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Monty could always see color.
He always saw the blues, the reds. He didn't ever see just black and white.
His parents were concerned, they always thought that meant something was wrong, like he couldn't love, like he wouldn't ever find love.
But Monty didn't think that. When he was young, he thought it meant that he loved everyone, that he wasn't meant just to love one person but everyone.
When he met Jasper, he thought that maybe, just maybe, it was just a fluke that he could always see color, and maybe Jasper was his soulmate.
But Jasper never saw color, in fact Jasper always was looking for his soulmate. Always seeking out new people, forever hopeful that he would meet them and see the world the way Monty did.
If only he knew.
In the white room at Mount Weather, Monty promises himself he will tell Jasper the truth if he ever gets out of here.
When Clarke appears in the room across the hall, he almost starts crying because now no one will save them. He mouths names across through the windows, when he reaches Jasper's, Clarke nods her head, meaning he was alive. Relief flooded through Mony's body.
But who even knows what that meant anymore.
*
Jasper saw color the first day on earth when he met Octavia. It washed the trees in green and the sky in blue. And for the first time ever, he understood how Monty saw the world.
He felt a smile break out onto his face, he waited for her returning one.
It didn't happen, she just kept talking to the others.
Jasper knew this was possible. Sometimes, one person's soulmate wasn't the others. It happened on the Ark only a handful of times. But before the war, on earth, it was much more common. But Jasper never thought it would happen to him.
He still loved Octavia, he saved her from the river monster without a second thought because of it.
But it still hurt that she would never feel the same way.
When Jasper woke up in the white room, he started crying. Octavia wasn't in the dropship when the ring of fire happened, she wasn't dead because he still saw color and when your soulmate died, things went back to black and white. But he had no idea where she was or if she was safe. Jasper cried for Monty, who was most likely dead. He cried for Bellamy who burned alive in the fire. Most of all, he cried because for the first time time in his life, he was all alone.
*
Raven saw color for the first when she was 13, that's when she met Finn.
She doesn't even remember how they met or what they talked about. All she remembers is the way color flooded her vision. Washing over Finn and everything around them with color.
She remembers hearing her gasp then she hears Finn's and just for a moment everything is perfect.
Things aren't so perfect now.
Finn doesn't seem to care about soulmates anymore. When she first came down, he hid it. Looking back, she sees all the looks he gave Clarke. She knows she saw them before but she ignored them because she and Finn were soulmates, and they were going to be together, he was just having doubts which was fine everyone had doubts sometimes.
She never thought she would doubt Finn.
But she started to. She couldn't believe it.
Actually she could believe it. Once she landed on earth, soulmates seemed like such a trivial thing to worry about. It didn't seem so important. Most of the others couldn't seem color, it didn't seem to bother them.
So she broke up with Finn, and for the first time since she was 13, she was alone, she didn't cry though. Because if Raven couldn't control what happened to her, she was going to control her reactions to it. And she would not cry, not for herself, not for Finn, not for anyone.
When she woke up in the room at Mount Weather, she was able to move her legs and walk. But her vision was black and white again. Raven began sobbing. She pressed her hand against her mouth, trying to stop herself, but then she realizes no one will see her cry. So she gives in and lets herself sucum to the tears.
*
Octavia saw color when she met Lincoln. When she was on the ground, bleeding, and he saved her.
She thought she was her happiest when she stepped out of the dropship on to earth. She was wrong when the world was colored, when she saw Lincoln's face in color, that was the happiest she had ever been.
After she got Lincoln out of camp, she told him about soulmates on the Ark and how she had always seen black and white.
He told her that the first grounders were like that too. But over the years, the black and white sight until meeting your soulmate faded until it was nothing more than a story.
Lincoln smiled at her though. He said he felt the same. It made Octavia so happy.
When she told Bellamy about how Lincoln was her soulmate, she expected he would be happy for her. But instead it made him angry.
He yelled, cursed, and almost cried. He said what if he was lying? What if he was just trying lure Octavia into telling him everything about their camp? Just so he could kill all of them?
Octavia slapped him. Because how dare he question her feelings, how could he look at her and see all her feelings right on her face and still question her feelings for Lincoln.
She loved Bellamy. But in that moment she loved Lincoln more.
When Bellamy told her to go with Lincoln, that he needed her to live, she knew what he was saying.
He understood, and he accepted it. And he was ready to have someone else to protect her, even though she really didn't need someone to protect her.
And in that moment, she wished, not for the first time, that her life was different. That Lincoln and Bellamy could actually meet and talk, that she could live and love Lincoln and still be close to Bellamy. That she didn't have to choose between loving Lincoln and staying with her brother.
Because in that moment, with Bellamy saying may we meet again, she loved both of them equally.
*
Finn wasn't sure if he stopped loving Raven or just stopped caring about soulmates.
He once loved the idea of soulmates, of having that one person that was perfect for you, who loved you without a doubt and you loved them without a doubt.
And, for a long time, that was Raven. When he got arrested and was in the skybox, she came and visited as often as was allowed.
Finn loved her, he did. She was his soulmate but he no longer thought that was it for him.
When Finn went to the ground and met Clarke, he thought that maybe the system was flawed. That maybe Clarke was his real soulmate, or that he had two soulmates. He didn't know and he didn't really care.
He wasn't exactly shocked when Raven broke up with him. He knew she saw the looks he gave Clarke. He knew she saw it. It wasn't like he didn't love Raven, he did. But he loved Clarke too.
When he told Clarke he loved her, she didn't say it back. When he asked if she saw color when she met him, she said no.
Finn wasn't sure what he should do next. He thought that Clarke would have loved him back. That maybe she would have saw color when she met him and just didn't tell him.
Deep down, he thought that if she did see color when she met him, it would justify everything he did to Raven. That everything would be ok as long as he was her soulmate.
He should have know nothing on earth was easy.
When he runs away from Clarke and toward Bellamy, he knows it's the end. He and Bellamy start running. They get separated.
He tries to get away from the fire, in the end, he wasn't fast enough.
When the fire consumes him, his last thoughts are wondering if Clarke will miss him and if Raven will ever forgive him for taking her color vision with him.