search up cars fucking!"
Seokjin grabbed his stomach as it was hurting as he laughed. "Oh my god I can't."
Namjoon joined Seokjin laughing. They both knew this was the dumbest thing to laugh over but they didn't care. They were having fun.
Namjoon took in breaths trying to calm down. "Okay that's enough of talking about cars fucking. Never can I look at the cars the same way again."
Seokjin tried to stop laughing but failed. "Oh god I don't know why this is so funny. Car fucking! We're talking about cars fucking at 1 am!"
Namjoon smiled at Seokjin endearingly. "Shut up baby. Let's go try to sleep."
♡
"Since you haven't asked anything yet, may I ask a question myself?" asked Namjoon.
Seokjin was surprised. At this point, he thought Namjoon was tired of his useless thoughts at 1 am. "Sure. Go ahead, let's see what your big brain can come up with." replied Seokjin, trying his best to not sound unsure.
"Hypothetically, say you were sent to prison because you… oh I don't know maybe for trying to steal something important. During that time, you get to know that prison does illegal experimentations on humans. Would it still be illegal to break out of prison?"
Seokjin blinked, not knowing what to say. "Wow, why is that question more thoughtful than my entire existence on this earth."
Namjoon laughed. "Just answer the question baby. Besides you're worth more than anything in this world."
Seokjin knew his ears were getting red but he ignored it so he wouldn't get more embarrassed. "I'd say it would still be illegal."
"Oh? Why? I would have said it would have been legal."
"Maybe to you it would be, but think about it. The prison is most likely run by the government, which means it's the government doing those filthy experiments. The government also establishes the law in the country." explained Seokjin. "Since that's the case, the government would definitely say breaking out of that prison is against the law. Hence, it would still be illegal." Seokjin noticed that Namjoon was staring at him. "What?" he questioned. "Did I say something stupid?"
Namjoon's face broke into a smile. "I love your mind baby. That was the most logical and well thought out answer I've heard from anyone that I asked this question."
"Stop complimenting me," whined Seokjin. "You're gonna make my entire face go read instead of just my ears."
Namjoon leaned into Seokjin to give a peck on the lips. "Ah, you're so adorable baby. The most beautiful angel ever."
Seokjin whined harder and pushed Namjoon away. "That's it. No more cheese. Let's sleep."
♡
It was another typical night where Seokjin is struggling to sleep. He stared at Namjoon's face instead. He looked so calm when sleeping. Suddenly Seokjin's mind was drowning in emotions. Seokjin wondered how he was so lucky to get someone as great as Namjoon. He threw his leg on top of Namjoon's and brought his body closer. This night, Seokjin decided not to wake Namjoon up.
"Why do you love me Joon-ah? What did I do to deserve you?" muttered Seokjin. He felt his heart getting heavy and emotions brewing within him. "I really don't deserve you. You even listen to the dumb shit I say every night." He couldn't handle the sudden wave of emotions so he let it overflow. Tears wet his cheeks. "Fuck I don't even know why I'm crying. I love you so much."
Seokjin doesn't know how long he had been crying before he fell asleep in Namjoon's arms. All he knew was the fact Namjoon's grip around him grew tighter as the night passed by.
"I love you too," whispered Namjoon after making sure than Seokjin was asleep.
♡
Seokjin was playing around with Namjoon's fingers. It was a way of distracting his mind from unnecessary thoughts. Even still, sometimes some of those thoughts slipped through a small crack of the metal door shutting away the voices in his head.
"Why did you decide to stay with me unlike others Joon? What did you see in the shitty me?"
Namjoon looked away from his phone to Seokjin. "I stayed because I wanted to spend my life with you. I stayed because you became the most important person in my life, because I wanted to be your friend, boyfriend and husband," replied Namjoon without spearing a second. There was absolutely no doubt in Namjoon's voice and Seokjin could tell. "I saw many things in you Seokjin. I saw your talents and your imperfections. I saw it all and to me it was obvious you're a great person. You care so much about so many things and I'd say your heart is made out of gold. In no universe I would not stay with you."
Seokjin knew the dam in his eyes broke. "I cannot stand you, you lovable asshole. Why do you always tell the best about me?"
Namjoon held Seokjin's palm and brought it up to his own lips to peck his fingers. "Because you deserve to know how wonderful you are baby. I don't care how many times I have to say it. All that matters is you realizing your own worth. Your flaws exist but every human has their own flaws. It's part of what makes them human."
"Fuck, I don't deserve you."
"You do," whispered Namjoon as he once again brought Seokjin closer to him. "And I would say I deserve you too. We both deserve each other."
Seokjin sobbed on Namjoon's shoulder that night. They never let go of each others' palms even when they fell asleep.
♡
Today wasn't a good day for Seokjin either. His demons were awake more than any other night for the past few months. "What if I died that night?" asked Seokjin with a shaky voice.
Namjoon didn't know how to answer. He gently lifted Seokjin up and brought him up to his lap. Namjoon leaned forward to leave small kisses in between Seokjin's neck and shoulders. During that time Namjoon tried to get his unorganized thoughts of fear, pain, happiness and hopefulness come together in one sentence. "It's something I try not to think about," mumbled Namjoon. Seokjin could feel Namjoon's warm breath hitting his neck.
"W-why?" stuttered out Seokjin.
"I don't know what I would have done if I had lost you. It's… I almost lost you. I don't want to lose you and I know it's selfish of me for wanting you to be with me."
So much love. Seokjin always felt so much love from Namjoon. "It's not selfish. It's okay Joon. Even I want you to be by my side always. That's not selfish."
Namjoon hummed. "It's hard to not have that mindset. I'd never want you to feel like you're trapped with me either."
Seokjin wrapped his hands around Namjoon. "Never. You never made me feel that way. The time I spent with you were some of the few times I felt free the most. I could be me when I was with you. You accepted all of me." Seokjin brought his hand up to Namjoon's hair as the younger continued to kiss his neck. "Would you have missed me too? If I were successful in that attempt?"
"More than anything. Yes. I would have missed you so much."
Seokjin knew Namjoon wasn't lying. His mind could no longer twist Namjoon's words into something horrific. His trust on Namjoon was too strong for that to happen. Seokjin lightly pulled Namjoon's hair to indicate him to stop. With one last kiss, Namjoon pulled away.
"I believe you. I can't believe that I believe your words." said Seokjin. Seokjin knew he would be crying now if he had any tears left.
"I'm glad you believe them," replied Namjoon as he brought up his palms to Seokjin's cheeks. "It's the truth. It means a lot to me that you stayed. You mean the world to me."
Namjoon's palms slowly slipped down to Seokjin's waist. Seokjin wrapped his arms around Namjoon's neck and brought himself closer to Namjoon's lips. "I love you, so much Joon." muttered Seokjin before attaching his lips with Namjoon's. They've kissed so many times over the years but they could never get tired of it. Seokjin's lips were soft as Namjoon could remember.
Their kiss only grew deeper as seconds went by. Namjoon broke it for a moment to catch their breaths. "I love you too baby. I love you a lot too. My baby. My angel. My everything."
Seokjin let his forehead rest on Namjoon's and stared into his boyfriend's eyes lovingly. "You're my angel too. My euphoria."
More of their thoughts of love towards each other were expressed during the entirety of the long night. Seokjin knew. So did Namjoon. They both knew their love would continue to burn even after their deaths. They both knew this love would never be extinguished.
Seokjin loved Namjoon and Namjoon loved Seokjin back.