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Every year around Christmas, the school would hand out letters. Every year, Yoongi received one from anonymous, but this year was different. This year it was signed by someone very close to him, with a message he wasn’t expecting.
“I’m in love with you”
Your Best Friend,
P.J.
Yoongi sat at his desk, staring at the letter in his hands. He looked around, and his eyes landed on his best friend, Jimin. He tried to understand, but he couldn’t wrap his head around it.
That is, until he remembers a conversation between Taehyung and Jimin that he overheard one day.
“He really doesn’t know it’s from me…which is fair I guess, but I don’t know if I can keep it up.”
“Jiminie…I think you should tell him. He deserves to know and you don’t deserve to keep suffering.”
“Yeah I guess, I just hope it won’t ruin everything.”
“It won’t, he adores you Jiminie, you know he does.”
He didn’t think much about those words, but now he understands. Every year, a person who knew too much to be a stranger, sent him a letter, and all this time, they were from Jimin.
The reason Jimin sounded so sad was because of me. How did I not know? How could I have been so stupid? How did I not see it?
He berates himself for a few minutes before he hears the bell, signaling the end of class.
Getting Jimin’s attention proved to be harder than he thought, since the younger would move further away the closer he tried to get.
He’s avoiding me…
Since he can’t get Jimin’s attention, he tries to find either Jungkook or Taehyung.
He spots Taehyung closing his locker and runs to catch up to him.
“Tae!” Yoongi shouts, out of breath from running.
“What’s up hyung?” he asks curiously.
“Did you know it was Jimin?” Yoongi asks knowing Taehyung will understand.
“Yeah, everyone kinda knew, aside from you, I guess…” Taehyung says sheepishly, before leaving.
Yoongi wants to say something, but his phone goes off.
Jinnie hyung: we are all meeting at mine tonight. Think you can make it?
Yoongi: yeah, sure that’s fine
Jinnie hyung: you okay?
Yoongi: yeah, just feeling a bit weird
Jinnie hyung: take a small nap then head over if you need to
Yoongi: I will, thanks hyung
Jimin knew avoiding Yoongi would be hard, but he isn’t ready to face losing his best friend. He could have kept his feelings a secret, but he knew he had to say it or he’d go crazy from keeping the secret.
I’m just avoiding the inevitable aren’t i? Why would he want me? I was never on his radar…I‘m not worth it.
Slapping his cheeks to stop thinking so much, he kept walking towards Jin’s apartment. He curled his arms around himself in the cold, walking faster to get to Jin’s.
When Jimin makes it there, he walks in to the warm apartment and runs into his soulmate’s arms.
“I’m so cold!” he whines into Taehyung’s chest.
“Aw did Minnie get cold walking here?” Taehyung asks, giggling at his soulmate’s pout.
“I told you I could drive you, stupid.” Jungkook said as he wraps his arms around Jimin and Taehyung.
“I needed the walk to take my mind off things, but I feel better now.” He smiles and curls further into the warmth of his soulmate and Jungkook.
After separating from Jungkook and Taehyung he goes to greet his hyungs. One by one, he gets hugs filled with warmth and teasing smiles. After greeting them all, Jimin settles onto the couch curled up against Hoseok. Only to hear complaints from Namjoon and Jin about “stealing” their boyfriend.
“You’re just jealous because he loves me more.” Tongue sticking out at them as they shared pouting expressions.
“C’mon, you know that isn’t true, you two are the lives of my life now get over here!” Hoseok reaches for them and they go to him easily. Jin fell on top of all three of them since Jimin didn’t move from his spot next to Hoseok.
After a while Jin gets up to get a drink, asking if anyone else wants anything. After listening to their complaints about interrupting the movie, Jin leaves to get drinks for all of them anyway.
After Jin comes back with everyone’s drinks, they all settle back down into a comfortable silence. Jimin sees Jungkook and Taehyung cuddled up together and Namjoon and Hoseok leaning against each other with Jin on top, enjoying each other’s presence. His heart does a thing seeing how content they all look. He’s happy that they’re all happy, together, and in love, but he can’t help but feel slightly jealous because he doesn’t have that.
Jimin wants Yoongi there. It feels wrong without his best friend.
After school, Yoongi heads home still thinking about Jimin.
How long has he felt this way? Have I been hurting him this whole time? My heart hurts…stupid feelings…
On his walk home he thought about what love meant to him. Thought about what loving Jimin means to him, and there was no question in his head about what it is to love Jimin. Loving Jimin came easy to Yoongi.
It’s as simple as breathing…
After making it home, he laid down on the couch.
If I had known sooner…I could’ve told Jimin sooner…
Thinking of the what if’s, he fell asleep.
However, Yoongi didn’t wake up later that night. He didn’t go to Jin’s apartment and he didn’t see Jimin.
Yoongi woke up the next morning. Feeling groggy and sweaty, and after getting his phone he checked the time and froze.
6 missed calls from Jinnie Hyung…
6 messages…
Jinnie hyung: yoongi where are you?
Jinnie hyung: are you coming?
Jinnie hyung: yoongs?
Jinnie hyung: did something happen?
Jinnie hyung: text or call me in the morning so I know you’re okay
Jinnie hyung: please
Yoongi tried to get up, but immediately regretted that because of how dizzy he felt. Don’t tell me i’m sick. He felt sluggish and could feel the weight of his body, and slouched over after managing to sit up.
I’m definitely sick, great, just great.
He picked up his phone and messaged Jin.
Yoongi: hyung, i’m sick
Yoongi: I can barely move
Yoongi: I managed to sit up but that’s it
His hyung answered back almost immediately.
