Archive of Our Own

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You stare at the letter in your hands...

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It glares back at you.

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What are you doing (Y/n)... Are... you really doing this?

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After all this time...

After all these years...

Wasted...

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You knew what you had to do... And it would be the most painful thing that you ever will probably have to do.

... Well... second most painful.

But you just... Can't keep doing this anymore.

Doing this to him... Doing this to yourself.

He... deserves to know.

They both do.

You just can't keep this secret anymore. And if Bel started digging more...

He'd eventually find out the truth.

Hell, he is going to find out anyways. Bel's smart and he already knows he's... different from the other kids.

He may look human, but those red eyes, unnaturally pale skin, white hair, and shark like teeth aren't what normal humans have... Even if the humans have been accepting of him... for now anyways...

He's still young and has a good heart for a kid, but that can change easily depending all on you and how you raise him up to be.

The humans can start receiving him as a monster instead of a human if he starts... misbehaving more. Even though he is truly a hybrid of both...

So you try your best to lead Bel down the right path, to ensure he always stays kind to others and to never cause trouble for others. In hopes that maybe he turns out more like you instead of... his father.

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Most are... fascinated with Bel, there wasn't a lot of hybrid monster/human kids running around so he was special, (even if Bel didn't know he was a hybrid)... And a lot of the humans in your community sympathized with you mostly because of you being a single mother trying to provide for the both of you on your own.

They were cautious of you at first. How could they not be when Bel looks... different, if not slightly intimidating by his ghostly appearance, and you were both outsiders from a different country. But all it took was one small display of Bel's kindness towards others, and your community practically fell in love with him.

Everyone in this small town knew who you both were and weren't so afraid to approach you anymore.

Bel started having friends and playing with the other kids like any normal kid should be doing and you get to raise him without fear that he'd be perceived as any different than what he was.

Life was good for you here in England.

Granted things didn't go so well when you first arrived and tried to get a job at the Romilly fashion line (a dream you've always has as a kid) that you were flat out rejected from by Evon Romilly...

She wasn't interested in you or any ideas or designs you had. The most you got to do was walk into her office before she told you to leave right on the spot...

You honestly didn't know what you were expecting there. Like someone like Evon would just right out accept you and give you the title of head designer right off the bat. That's only something that happens in fairy tales...

It was a dumb move on your part to even think you would get a job there when you first moved here.

But you made up for it and set off to find a different job.

You just had Bel right before you moved to England and you needed a new job to provide dwellings for the both of you.

You were thankful when an old man who ran a... decent... restaurant came along and took pity on you when you decided to stop for a bite to eat, claiming he can give you a job along with a place to live temporarily if you worked for him.

And you didn't hesitate. You took the offer immediately and ever since then, you became a proud waitress at his restaurant.

The money you made was enough to get by and provide for Bel, and you became the old mans new face of his... running down restaurant. The food he cooked was heavenly but the restaurant itself had seen better days... and having you around was really beneficial to him since you were young, good looking apparently in his eyes..., and attracted new customers. Not only that but you threw in some ideas of what he could change around the restaurant to make it appear more... approachable by others.

The both of you worked tirelessly together to rebuild the restaurant into what it was, using some of your designing skills to turn the place completely around. It became one of the top finery places to eat and is available and affordable to everyone, which it took only a few years to do so. Sadly, the old man had to dip into his retirement savings just to turn his old pride and joy around.

But the results of it all gave him more than enough to retire on and then some.

His business was booming again and you were to thank for that. Hell even some of England's top celebrities came by just to check out what all the fuss was about. And they left with satisfied smiles and amazing food in their stomachs.

Even Evon came by at one point and complimented the restaurant to the moon and back about how amazing it was, granted she didn't remember who you were but it's not like it really mattered much anyways... 

Once you told her you designed all of this down to the last detail, she offered you a position at her designing company and wanted you to work closely with her.

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You refused her offer. You've seen Evon's true colors that day when she didn't even give you the time of day and you didn't want to be apart of her business any longer after that. But you made sure to let her down gently on declining her offer, as to not offend her, and she left you with her business card in case you ever changed your mind.

But why mess up what you have going for you now?

You and the old man both put your small town back on the map again with all your hard work and people came to visit from all over just to get a taste of what the old man was cooking.

You were happy with how thing are now.

And you didn't want that to change.

Hell you even met an amazing guy one day at work who visited you and ordered the same stupid cup of coffee everyday just to get a chance to talk to you.

His raven black hair and baby blue eyes were just... irresistible to you. And you fell pretty hard for him and his British charm.

One date turned into multiple dates and the both of you just... clicked. You even came to find out later that he worked really closely with Evon, and was there the night Evon came to visit the restaurant for the first time.

He helped provide for you and Bel on getting things that you both didn't... necessarily need...

But you accepted it anyways, since, well... once the old man who ran the restaurant died and without him leaving a proper will to anyone about his belongings, the bank ended up taking full claim of everything and closed it down along with taking any property he may of previously possessed.

That also being the apartment you were currently residing in.

You were out of a job again and without a place to go since the apartment that you where still in belonged to the old man,... you were scared to how you were suppose to provide for Bel now... You had a little money saved back to get another place but not enough to continue providing for you and Bel.

But Harry approached you and offered for you to move in with him that same day since the both of you had been seeing each other for about 5 months now. He assured you that he would take care of everything and all you had to do was stay home and take care of Bel along with providing for his needs.

Once again... you accepted without hesitation. If only for Bel's sake out of more than your own... which honestly, you should of given it more thought...

Harry was... weary around Bel after you moved in with him, but the both of them seemed fine to you. They just needed time to adjust to each other maybe?

Well... you thought that for awhile, until you saw the way Harry was treating Bel... As if he was a monster more than a human...

It was small at first like ignoring Bel's presence around him. But then it turned into Harry giving Bel hateful looks and even calling him a demon child... You weren't to happy about that since Bel didn't even say or do anything wrong to deserve that hateful name being thrown towards him.

Of course you would defend Bel over Harry and that would always make him... upset with you...

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Really upset...

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But it didn't stop you from protecting Bel. He was your main responsibility over anyone...

But Harry was providing the best life for Bel that he could ever receive from anyone... more than what you ever could for him since Harry made A LOT more money than what you ever did.

Even though Harry said some hateful things to you and Bel and... did some awful things to you... you toughed it out and endured it.

All for Bel.

As long as Bel was happy and was living the best life while retaining his kindness, it was all that mattered to you.

You didn't care what happened to you.

But no matter what happens, you would always protect Bel.

He never got hurt, not with you around.

So when Bel approaches you one day... asking about his real father and where he is?... You didn't know what to say.

You... ran away from that part of your past years ago, and never dared to look back on it in fear of how much you resented yourself for doing so...

