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Do you know what it’s like to be stuck inside a box?
To stare up at the wood
Knowing that the lid will never lift
No matter how much you try to move your arms?
Do you know what it feels like to have a tumor in your stomach?
Something that leeches off your powers
Turns them to dust
And never gives them back?
Imagine how it would feel for that endless darkness to be lifted
To be free once again from that pain
When the tumor slowly died off
I felt so alive that the real darkness didn’t matter.
And then that lid was lifted off.
That man with long black hair
And wide eyes
Like a doll
I fell in love
But as a monster, it had to be a twisted love
Two sides cried out in me
The one that loved him so dearly for freeing me
And the one that wanted to kill him
A beast and a princess
In the end, the beast won out,
She spread her pain on the world
Like a fine buttercream frosting
That covered everything good underneath it
Masamune never saw much of the kindness underneath
Shattering pain and malice
My biggest regret was hurting him
I assumed that I needed to feed off of fear and terror
But dolls like me don’t really know what we are
I was freed in that one moment
And yet what happened was a disaster
Something that makes me a monster
He should have never lifted the lid of Pandora’s box.
And yet, my heart is so much fuller because of it.