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You never Asked
You never tried to understand
You expected me to adapt to your world without problems.
You didn’t realise
Did you?
This is your world
My world was lost seventy years ago
The ice took it away, and in some way, I let it.
My world was blood and pain and war, but it was also dancing and music and friendship.
They are all gone.
Empty chairs at empty tables
How much changes in seventy years?
The war ended, new ones began, wars of race and gender, of age and ethnicity, of wealth and power.
Seventy years.
You tried to trick me.
I woke up after dying to a fake room, with a fake nurse.
I ran
I saw things
Screens, buildings, buses, cars.
People being free
You want to know what I thought?
This is what I fought for
But now I see it is not
America
You made me a promise
You told me I could make a difference
Did I?
Where are the people I fought for?
The people I loved
Dead
What did I fight for?
Freedom, integrity, following your heart, staying true to yourself
Now
Now you are telling me that those don’t matter
Just follow orders
Does it matter if they are wrong?
No
Does it matter if the enemy is brainwashed and hurting?
No
Not for him
But it mattered for Clint,
For Natasha,
For Pietro and Wanda
For Nebula
But not for Bucky
Not for the one person that was mine
Why not?
Because he killed?
They all killed
We all killed
It’s because he’s mine isn’t it
I’m the one asking for him
Anyone else asked and we would save them
It is me
I know I am only here for my strength
You don’t want the heart that comes with it
What am I to you?
Fossil, old man
Defunct
Old
But I will stand
I will fight
Because I still believe
In freedom
Do you know when a soldier is the most dangerous?
When they have nothing left to lose
You should have left me in the Ice.