You... ran from him...

The man you loved so much back then and who you sometimes questioned on if he could love you as much as you did with him.

And it wasn't his fault for you questioning him like that... It was your fault.

You were just to insecure about yourself that you always questioned his affection for you.

How could someone like Red... love someone like you.

He was... everything you weren't.

Funny, smart, confident, strong, good looking, a bit on the perverted side...

Maybe a lot on the perverted side... 

But it's what made him so popular in high school, when the monsters first emerged from the underground and had to go back to school to relearn everything they missed out on...

Red instantly became one of the guys that EVERY girl wanted or wanted to be around.

And he dated A LOT of girls and had A LOT of one night stands with girls, from how most of them would boast about it anyways.

So many of them fell head over heels for him... you were no acceptation to that.

But how could someone like you who was quite, and mostly stuck to themselves like a loner, ever land a date with the guy who was dating girls that looked like supermodels compared to you...

You couldn't...

So you just stayed out of his way, never approached him, and tried not to make yourself to noticeable while being a sheep walking through a den of lions.

You kept your head down and did what you were suppose to, just so you could make it through graduation and go pursue your dreams.

But fate had another plan for you when you caught another skeleton getting beat the hell out of by a group of bullies in the fields outside of school. They were all ganging up on him, calling him things like a freakish monster who didn't know how to keep his mouth shut...

And it pissed you off...

Those years of taking self defense and kick boxing classes really paid off there as you beat the hell out of the three guys who were jumping and kicking the poor skeleton on the ground.

No one deserved that kind of treatment and they scattered like roaches when you turn on a light, when they realized they just got their ass handed to them by a girl, and you were about to stomp them out a second time just by the looks they were giving you...

You had to take Paps to the hospital that night, after he spews to you curse word after curse word on how he didn't need your help, how pathetic you were, and that he was fine...

But his broken arms and a few broken ribs said otherwise, so you ignored his many hateful words he said to you and brought him to get treatment. 

Of course when you got there, and the doctors had him all patched up, his discharge papers were taking forever to come around, so you and Paps had a lot of time to talk and get to know each other.

Which he complimented you on your ability to kick peoples asses like that, and you complimented his bravery to endure that kind of beating and still want to go back to try and beat the hell out of them again.

The discharge papers were about to finally come around until... well someone started raising nine kinds of hell out in the hallway to Paps room.

Which the door was flung open and Red came stomping into the room looking heavily pissed off at Paps. But he seemed to calm down a little when his eye lights landed on you by his bedside.

It was... difficult trying to explain things to Red about what happened, without Paps trying to alter the story over you... but he understood and seemed to relax a bit after hearing everything that had happened. But still wasn't to happy about how things went.

It was the first time you ever talked to Red. And you were nervous as all hell to actually be talking to your crush like this. But he thanked you over and over again for helping his idiot brother like that, even though it was kind of dumb to put yourself in that kind of situation just to help his brother out.

But it was then that you formed a bit of friendship with the both of them in that hospital room. You tried to leave to give the brothers time together, knowing you've done your part, but Red insisted that you stayed if you didn't have other plans.

After that, Paps took a strong liking to you. Like wanted to make you his girlfriend strong, but you both settled on just staying friends since your feelings were to... 'crushing for Paps' as he put it? You don't know what the hell went on in the 3 minute date you had with Paps that he forced you to go on with him... but he became your closest and only friend.

Even Red started making... sudden appearances around you more and hanging around with you. Which you were thrilled about.

After awhile, they even introduced you to their other friends which after a few fights and disagreements, you became apart of their group and became their most beloved friend that they looked out for. And you looked out for them.

All was good and you were all happily friends... until, you or Red couldn't outrun your feelings for each other anymore.

He finally approached you after a few months and told you he wanted you more than just his friend. Something he had been throwing hints about for awhile, but you just thought he was teasing you.

He told you that he was willing to work more on your feelings towards him if you didn't feel the same way about him just yet, but to just give him a chance first before rejecting him. Or at least, think about it.

You didn't have to think on that, you accepted right then and there, if only to be getting that date with your crush that you only dreamed about for a night.

Well it wasn't just one date that he was wanting with you or a one night stand.

He wanted you to be his girlfriend and only his, as he put it, and without anything to really lose from the experience, you accepted.

Boy were you not ready for what came after you accepted him!

He treated you a whole lot differently than what he treated anyone else.

He bought you things (even if you told him you REALLY didn't want him to do that because you just didn't like people buying shit for you), he hung around you ALL the time making sure you were always on his arm, and showed you endless amounts of love he had to offer under all that bad boy exterior. He made sure you were untouchable to anyone, and if a guy dared to approach you or lay a hand on what's his, they might lose a hand or end up with their nose broken. 

Sometimes that happened just because he didn't like the way a guy was looking at you, which earned him many scoldings from you that he cut off just by kissing you to get you to shut up... And because he wanted to from how cute you looked, like a puffed up kitten from what he would claim...

A small chuckle escapes you from the memory...

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Of course, a lot of drama and hate came your way because Red was so much more popular than you, and you were just another one of his girls that he was going to play to get what he wanted out of them, then leave them like yesterdays trash.

And after awhile... you started to believe it. Only when Red started approaching you about wanting sex from you or making more... bold moves towards you. Which you tired to dodge his attempts at...

Red never made you doubt for a second that he didn't want you sexually. Always claiming he wanted you in more ways then one and that he loved you unconditionally...

And you loved him...

But you started believing that maybe... he was just spilling a honey coated tongue to you just to get what he wanted. Why love someone like you... when he could have someone so much better? Why keep trying to have sex with you when clearly you weren't ready for it?... Why couldn't he just leave it alone until you were ready?... What if you give him what he wants and he just... doesn't want you anymore?

But it's not like you flat out told him your fears or that you weren't ready either. You only toyed with him back when he would toy with you... Which sometimes got him to flustered to kept attempting to bed you but other times only encouraged him more to try harder.

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So...

You finally put your fears aside a put Red to the test... To test to see if his words for you were true... If his feelings for you were true...

It's not like you had anything to lose right?

Just him, if things turned out the way that everyone said they would...

You finally gave Red his long awaited wish...

You had sex with Red.

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And you got pregnant because of it...

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And you were scared again...

You dropped Red instantly like he was a hot pan once you found out and moved away from him and all your friends.

You were scared to how he would react... How he would even feel about something like this.

Or how his friends and family would feel about this...

How everyone would feel about this...

The online courses to complete your graduation didn't take to long and after you had Bel on American soil, you ran to England.

And never looked back.

But now that Bel has approached you about his father... What are you suppose to do?

Keep him shielded forever about being a hybrid? Lie to him and tell him his father died or something? Second guess yourself again and tell him that his father never would of wanted him?