Jinnie hyung: i’ll be over later okay? Stay in and rest yoongs
Yoongi: okay, thanks hyung
Jin felt better knowing Yoongi didn’t show up now. Relieved Yoongi wasn’t ignoring them, but worried because his friend is sick.
“Yoongi’s sick, that’s why he didn’t show up last night.” Jin said sadly.
“Sick?!” Jimin asked with concern.
“Says he can barely move.” Jin said lightly. “I’m going to check on him after school. Anyone coming? Actually, no it’s better if you don’t since he’s sick.”
“i’m going!” Jimin said urgently.
“He’s sick Minnie.” Taehyung says quietly.
“I don’t care, he’s my best friend I’m going to take care of him.” Jimin said firmly.
“Okay, but don’t complain to me if you get sick.” Jin said gently.
A few hours later, they left for Yoongi’s apartment. They picked up a few things he may need and then continued on their way.
They made it to his apartment and Jimin could feel his heart racing. Afraid to see Yoongi after his written confession to him, but his hyung was sick and needed him.
They walked in and Jimin immediately went to Yoongi.
“Hyung, me and Jinnie hyung are here now okay? We’ll take care of you.” He said quietly.
“Jiminie? You came” a small smile appeared. “I’m glad you’re here.” He said tiredly.
“Yeah, sleep hyung, I’ll be here when you wake up.” He whispered softly.
A few hours later, Yoongi wakes up to the smell of soup and quiet piano music playing.
“Jiminie? Jin hyung?” he looked around, slowly sitting up but falling back down because of how weak he felt.
“Right here hyung.” Jimin said as he approached Yoongi holding soup. “You need to eat and drink some water so you can take some medicine.”
Instead of answering, Yoongi slowly sat up with the help of Jin and ate the soup quietly.
After Yoongi finished eating, Jin took the bowl back into the kitchen, and Jimin stayed with Yoongi.
“Do you feel better hyung?” Jimin asks quietly.
“A little, still a bit dizzy.” He says, laying back down.
“Let me go get your medicine then.” Jimin says getting up.
Jimin goes to get his medicine, but when he comes back he sees Yoongi lightly dozing off.
“Hyung, you need to take your medicine, c’mon.” Jimin says lightly.
Instead of waking up, Yoongi seems to completely fall asleep.
He needs the sleep. Jimin’s mind supplies before he gets up again.
“Jiminie, will you stay with him, or do you want me to?” Jin asks quietly knowing Yoongi is a light sleeper when he is sick.
“I’ll stay with hyung, you go back to your boyfriends.” He said with a small smile and a teasing tone.
“Brat.” Jin says gently, suppressing a laugh.
With that Jin leaves and Jimin returns to Yoongi and eventually falls asleep on the floor by his hyung.
When Yoongi wakes up, he realizes that, one, he’s on his couch, and two, that Jimin actually came over to take care of him. And Jinnie hyung…
With that knowledge, he feels his heart flutter and his stomach twist.
He actually cares, still, after i’ve been hurting him…
Yoongi noticed something moving on the floor and sees Jimin curling up because of how cold it is. So Yoongi pulls the blanket off of himself and puts it over Jimin to keep him warm.
With a content smile reaching the younger’s lips, he lays back down and feels his eyes get heavy again.
Next time we’re awake Jiminie. I promise, we’ll talk about it… I don’t wanna keep hurting you when I feel the same…
Jimin wakes up, feeling warm and content, before jolting completely awake.
Did I fall asleep at Yoongi’s?! Oh no, what if he wants me to leave… I’m scared…
Only, it wasn’t just in his head, because he soon heard Yoongi’s voice, tired but worried.
“Jiminie? Are you okay?” he asks tiredly.
“Um— I need to leave, I have plans...” He says hurriedly while getting upset
“Jiminie— JIMIN!” Yoongi didn’t yell but was close to it. “Quit running away from me…please?” he started strong but ended shyly.
“Hyung…” Jimin says softly.
“Please, allow me to explain things, please don’t run away again.” He sounds so defeated.
“Okay, let’s talk hyung.” Jimin says sitting on the table in from of Yoongi.
“…Am I starting?” Yoongi asked nervously.
“N— I—…I like you hyung, I have for a while.” Jimin says, eyes welling up. “I knew you didn’t see me like that, so I sent letters to you instead, hoping for something…I don’t know why I thought you would notice it was me.” He says curling in on himself.
“Jiminie, i’ll be honest, I wasn’t expecting a confession, b-but i’m happy it was one.” Yoongi says, suddenly looking down and thinking the floor is better than seeing Jimin’s expression. “I don’t know when I really realized it and maybe i’ve just always felt this way, but I love you to Jiminie.” Yoongi whispers.
Jimin suddenly couldn’t hear anything else but those words. He was scared he was dreaming, but the sudden weight of Yoongi holding him brought him back.
“You don’t need to cry Jiminie, hyung is sorry he took so long to say anything.” He says gently, afraid to break the delicate atmosphere.
Crying? Oh… o-oh…
Suddenly all that Yoongi could hear was his best friend’s sobs, muffled by his shoulder. He hugged Jimin close until the younger quit crying.
Once he was sure Jimin had calmed down, he rested his forehead against Jimin’s.
“I love you Jiminie.” Yoongi said with a bright smile.
“I love you too hyung, so, so, so much.” More tears overflowing.
Yoongi just laughed happily and kissed away his tears. He felt euphoric, and so in love.
They held each other for a while before deciding they should probably get up.
Jimin went to get Yoongi’s medicine, but was pulled down onto the couch and in Yoongi’s arms. They stayed like that until Jin came back over, screaming about how Jimin could get sick, and how they should have told him.
They both laughed at him and fell back into each other feeling happy and euphoric.