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As I sit here,
Wondering what to write,
It has just now occurred to me,
That you were always right.
I never loved anyone else,
It was always you.
Oh Sherlock, oh Sherlock,
What did I do?
I'm sorry I never,
Told you how I feel,
I'm sorry my feelings
Were never actually real.
I told myself it would be fine,
If I could just wait,
And then my chances stopped,
You closed like a gate.
Just one question Sherlock,
Here's what I don't understand.
Why couldn't you love me?
Was there some band?
Was there some big rule of yours
Up in your head
Saying you couldn't
Join me in bed?
To sleep, to kiss,
To cuddle, make love?
What was stopping you?
Some force above?
Or did you always doubt
Like I tended to do
How I could ever
Love someone like you?
Someone like you,
Oh Sherlock, that's a funny thought.
Someone like you is beautiful,
And my love would never rot.
Sherlock it's been
Two years since you fell
Why did you leave me?
Seriously, what the hell?
I want to hate you.
Honestly, I do.
But Sherlock, I just can't.
I really love you.
So I'll just say,
Damn you to hell,
But I know if I do that,
I'm damned as well.
Because our souls
Are eternally bound,
And I'm sorry I'll never again,
Here the sound,
Of your heart racing after a case,
Of sweet violins into the night,
Of freedom, of courage, of solving a crime,
Of sadness, of anxiety, of having a fright.
And why won't I?
Because you're dead,
But I can't get that,
Through my thick head.
So I'm writing you this note
To tell how I feel
But you'll never read it,
If I'm being real.
Still I'll pretend,
And that's all I can do,
Pray that somehow,
This will get to you.
Pray that you'll somehow,
Know that I care.
Know in your heart, Sherlock,
That I'm always there.
Dear Sherlock Holmes,
I love you to death,
And I write this letter,
With my final breath.
Because without you,
I cannot breath anymore,
Cannot take a cab,
Go to the store.
Because I'll be okay.
Then the next thing I know,
Something reminds me of you,
And oh,
Sherlock Holmes,
I love you.
I'm sorry you'll never.
Feel this way too.