Red doesn't even know about Bel, so how could you be so sure about that conclusion?

But it's not like Red came looking for you either...

But it's not like he'd be able to find you since all you did was kept running from place to place to avoid any detection by him or anyone...

You didn't want Red to find you... Or find out about Bel... You never even wanted to think about Red again or your past with him.

Those 3 years you spent being Red's girlfriend was... the best times of your life... And you don't regret them... Or having Bel...

And... no matter how long it's been now... He deserves to know.

Him and Bel both deserve to know about each other.

You gave into your thoughts and finally decided to do what was right after thinking over it for a few weeks.

You have the letter in your hands addressed to Red- Er..., Sans... and his last known address that he was located at.

If he receives the letter, tickets and everything included in the packaged envelope to both Red and Paps, then he has the option to either accept or reject the offer to come to you to talk in person.

About what?..., you didn't mention... You didn't want to scare Red off just by mentioning Bel in the letter, and instead giving them both the chance to at least met once face to face.

And you didn't tell Bel about this either...

In case Red decides not to show up, you can at least live with the fact that you tried to reach out to him in secret.

You... didn't want to get Bel's hopes up about meeting his father. Or your own hopes for that matter that maybe he might come.

You sent the letter off to the post office the next day while doing some shopping for the apartment.

And you waited...

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And waited...

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About three months have passed since that day that you sent the letter off.

You were just pulling the chicken out of the freezer to defrost for dinner tonight when a soft knock comes from your front door.

"I got it!" Bel yells to you from the kitchen as he zips past the kitchen and down the hallways towards the door.

You run some cold water over the chicken after you toss the package in the sink, and look towards the clock mounted on the wall above you.

It's way to early for Harry to be home? 

Kind of a dumb thought anyways, since why the hell would Harry bother knocking on his own front door anyways?

Unless he went out day drinking again and locked himself out or forgot how to put the key in the lock...

...Wouldn't be the only lock he didn't know how to really put a key in...

"Um... Mommy?" You hear Bel's hesitant voice from the hallway call out to you.

You grab the dishtowel from the sink to dry your wet hands and walk out into the hallway to where Bel's voice came from.

"What is it-?" You go to ask but immediately cut yourself off when you round the corner to see who's standing at your doorstep.

Bel turned his attention back to you worried as he held the front door open wide.

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You thought maybe your eyes were playing tricks on you... but no, they weren't.

In all his intimidating glory, stood your old lover from all those years ago with his hands shoved deep inside his jacket pockets.

His face was tense and held no smile as he eyed you with wide eye sockets, the red pin prick lights that inhabit his eye sockets looked so enlarged as you eyed him back.

You... weren't expecting him to show up at all...

Maybe a letter back to you returning the tickets and refusing to come, yes.

Him showing up unexpected at your doorstep like this after months of not hearing anything back... no.

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And all that fear you felt all those years ago came crawling back to you and washed over you at full force like a tidal wave.

Neither of you acknowledge Bel when he abandoned holding the door open and rushed over to your legs to cling to you as you and Red stared at each other. Probably scared by your shocked expression...

You almost lost your death grip that you had on the dishtowel as you stared at Red... 

"Red?" You muttered softly under your breath, not really believing he was here.

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He... didn't move or respond to you, just stared at you with wide eyes... He was starting to look more and more like an unmoved statue by how it was like he was frozen in place.

What was going through his head at these moments... you had no idea and probably would never know.

You were starting to question whether he was really here or not until the white fur on his black parka ruffled a bit at a passing breeze.

You crossed your arms loosely across your chest, which that action by you seemed to snap him out of the small daze he was in, as you rose an eyebrow at him.

"Are you going to come in or just stand there until you need an invitation?" You kept your tone playful with him as he finally shook off his thoughts and came inside, closing the door behind him gently.

You sighed internally to yourself... Well at least he hasn't turned tail and ran yet... Not like you'd go chasing after him if he did... Or blame him if he did...

"It's... so good to see you. It's been awhile hasn't it?" He turned back to you, his smile wide as he eyed you from head to toe, that one gold tooth glinting in the light by how wide his smile went.

"yeah... 's... really good to see ya to sweetheart." You smiled at the familiar soft but deep tone he used with you.

He... looks the same as he did all those years ago... Black parka with a red sweater, those same black basketball shorts with the yellow stripe going down the side, even his red and yellow sneakers look the same and still in pristine condition.

He takes his phalanges from out his pockets and rubs the back of his neck nervously as you gave him a gentle yet slightly encouraging smile. 

"i... uh... got yer letter and... uh... i-." He stutters out hesitantly only to freeze mid sentence by Bel nudging your leg.

"Can I go play mommy?" He whispers up to you, probably seeing that everything was alright between you and Red.

Bel's always been a protective one when it comes to you around other people that he didn't know.

Even though you're the one who does most of the protecting of him when it comes to... dealing with Harry.

You meet Bel's gaze and ruffle a bit of his white shaggy hair. "Yeah, go on ahead hun."

He huffs a bit annoyed at your antics before taking off towards the living room, yours and Red's gaze following him as he plops down on the sofa to play with some of his toys.

You turn back to Red, which he doesn't take his eyes off of Bel's form in the living room as you address him.

"Sorry about that." Red gives you a smile before shaking his head as if to say don't worry about it. "Can I get you anything? Something to drink or... anything really?"

You started walking towards the kitchen again where you left the facet still running, with Red following a little ways after you.

"nah. 'm fine... nice place ya got here."

You sit at the dining table and he does the same sitting in the spot across from you.

"Thanks... I guess." You say to him hesitantly which you know he took note of as he looks around the room, taking it all in.

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How do you even begin this conversation?

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What do you even say to him about... anything...

It's still so much of a shocker to you that he actually showed up and he hasn't teleported out of here yet so... that's a good sign maybe?

I guess you can start with the basic's that most people do when they haven't seen each other in years... Anything to maybe drag out the inevitable for a little while longer...

"How have you been?" You asked carefully.

He rakes his clawed fingers across the glass of the table before meeting your gaze.

He has this... odd look in his eye lights as he takes all of you in, as you sit a little uncomfortably in your seat.

You want to squirm a bit under his unwavering gaze at you but will yourself to remain strong and to not look to... intimidated by his presence.

"same as always i guess... finally got my own place recently n outta boss's non-existing hair. heh." He says while placing his elbow on the glass... which you slightly grimace at with how much you are going to have to clean it later just to get the smearing out...

Harry was always picky about a lot of things, and a clean house is one of those things he wants done everyday.

The place need to gleam and smell freshly clean before he gets home from work, with dinner on the table, and ready to be served to him...

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You know Red is watching every small move you make or every facial expression just to see how you react to certain things.

And you know with him you need to be calm, because the moment you slip up, is the moment he was going to know everything that's been going on with you.

