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I thought everyone was a fool for wearing their hearts on their sleeves. Well except for Dr. Murphy because he couldn’t control it. She thought the biggest fool was on Claire Browne. Saint Claire who was kind and compassionate and who was surely fake. However, I was wrong for thinking that Claire was a fake and that she was a fool. It all started when I saw something forming between her and Melendez. I had been having lunch with Claire, Shaun, and Park. The other day I had seen something pass between Melendez and Claire. I saw Melendez hand something to Claire and their fingers brushed. I saw Melendez give a little smile while Claire looked down with a blush on her cheeks. Suddenly anger I have never felt before surged in every vein in my body. I feel my smile falter and my face becomes cold and heartless. I was colder to anyone I interacted with that day. I had stayed up thinking about that instant and the anger always took over my body. I wanted to walk up to Melendez and punch him in his playboy face. I had realized I had feelings for Saint Claire. As I was falling asleep I imagined I was in Melendez’s place. My last thought before I fell asleep was she’ll never reciprocate my feelings. As the thought sank in I could feel my heartbreak inside. I had ignored Claire that day and I felt Alex give me a knowing look. I decided I couldn’t hide forever from Claire, although… Nope, I can’t hide from her. We were eating lunch and talking when I take a chip off of Claire’s plate and eat it. She looks at me with mock anger and I give her a smirk. Her eyes widen with surprise and some other emotion I couldn’t read. I hear a snort of laughter and I see Alex smirk at me and he looks so smug. I just give him a shoulder shrug as I rush out of there because Claire and my patient came back.
Alex came over and we did our one day a week binge marathon on Netflix. We just restarted watching The Resident. I felt bad for Conrad Hawkins as he keeps getting shot down by Nic Nevans. We just finished another episode and he got shot down again even though anyone can see that they both are in love with each other. I thought we were going to start another episode but he turns towards me and I know what’s coming. “ So you want to tell me about your new feelings for Claire.” He says it like it’s a statement and that I have no choice but to answer. I don’t mind because it’s Alex and I trust him. “I should’ve realized that it was coming from the start.” He doesn’t say anything but waits for me to get my thoughts in order.
“I had only just realized they were there the other day. When we got reassigned because Coyle got fired for sexual harassment of a resident. All we heard from him was that the accusations were false and that the resident was a bitch. There were these rumors going around that Coyle wouldn’t leave a woman alone. I started to listen to them and I heard it was Claire Browne. You know how they had to keep assigning us to other surgeons before we landed with Lim and Melendez. That day we met the new team and I looked into Claire’s eyes and I shook her hand. I thought what a fool she was because I could see compassion and everything that makes up Claire and makes her look like an easy target. I should’ve known that I was done for from that moment as every nerve tingled in my body. My heart had felt so light and carefree. For no reason at all, I started to be bitchy to her and I couldn’t stop. I had only realized that I had fallen in love with her when she blushed for Melendez.”
I finished and he looks at me with empathy. “ You only act bitchy to people who you will come to care about. Well actually your always bitchy but that’s because it is your defensive mechanism and your mental shield. I know everything will work itself out.” He gets up and kisses my forehead. He takes my phone and put on Gorgeous by Taylor Swift and leaves. Before I go to bed I make a tinder account and swipe right on Claire Browne.