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A gift.
That’s what Seungmin has heard millions of times from his mother. The most beautiful voice there ever was, a true gift from the gods above as she said. Everyone else agreed that his voice was one of the greatest treasures ever gifted to someone. But Seungmin didn’t agree with them, every time he sang there was only destruction. There was no beauty or glory, only pain and chaos lingering after every tune.
Seungmin will never forget the first time he sang. The memories from those fateful encounters playing inside his head as he slept. He was sitting near the shore, hidden away by trees and the tall jagged rocks. After a long day in the ocean all Seungmin wanted to do was rest and enjoy the warm rays of sunlight. As he laid on his back, he began to hum. Soon, he began to sing, letting out all the emotions he had pent up through the years.
While he sang, he noticed a fairy approaching him. The stranger seemed to be entranced by the melody as he kept walking towards Seungmin, only stopping until he stood in front of him. When he finished singing, Seungmin was greated by loud squealing and clapping from the fairy. Smiling bashfully, Seungmin watched as the fairy sat down. When the fairy smiled brightly at him, Seungmin was struck by how beautiful he was. His blond hair seemed to glow under the sun, along with the freckles speckled across his face and his wings held beautiful patterns that seemed to shift with every movement the fairy made. In short, the boy sitting in front of Seungmin was simply the most beautiful being he’s met.
“Hello, my name is Felix!” The fairy chirped, extending a slim hand.
Grasping the hand, Seungmin noticed how much smaller Felix’s hand was, “Seungmin. It’s nice to meet you.”
Within moments, Seungmin found himself laughing and talking comfortablely with Felix. Soon after, they began talking every day. With Seungmin waiting on the warm sand for the bubbly fairy and engaging in long talks and telling each other stories as soon as he arrived. Seungmin adored each moment he spent talking to Felix. How they seemed to click together easily, almost seamlessly. Everything was perfect, almost too perfect to believe. Until one day, everything changed.
Seungmin waited patiently by the shoreline for Felix. He noticed that the fairy was late, something unusual for the rather punctual boy. Seungmin shrugged off the nagging feeling of uneasiness in the back of his mind, focusing on the small pearl bracelet he had in his hand.
Everything’s gonna be fine.
Oh how wrong he was.
When Felix finally did appear, he didn’t greet Seungmin with the usual bright smile and tight hug he always gave the siren. Seungmin suddenly felt nervous, a gut wrenching feeling deep in his stomach. He watched as the fairy simply sat down next to him, head down and wings lifeless against his back. Seungmin noticed how the other boy was trembling, how his breathing sounded labored as if he had ran for hours. When Seungmin was about to speak, he was stopped by Felix’s trembling voice.
“Sing for me, Min,” He gasped out. “Please sing for me.”
Seungmin felt goosebumps run up his spine, a voice in his mind warning him not to sing. But Seungmin couldn’t help it, his mouth began moving in a sorrowful melody. He watched as Felix seemed to relax, eyes closing and a small smile spreading across his face. Seungmin couldn’t stop the tears that began spilling. He knew deep down what he was doing was wrong as the voice inside his head kept screaming at him to stop. He watched through blurry eyes as Felix began to lay down against the sand. How with each note, he was slipping into a deep sleep which he wouldn’t be able to wake up from.
As he sang the last words, Seungmin began sobbing. Cradling the fairy’s limp arm he continued to cry, mumbling soft apologies. He cried until he couldn’t cry anymore. Only soft sniffling left as he watched Felix glow.
“I’m sorry.” Seungmin whimpered out.
He watched as the gold light enveloped Felix. How slowly, the boy began turning into sparkling dust and was swept away by the wind. By the time the sun set, there was no Felix. Loneliness soon became a heavy blanket on Seungmin’s shoulders. The reality of what just happened kicking in as tears pricked his eyes again. He had allowed his voice to take away someone he cared for deeply. His voice had caused the worst pain ever imaginable, how was it a gift?
Wiping away the stray tears, Seungmin slipped back into the ocean. A silent promise locked away in his heart.
I will never sing again, it only causes pain.