He was always good with analyzing any situation just by reading the environment around him and the way a certain person acts. It's how he learned to survive in the underground... from the stories he's told you anyways.

It was why you could never hide anything from Red... He was always good at reading you like an open book... but you were determined to keep this much information closed off to him for as long as you could...

About Harry... and how he treats you.

You're... grateful you wore a long sleeve shirt today. Harry never did like looking at the marks he left anyways and always wanted you to cover them up.

It's like he couldn't take the shame that comes with each scar he made on you.

"Did you guys have some sort of falling out?" You asked him concerned, trying to deter your thoughts from the gloominess.

"nah, it was a mutual sorta agreement. thought it was bout time i learn responsibility... or whatever bullshit he was yellin' bout that day." He rest his skull in his hand as he looked slightly annoyed at recalling the memory.

Paps was always on Red's ass about anything and everything since Red was a big sleeper and prioritized naps over almost everything. And with Paps being and active, neat freak, he always scolded Red for being a lazy slob...

"That's relieving to hear. I take it that Paps is doing well then?"

"bout as well as he can be... n before ya go askin', yes everyone else is doin' fine to." He cuts you off when he notices you were about to bog down the conversation with more talks about all your other friends.

Guess he caught on to that...

"paps... wishes he could of come to, but had a lot of work to catch up on with protecting the kiddo n tori..."

"That's-."

He hold up a hand to cut you off. His ever grinning smile falling from his face as he gives you a serious look.

Seeing him eyeing you like that with so much concern made your somewhat false smile fall from your face as well.

You never could stand when Red gave you concerned looks... like he knew but didn't want to say anything until you told him first... But would always egg you on into telling him what was on your mind.

But thankfully... You know he doesn't know anything yet.

Guess this won't be a pleasant conversation after all if you're constantly going to have to keep your guard up around Red...

"now 's my turn ta ask ya somethin'... how have ya been doll?" He says to you so gently and of course you were about to respond with the whole 'I'm fine' bullshit before he quickly interrupts. "n... please don't lie ta me (y/n)... be honest."

"I-I... uh."

Now that did get you to rethink what you were previously going to say.

You wanted to tell Red everything... Just spill it all out on the table to him just to get all this bottled up shit out of you that you've been carrying for so long now... Hoping that maybe, he could sympathize with you even a small bit... Maybe help you feel a bit better about all this.

But it would make you look stupid, and desperate in front of him...

You didn't want to appear that way to him. You didn't ask him to come here for your help or Bel's help...

Just for the two of them to meet and you can both go your separate ways again, with him at least knowing he has a son and Bel knowing he has a father that cared enough to at least come and meet him once in his life...

You heaved a heavy sigh before looking towards the doorway to the living room area.

You know the concerned look Red was giving you from your peripherals as he looked over your defeated form.

"It's been... rough. It hasn't been all that easy, but... nothing ever is huh?" You look back to meet Red's gaze as he takes his elbow off the table slowly.

He searches your face with his eye lights as you give him a sad smile.

Red looked like he wanted to say something to you but was cut off by a loud crash coming from the living room that made the both of you flinch.

You quickly shot up from your seat, Red as well, as you both made your way to the living room.

"I'm okay!" Bel's muffled voice called towards you.

You approached around the other side of the couch to see Bel hanging upside down with his face planted into the floor. The end table next to the couch, knocked down next to him as he struggles to pick himself off the ground to sit back on the couch.

"Please be more careful hun... You could of been hurt." You take him by the arms and pull him back up on the couch as he gives you a grateful sharp toothy smile.

Something... that made Red stiffen a bit next to you.

"I'm okay though! Really! I just got into a major fight with Captain Ultron and he knocked me into the table with his ultra sonic boom!" He emphasizes to you before leaning over to whisper to you lowly. "But if I'm being honest, I know it was his evil pooch Gallaor that really did the sonic blast that knocked me back so hard. He just likes to pretend it was really Captain Ultron that did it to make fun of him behind his back."

"Oh really? That sounds so awful of him." 

"It is! Now we must fly away from my desert mommy queen to escape him! Before he invades our sector and sends out another sonic blast!" Bel quickly runs off to his bedroom with his action figures in tow.

You let out a small giggle as you watch him and his adorable form, run into his room and crash land onto his bed.

"It's been tough... but I've been pulling through where I could for my son. Well... as much as I can anyways." You softly address Red next to you, finishing try to answer his question from your previous conversation.

He never once took his eyes away from Bel as you both watch him play from the living room.

"he's... a real cute kid..."

"That he is."

"how... how old is he?" Sans asks you hesitantly.

"...Seven." You comment back to him with hesitation.

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Red was... quiet next to you... But you didn't bother to look over at him to see his expression. Knowing that the gears in his head were connecting the dots.

You knew it was coming... and you don't think you'd be able to tell him straightly...

The nervousness was rolling around in your stomach like you were on a risky roller-coaster. Dread was slowly seeping into you as the seconds ticked by...

And Red didn't say anything to you... Just silently stood next to you.

His presence didn't feel all that comforting to you anymore... It was like a dark shadow falling over you.

And you felt your sins crawling up your back...

Looking at him now... would only make the pain of telling him worse.

You were scared to see how he would react to this information...

What would he even say... Or do...

What do you even say or do as this dark hole swallows the both of you up whole, but neither of you are willing to fight it anymore?

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"seven... huh..." He mutters to himself more than to you.

You softly hummed at that to confirm his... rhetorical question... 

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"He... can be a real handful at times when he's not behaving... He acts so much like his father... in so many ways."

Which as much as you tried to snuff it out of Bel... he could be a pretty lazy kid at times. You've caught Bel napping in random places a lot.

The middle of the floor, on the tables,... hell you've even caught him falling asleep while standing up.

And when Bel is angry... he's pretty destructive. You're thankful he's showed no signs of magical capabilities yet, but that doesn't mean that they won't come later on in his life.

You don't know what you would of done if Bel just upped and vanished into thin air in your arms as a baby.

Would of scared the hell out of you.

"does he..." Red says so gently from next to you that you barely caught it.

You took your eyes away from Bel's playing form and looked at the polished wood beneath your feet.

"tell me... who... who's his father." He asked next to you, sounding a bit agitated if his tone was anything to go by.

You could feel the tears gathering in the corner of your eyes, stinging you in an effort for them to be released.

It was the question you've been resenting for so long now. The one you've been running from for so long.

And now... it's finally time... Time to stop running and face your demon head on.

It was the moment of truth for you, on how Red was going to take this kind of news... And the long awaited answers to your questions on how he was going to react...

But... it didn't make any of this easier. Not one bit.

You were scared to hurt anyone...

"... Red I-... I..." You trailed off as a bit of your tears started to streak down your cheek uncontrollably.

