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Snow rained down slowly signaling the start of another cold winter. My hands were nestled in my coat, the warmth from the heat pack keeping my fingers from freezing off. My mind wandered as my feet took me down a familiar path, slowly I recognised the route led to my favourite cafe or should I say our favourite cafe? As I passed it I thought I saw a familiar face so I had to do a double take and sure enough there you were, Kim Nam Joon, my first love. I stared at your smiling, happy face through the cafe window. Your body partially faced my direction giving me a semi-decent angle of your features, your head was tilted back as you laughed loudly, your eyes crinkled, your dimples visible and that gorgeous eye smile never changed one bit. I could hear your laughter ringing through my head despite a wall separating us. You were dressed in warm autumn colours and I immediately noticed the turtleneck I gifted you for our 2nd anniversary, a smile etched on my face. Memories of us started to flood back to me like a tidal wave. It felt like just yesterday we held hands and walked down these same streets, sharing laughter and love together. You looked so happy, your face was glowing with pure glee and that made my heart swell. Looking at your happiness finally gave me closure, I know deep down that letting you go was always the better choice for the both of us. Along with the good memories, the painful ones flooded in too, the realisation that I could never be enough for you. A single tear rolled down my cheek, I was still so drunk on our love but seeing you happy finally sobered me up. I turned away from the window, sniffling, I used my sleeve to wipe away the tears. I took a deep breath and walked away from the cafe and moving forward with my life. My heavy footsteps embedded into the snow covered pathway but little did I know...you watched me with longing eyes as I walked away thinking “Second chances never hurt anyone but would it hurt us more?” .