You were ashamed of yourself.

Ashamed that it had to come down to this and that you couldn't of just told Red the day you found out and went from there.

It shouldn't of mattered what he or anyone else thought back then. And it shouldn't matter to you now...

You didn't want anything from Red. Not his love. His approval. His time or his money. 

You just don't want him to hurt or for Bel to be hurt by how he might react to you telling him this now of all times... Or how you didn't tell him when it first happened, if Red even cares about that.

But the fact of Red being here now, shows and proves that maybe he does care... just maybe...

Or maybe he doesn't...

"l-look at me sweetheart." You hear Red choke out next to you which made you snap your head up to him in shock.

Translucent red tears have gathered in the corners of his eye sockets as he looks down at you so gently. A genuine smile plastered on his features as he searches your face for some kind of confirmation.

And you couldn't stop the streaming of tears that came at just seeing him look at you like that... expectantly...

"R-Red i-it's... it's..." You pressed the palm of your hands into your eyes to stop the flow of tears that wouldn't stop as you tried to choke the words out that got caught in your throat.

You wanted to tell him so badly, but your voice just kept failing you and only small sobs would escape from you as you tried to force them out.

Red turned to you fully, and gripped you by the shoulders, pulling you carefully into his arms. He wrapped them so tightly around your trembling form as his skull rested on the top of your head.

"It's y-you..." You finally choked out as he shushed you.

He buried his face in your hair. And you could feel the wide smile on his face as a bit of his translucent tears started to fall onto you.

" 's okay baby. i know... y-ya don't gotta say a-anymore than that." You sob into his rib-cage as he pulls you flush against him to try and shield you from whatever pain you were feeling.  

You could feel his bones tremble softly against you as he fights to hold back whatever feelings he's feeling in some valiant effort to comfort you first.

But once you return his embrace... that was you breaking the dam on him.

He cried in your arms refusing to let go of you for an instant... and you cried in his.

You don't know how long you both stood there in each others arms like that. But once both of your trembling stopped, was when Red started emitting soft purrs from his chest.

It almost made you want to laugh because you remembered how much he use to remind you of a cat.

Always being lazy and wanted to sleep. Would emit purrs from him when he was happy and content. And would even growl when he was pissed off or felt threatened...

And he hated it when you would call him a pretty kitty just to tease him...

But you know he secretly loved it by how he would try to show you how much of a pretty kitty you were instead...

"what's his name?" He asks you so softly as he pull away slightly to look you in the eyes.

You gave him a watery smile as he goes to wipe some of your stray tears away as gently as he can with his clawed fingers.

Your body wanted to flinch away from him with his hand being so close to your face, but you found yourself slightly leaning into the warm bones of his hand on your cheek. You knew deep down... Red would never hurt you.

You were safe with Red... He always made you feel so comfortable and protected even when he wasn't trying to.

And the way he's looking down at you, with such adoration in his features... You question why you even dared to leave him all those years ago.

"Bel."

"bel?" He questioned you knowingly while raising a non-existing eyebrow at you... trying to add a bit of playfulness to this situation that you gave a small choked laugh to.

If more out of relief than anything...

All your bottles you kept bottled up over the years came crashing down on you. And Red was here to comfort you.

"Yeah... after the Belwe font. I thought it was a little clever to name him after a font like you, Paps, and Gaster." 

"... 's perfect sweetheart."

You both turn to look to where Bel is playing on the floor of his room with his toys...

You're thankful he didn't notice the emotional state you were in with Red as you quickly let go of him.

He hesitated to let you go fully, but complied as he stood so closely next to you, still taking comfort in the fact that you were still both here and touching slightly, shoulder to his elbow.

"can i go talk to him?" Red asked you cautiously.

You hummed to him and gave him a small nod, not really trusting your voice anymore to want to spill more tears again just by how... happy you felt that he asked you to go talk to Bel face to face.

Ever since Red got here, he hasn't said a word to Bel. And now you know he's getting that chance...

You walk back towards the kitchen as Red goes towards Bel's room, wanting to give them a bit of privacy without you hanging around.

Bel would just seek your comfort to much, and you want him to be comfortable with Red around him and you not present. It would give more room for Red to talk to Bel privately as well and Bel to open up to Red on whatever he wants to without feeling to intimidated by your presence.

You know you can trust Red without a doubt in your mind. And Bel... to not say to much to Red.

You... just also needed a moment to process everything that just happened.

Wetting your hands, you ran your fingers through your hair, and washed your faced to clean it of all your salty tears.

Bel would be upset if he saw you a crying mess like this, and you don't want Bel to feel threatened by Red in any way.

Seeing you crying is just going to make him weary of Red and think that Red was the cause of your tears...

...

From what it seems like... you had nothing to worry about when it came to telling Red the truth...

How accepting of it he is now or would of been back then?... You have no idea...

You both still have... a good bit to talk about.

You need to know where Red stands on all of this...

After you dry your face with a clean washcloth, you cut the facet off and lean onto the sink.

...

Now... how were you suppose to break this kind of news to Bel...

You got one major optical down... only for another mountain to climb...

He's... going to want to know why you and his dad aren't together right now and what really happened... Or why you both can't be together now...

...

He's wondered for so long on who his father is, and you've always dodged any questioning about it.

Always trying to keep Bel distracted by something else or something new to take his attention away from the subject, but now that he's getting older... Those tricks weren't going to work as much anymore.

Red's here now... and Bel needs to know. Not everything since he's to young still... But... you're going to have to help him understand with time why things are the way that they are.

You... don't care for Red to take you back into his life again. You still feel something for Red, that much you aren't going to deny to yourself, but you don't care about your personal feelings.

You only wanted them to meet... Then for Red to do whatever he pleases with that information.

If he wants to visit from time to time, fine. If he want's nothing to do with you or Bel after today, that's fine to.

Either way, this isn't about you... It's about Bel.

You throw the washcloth into the sink as you head back towards Bel's room.

...

And you're at a lost for words about the scene in front of you when you get there...

On the floor, in the middle of the room, sits Red... with Bel in his lap as he levitates one of Bel action figures in front of the both of them with his magic.

"Woah! That's so cool!" Bel fan girls to Red who chuckles slightly at how Bel has literal stars in his eyes at Red's display of magic.

You lean against the door-frame, unable to keep the adoring smile off your face as you stare at the both of them.

"heh. ya think that's cool, then yer gunna love this."

You watch Bel's red eyes go wide as Red teleports the action figure from where it was previously floating in front of them, onto the ceiling above them.

"You can teleport things!?" Bel asks disbelieving.

"not jus' things, but people n myself included."

You know Bel has always had a thing for Syfi stuff. He was always into things like outer space, astronauts, or aliens.

And he absolutely loved the stars...

Something he got from both you and Red.

So, Red is most likely making his dreams come true by all this teleporting and telekinetic stuff... You know it amazed you when Red first displayed his powers to you.

"OOOO! Can you teleport me next! And- And make me float on the ceiling to!!!" Bel was practically bouncing in his spot in Red's lap.

Red's grin stretched widely at that idea and you already knew his response to that.

"sur-!" You cut him off quickly by clearing your throat loudly from the doorway.

He looks over to your... disapproving stare at that crazy idea as small red droplets start to form on his ivory skull.

"maybe some other time kiddo... for now, me n yer mom need ta go have a chat." He sends Bel a playful wink before moving him off his lap and onto the floor.

He gets up and walks over to you.

"Okay dad. But promise we can play after?"

That made you suck in a sharp breath as you look over to Red.

He gives Bel a gentle smile. "promise. but only after we talk ok? and if 's ok with yer mom."

They both look to you expectantly...

How does?... When did?...

Red sees the look of confusion in your eyes at the way Bel just addressed him... and mouths the words 'in the kitchen' to you. Taking that maybe he'll tell you during the little... chat the both of you have.

"Of course." You say to them as Bel hoots out a small cheer before going back to his action figures.

Red places a hand on the center of your back and ushers you away from Bel and into the kitchen, out of Bel's shot of hearing.

You take your spot again at the dining table, but this time, Red pulls a chair over to sit closely next to you.

You think you already know where this talk is going to go, and you quickly want to get this in before Red get's any wrong ideas.

"I know you probably want answers on why I didn't tell you anything up until now." You stare down at your hands in your lap as he places his hand over yours.

"no i don't."

You were going to pull your hands out from under his but freeze to look up at him at his dead serious tone.

His eye lights shrink in his sockets as they wander your face.

"i don't give a damn bout why ya left n decided not to tell me... i get it."

What???....

There is no way he picked up on all of that and the reason why you left just by being here for only a few minutes...

"i heard the rumors when we were... ya know." He gestures between the both of you, and you knew what he meant...

Back when you were both a couple...

"i was tryin' so hard to show ya that none of them were true in the slightest... n i know ya wanted to believe me on it but couldn't... ya ran from me because ya were scared to how i would react... didn't ya?" His grip on your hands tightened a little around you. Not to hurt you, but to provide some type of comfort to you, and to ground him a little.

"I did." You say confirming everything he picked up on. "I didn't know how you would react to that kind of news and I was scared. I was to young and still in school. I didn't know what I was doing... It's not like we were even dating that long to even consider a kid at the time. We weren't stable, had a stable job yet, or even really talked about any kind of future together."

You shook your head to shake away the crushing feelings that were coming over you with those thoughts.

"We were just... dating." And that's how you looked at it.

Never once did you talk about kids while dating,... or marriage, or spending forever together.

He just... wanted you... and you wanted him. 

"but i wanted to make ya my future (y/n)." He reaches into his pocket with one of his hands and pulls out a small black box, setting it gently in front of you. "i loved ya sweetheart. more than anythin'. n i know i didn't talk to ya bout a future together because i was waitin' for tha right time to do so."

He opened the small box on the diamond ring on the inside of it.

"i kept this all this time, n every time i looked at it, it reminded me of ya." 

And the tears started pricking in the corner of your eyes again uncontrollably as you stared down in disbelief of this gorgeous ring.

"i was goin' to wait till after we both graduated or hell even do it in tha middle of the ceremony n tell ya all the things that i've been thinkin' on for awhile now... but then ya jus'... vanished..."

He pulls the small ring out of the box and leads your hand up to it with his other hand, placing the ring in the palm of your hands.

"i... looked everywhere for ya. tryin' to figure out where tha hell ya went or if somethin' bad happened to ya. hell, all of us turned the town upside down lookin' for ya."

You placed a hand over your mouth in horror as he closes the ring into the palm of your hands.

...

What have you done...

...

You messed up... everything.

All because of your fears... Your insecurities.

You messed up not only your happiness... But Red's happiness to...

" 'm not dumb dollface. i know after all this time,... things have changed, feelins' do to... but believe me, jus' this once when i tell ya that my feelins' haven't changed for ya."

You took your gaze away from your joined hands as he stares at you seriously.

Not an ounce of him joking in his tone.

"That's... impossible." You say removing your hands from your mouth as he stares down at your quivering lips. "It's been over seven years Sans!"

You don't want to be toyed with right now... and you know that's impossible. He knows when you use his real name over his nickname, how dead serious you were.

Feelings do change over time, and his feelings should of been long gone for you.

You know most of your feelings for him were. You killed them and buried them in the backyard while only keeping a piece of it alive... That being Bel.

But now he's back there, shoveling all those feelings back up by hand if he has to.

"ya think that matters to me? three years, seven years, twenty years, it doesn't make a fuckin' difference ta me."

You glare at him and he challenges you back with how serious he is about that.

"i love ya (y/n). n i don't give a damn if ya love me back or not. but jus'... please... let me be here for ya... n for bel to. i don't want ya ta have ta feel like ya need ta run from me anymore. don't shut me out anymore doll."

"How can you still love me Sans? I ran from you. Took Bel away from you. Took whatever future we had together and crushed it." You yanked your hand away from his and slammed the ring down on the glass table.

It cracked a little under the force of the ring hitting it.

"There is nothing to love from me!" You yelled at him.

"did ya do it intentionally to hurt me or to destroy any future we may of had together? if ya tell me that's really the truth, then i'll leave outta both of yer lives n won't come back." He picks up the ring again from the table as you cradle your head in your hands.

He puts the ring back into the box and stuffs it back into his jacket pocket.

"but i know 's not true. ya didn't know bout any of this. n it wasn't yer fault sweetheart." He spoke so sweetly to you as he removed your hands from your head and placed a finger under your chin, tilting your head to meet his gaze once more.

"yer my soulmate (y/n). n i know i should of told ya this the moment i met ya, but just like ya, i was scared ta. i know ya don't know what that means but to us monsters, it means everythin'. yer soul was made for me. n mine for ya..." He brushes some of the hair out of your face as you stare disbelieving up at him.

"That's just a silly term we use to dignify the person who we think we belong with-." He places his clawed thumb on your lips to silence you after giving you a gentle smile.

"no, for us 's somethin' that's a real thing. a monster's soulmate only comes 'round only once in a life time. some never meet their soulmates while others get lucky n do. we know instantly because we are so in-tuned with our souls more than what ya humans are. n mine instantly pinged with yers tha moment i saw ya."

That part you knew.

Monsters and their souls were a big thing. It was like they worshiped and treated their souls as the temple to their whole being.

It's what started a lot of religious conflict with the monsters until they proved that souls were indeed a real physical thing. Not just some religious bullshit brought about by different people.

"after that... i tried so hard ta get ya ta notice me. n once i finally got ya, i wasn't goin' to let ya go."

He gently brush your bottom lip with his claw as he looked between your eyes and your lips.

" 'm not askin' ya to love me sweetheart. i can work towards that again over time... but please jus' let me be here for the both of ya... be tha father to bel that i should of been all those years ago."

You... weren't going to deny him his rights to see or be around Bel.

As far as your feelings go... You don't know how to feel about all this.

At your nod, he lets you go.

"Bel is your son. I'm not going to keep you away from him if you want to see him, and Bel is okay with that. As far as we go-."

"so how much do ya want?" He cuts you off while he leans back in his chair while eyeing you with one eye open and the other one closed. He folds his arms on the back of his head as he smiles gleefully down at you.

"W-...What?"

"how much do ya want?" He reaches into his other jacket pocket and pulls out a wad of cash...

"No no no! This isn't-."

" 'm thinkin'... thirty? no. fifty grand?"

Your eyes go wide as he starts counting the money in his hands.

"What?! No!-"

"no. yer right, yer right. a hundred would be waaaay more acceptable." He ties all of it off in a rubber band and places it in front of you.

"Red this isn't what I-!" You try to hand the money back to him but he just teleports away from you, into the chair across from you.

"i'll have ta pull more out to give to ya later when i go by tha bank. hope that will cover things for now tho."

"Will you just listen to me!" You yell at him frustrated as he gives you a playful smile.

You wanted so bad to punch him in the teeth.

"always. was on yer mind doll?"

You threw the money at his... stupid smiley face which he caught easily in mid air.

"I don't care about your money Red! I don't want it!"

"well i don't give a damn." He places it back in front of you and rests his head in his hand while eyeing you with a playfully gleam in his eyes. "take it. to make up for me not bein' there when i should of n providin' for tha both of ya."

"Red that wasn't your fault!... It was mine!..."

"it wasn't either of our faults." He waves you off gently. "but still, i wanna do somethin' for the both of ya, n this is just a small payment to help out where i should of helped out a long time ago. bel's my responsibly to ya know. n i know rasin' a kid on yer own wasn't cheap."

He... had you beat there. Bel wasn't easy to afford for.

You never got to buy the things you wanted with the money you made because you were always concerned about providing for what Bel needed first.

"Mommy?" Bel comes into the room and walks over to you. "I heard... yelling..."

You pat him on the head as he gives you a concerned look. You gave him a soft reassuring smile.

He was worried about you when you got a little upset with Red...

You forget that sometimes... Bel is always listening, and yelling at Red isn't going to help him establish some kind of bond with him.

"mommy's jus' refusin' daddy's help n bein' a big meanie about it." He pouts towards Bel to which Bel looks at you accusingly with his hands on his hips.

"That's not nice! It's always good to accept help when people offer it to you! Isn't that what you always told me?"

...

Red is so getting punched in the teeth later...

Your eyebrow twitched as you held your smile down at Bel... knowing the devilish grin Red was giving you from across the table to just try and refuse his help now.

"That's right..." You say through gritted teeth as you as Bel walks over to climb into Red's lap.

... You're honestly still curious of what the hell he told Bel to get him to grow on him that quickly to just... hop in his lap...

Red was beaming at the small act and... you felt your heart swell at looking at how happy the both of them were...

And then you felt like you were.... forgetting something...

Something... important?

Well... You certainly remembered what that something was when the front door slammed open out of no where and you quickly looked to the clock overhead.

...

Shit!...

Red ported over next to you with Bel as the panic was starting to set in.

You haven't started dinner yet... And you haven't finished cleaning either!

Fuck he's not going to be happy about that!

Bel was the first to notice you panicking and quickly climbed into your lap and clung to your torso, Red subconsciously letting him go to you as he glared at the doorway.

"Shit..." you muttered under your breath. That made Red look over to you curiously.

"woah sweetheart... was-."

"(Y/n)!" You hear Harry's voice call you from the doorway. "What the fuck have you been doing all day?! Why hasn't the floors been-!"

Harry rounds the corner with a pissed off look on his face that quickly turns to shock once he lays eyes on Red.

"Who the fuck are you?!"

"i can ask ya the same thing."

Shit you weren't watching the time!

And Red has been over here a lot longer than expected! You thought it's only been 30 minutes tops but no! He's been here for 4 hours now!

Shitshitshit!

You quickly remove Bel from your torso and walked in front of Red to approach Harry gently, Bel trying to reach out for you from behind you.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't realize you would be home so-."

"Did I say you could speak to me whore?!" He glares down at you accusingly, as if he just caught you cheating on him with another guy...

"I-I uh... I can explain! Please." Your voice sounded so small and meek compared to Harry's as you try to keep your voice calm to him.

Angering him further... wouldn't be good for you... or for Bel.

You hated appearing weak... But Harry was your only reliable source of income for Bel. So you did as you were told and toughed it out. Even though you knew you could take Harry on if need be.

But you couldn't risk getting kicked out by him.

...

All for Bel.

"Shut the fuck up! Do I need to keep showing you what happens when you don't know how to fucking listen and follow simple orders?! You live under my roof, you follow my fucking rules!"

He raises his hand to you and you knew what was coming.

"Mommy!" You hear Bel call from behind you and you brace yourself for what was coming, shutting your eyes tightly as if it was going to lessen the pain any...

...

But it never came.

Instead you opened your eyes hesitantly... slightly afraid the singing pain will catch you in the eye... again... But you were met with the sight of Red standing beside you with his claws dug deep into Harry's arm as he held his arm by the wrist mid air.

"ya got some nerve... treating n talkin' her like that."

"This is no fucking concern of yours monster! You do best to leave before I-."

A sickening crack came from Harry's arm as Red easily broke it like a toothpick between two fingers.

And just like that, before Harry could even scream from the pain of his wrist being crushed in Red hands, Red swatted him away with the flick of his wrist, and Harry crashes into the wall behind him.

Red ports in front of him and grabs him by the throat, pinning him against the wall.

"actually. 's my concern. ya talkin' to her like that in front of me n our son... n also"

He slams his hand into the wall next to Harry's head, leaving a huge dent in the wall. 

"raisin' yer fuckin' hands like that to my girl." A feral rumble ripped from Red's chest as his tone grew dark.

Bel runs over to your leg and clings to you trying to shield his face away.

You can tell he's scared just by the way he's trying to block out his hearing as well as trying to keep you from intervening by pulling you away into the other room.

"Red please stop!"

"not a fuckin' chance sweetheart."

"Please! Think about Bel!" You pleaded with him which that got his fist to freeze mid air from implanting it into Harry's skull.

Red was pissed, if the rise of static in the air was anything to go by.

You know that static feeling better than anyone to know that Red's magic was about to go on a rampage around him.

And you know Red can be destructive if that were to happen.

Not only that... you don't want Bel to have to witness any of this.

He's just a kid...

"take bel into his room... i think me n this guy need ta have a little... chat."

"Please Sans, you don't understand-." You approach Red in the hallway as Bel clings tighter to you, if not trying to pull you away from the both of them.

Red is fucking this up for you!

What are you going to do if Harry kicks you out, and you're left on your own again!

You can't let that happen, and Red beating the hell out of Harry was not the answer to this!

"i think i understand plenty."

"You fucking whore (Y/n)! I knew I should of never-."

"q u i e t." Red squeezed tighter around Harry's neck to silence him as he scratches at Red's hands to allow airflow back into his throat. "tha adults are talkin'."

He was chocking and staring to turn a soft shade of purple at how hard he was squeezing the life out of his neck with only one of his clawed phalanges.

Red's face was calm but his eye lights were non existing in his skull... like a dark black void.

"Please stop Red." You pleaded with him again.

You felt the tears falling from your eyes before you could even think to catch them.

You didn't want anyone to get hurt, or for Bel to see Red like this.

You wanted to raise Bel to be kind to others and seeing stuff like this wasn't going to help. "Please... stop. I don't want Bel to have to see this."

"ya don't want him to see this? but 's okay for him to see his mother get hit on like she's a punchin' bag?" He turns his head and meets your gaze head on with his eyeless sockets.

But they quickly blink back in when he notices the fresh new tears streaming down your cheeks.

You were... so tired of people not wanting to listen to you.

You dealt with it for a long time with Harry... And now Red isn't listening to you either.

"Is this the kind of example you want to set for Bel?! To solve everything with violence?!"

"Please... don't fight..." Bel tugs on both yours and Red's sleeve. "We're finally back together again... and I don't want you to fight and split up again..."

You stare down at Bel's watery eyes as he's also on the verge of tears...

And you freeze inside...

Bel isn't worried about Harry or what Red is doing to Harry... He's worried about you and Red fighting and him not being able to be some sort of dysfunctional family together...

"no one's splittin' up n goin' anywhere kiddo." Red speaks gently down to Bel.

He lets Harry go, who drops to his hands and knees gasping for air, when he realizes he's about to chock him to death.

He grabs Harry by the collar of his shirt and gives him a wider than normal smile.  

"get out." He throws Harry down the hall and out the front door, using his magic to slam it shut once his body is outside.

He quickly locks the door while glaring daggers at it like he wants to blast the door off it's hinges.

Harry bangs on the door while cursing at you and Red saying how you needed to pack all your shit and get the hell out of his house.

...

It was the last thing you heard anyways before his voice was cut off mid ways...

Like he just vanished from the doorstep.

...

You glare at the floor below you.

Fist clutched tightly next to you.

For so long you've endured everything Harry threw at you.

For so long you've done everything all on your own.

Cared only about Bel and his safety and well being.

And now that Harry was officially kicking you out...

...

You had no where to go... and you were doing it all on your own again...

Red placed a hand on your shoulder which you flinched away from and fixed him with a glare.

"Are you satisfied now!?"

"what are ya-?"

"I had a good thing going only for it to be all fucked up?! Sure it wasn't the best but I was doing my best to provide Bel with a good life even though it meant sacrificing my own happiness for it!" You dug your fingers in your hair frustrated. As you openly cried out to a confused and shocked Red.

"I had to do it all on my own! I worked hard on my own to provide for our son, only for it to all go down the drain once again! Harry was a dick but he provided for everything for Bel! And now I have nothing again!"

"sweetheart-."

"YOU WOULDN'T FUCKING GET IT!" You screamed at him while collapsing to the floor. Your sobs taking over you full force as you hugged yourself tightly.

Harry provided all the money you needed for you and Bel... 

Sans wouldn't understand!

He doesn't know what it's like to work day in and day out to provide for your son. To make sure he's fed, clothed, and kept safe!

Even with Harry, you worked tirelessly just to keep him happy so he didn't lash out on Bel or you as often.

All that hard work... only to be knocked down to ground zero again...

And you were so tired of fighting and clawing your way to make something good out of something terrible... only for it to blow up in your face again.

...

Red pulled you into his embrace as he sat on the floor with you.

You fought against him... but he refused to let you go.

No matter how hard you tried shoving against him, he wouldn't budge. He was like trying to push away a brick wall.

"You wouldn't understand! Y-you wouldn't u-understand...."

"shhh 's okay dollface." He petted your hair gently while he cradled you tightly against him. "yer not doin' it on your own anymore. 'm here."

He gently cooed to you and you stopped fighting against him, seeing that he wasn't going to let you go no matter how hard you fought. You were just tiring yourself out at this point.

All the tears you shed today... All the emotional shit you've been dealing with.

You were just... So tired.

"that's it sweetheart... jus' breathe. everythin' is goin' ta be fine."

You were having a mental break down... and the only thing that snapped you out of it was when Red opened his arms up a small bit, and Bel squeezed himself between the both of you and clung to you.

"Please Mommy, it's going to be okay. You don't have to cry or be upset with dad." You wrapped your arms around Bel tightly as Red held the both of you to him.

"I-I'm so sorry." You stuttered out as Red buried his face in your hair.

"don't apologize. ya got nothin' to be sorry for."

"It's all my fault."

" 's not."

"I messed everything up."

"no, ya didn't."

"I'm... alone again."

"yer not."

Red pulls his face away from your hair and presses his forehead against yours.

"you'll never be alone again. i won't let it happen."

He places a hand on your cheek and gently rubs his thumb back and forth on your skin.

"i lost ya once. 'm not lettin' it happen again."

"How is that suppose to fix anyth-."

He cut you off by pulling your face to him and pressing his teeth to your lips.

Red places his hand on the back of your head to keep you there and to keep you from pulling away from him just yet.

His kiss was deep and passionate... like it's been a lifetime since he's last kissed anyone.

He tilts your head a bit for him to get a better angle as his hand on the back of your head digs deeply into your hair.

Once he's slightly satisfied, he pulls away from you gently and pressed his forehead back to yours again.

"come home with me." He softly mutters to you.

"H-Home?"

"yes... home... both of ya. 'm not leavin' here without tha both of you."

 ...

"i don't care how long it takes. this was what i wanted tha moment i got that letter from ya. i wasn't goin' back without ya. and now that goes for bel to."

...

What other choice do you have now...

It's to... difficult to try and rebuild a life for you and Bel once again... To try and do that on your own...

But if any stars can hear your prayers right now... Please... Let this be the last time you have to accept the offer of someone like this... And for it to work out with Bel...

Please let this last time... be with Red.

"Okay."