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Yoongi is counting the number of times he has erred in his life for Hoseok to give him a silent treatment. The total count comes out to be 10 times in the 4 years of their relationship which is pretty impressive despite his boyfriend being too tolerant.
Out of the ten times that he got a cold shoulder one time the fight was over a stupid reason. A very stupid reason according to Yoongi yet thinking about that fight always gave him shivers as he had to sleep on the couch for a week. He had moved in with Hobi after a year of dating and during that time the sunflower was still not used to his partner cussing one third of his day.
He had a slip of tongue in front of their neighbour's 5 year old triplets. It was not his fault that his friend Daniel was unnecessarily fretting over confessing to his longtime crush Jihyo when it was apparent that their 'looking with heart eyes' thing was mutual.
He remembers how he was face palming when the otherwise confident music major was still nervously asking him on call standing before his crush whether he should propose or dash out. He growled,"Just fucking do it Daniel! It is motherfucking now or now situation. Do you understand?"
The younger responded with a zealous yes and confessed to Jihyo still clutching on his phone letting Yoongi witness the unification of the love birds but the latter was too horrified to hear the 'i love you's because his boyfriend stood there with his arms crossed across his chest and the three tiny beings hiding behind him scared by the growl of their 'Blue Monster' neighbour.
The look Hoseok was giving him was of dissapointment and he was wishing for Earth to swallow him and keep him buried in the depths.
The blue head gulped audibly.
"I-" Before Yoongi could explain himself his sunlight had walked past him in long strides and closed the door harshly with the thud sound reverberating in the whole building. He sighed and looked at the little cowering figures of Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook.
He thought,"I should at least try to comfort the kids for now."
As soon as he started taking steps towards them the triplets scrambled inside their flat.
"BLUE MONSTER!" The hysterical screams of the children boom in the whole building.
The next two days were spent Yoongi trying to convince himself that he was not the one at fault and even if he was the reason was too stupid to get a silent treatment. The other three days were spent moping when he realized that Hobi would not forgive him soon. Finally two days later they were back to normal.
Yoongi remembered how Jin gave him the idea to make up by cleaning the house and preparing a candle light dinner at home. Since he was not the one who would frequently show his affection it worked.
That time the blue head was aware of his wrong doing but this time he is clueless. He did not accept the gifts from his female coworkers. He did not overwork himself. Their anniversary is 2 months later so no, he did not forget their anniversary. He never ever cussed without a care after that day. So, what did he do?
Heck, he does not even know if the reason behind the silence of his hyperactive boyfriend was him or something else. All the lil meow meow knows that he hates silence especially with Jung Hoseok, his ball of sunshine. The kind of silence he is getting now is not the angry silence but some 'I am trying to hide something from you' silence.
He swivels his chair unconsciously. On one hand he is worried about Hoseok's unusual behaviour on the other hand he is worried about the approaching deadline for the new song he is supposed to present to BigHit Entertainment's new group Tomorrow X Together.
He cannot focus on making music. Half a week ago the beats felt right but now none of it does. No matter how many times he starts from the scratch. No matter how many days he thinks that it is going to be alright he just cannot shake the fear of everything going South.
His eyes feel itchy under the glaring screens. He rubs them to chase away the sleepiness and stifles a yawn. The heat of the summer night was getting into his head although the air-con was set at 16 degrees. He taps his foot on the cool black tiled floor. After dwelling for another hour he gives up and pulls out the headset from his ears.
Yawning, he stretches his arms and trudges out of the room. He decides to take a power nap while waiting for the dance instructor. The dinner was ready but Yoongi does not have the appetite for anything. All he needs now is a cold shower and cuddles with his boyfriend to dissipate the tiredness.
Not long after he falls face forward on the bed and closes his eyes, the punching of code can be heard. The door opens with a creak. Hoseok discards his shoes and socks & makes a beeline towards the master bedroom. He drops his body over Yoongi and hugs him from behind not caring about the sweat lingering over his body. He nuzzles him in the back of his neck.
Drops of sweat fall from his nose inside the blue head's shirt. Yoongi kicks him off groaning. He says pinching his nose in annoyance,"Stop drenching me in your sweat."
The ever so charged up Hobi gives him a sloppy kiss. After breaking the kiss he replies,"Sorry."
He gets up from the bed and picks up his boyfriend in his arms and continues,"Cold shower?"
With the sleep still present in his eyes Yoongi manages to mumble a yes.
In the shower they shampoo each other and give massages to each other. After that his sunflower spoons him in the big bathtub.
The cat like human expects him to ask what is for dinner today and he does as if on cue,"What do we have for dinner tonight?"
"Kimchi fried rice, seaweed soup, gimbap and well of course me."
There is neither a 'My mouth is watering hust thinking of all these dishes' nor a 'I love to relish the last dish' in the taller man's reply. There is just a short 'Oh'.
Hoseok's sudden entanglement one second and sudden detachment the next second has been confusing him more and more these past days. He asks like he is doing from the past few days,"Is something wrong Hobi?"
There is long pause after that. It is as if he is contemplating to tell him or not but what he wants to tell him is never converted into actually spoken words because he denies again.
"No, nothing is wrong."
He does not push him after that. He knows that he will tell him when the time comes but how should Yoongi tell him that he is afraid. He does not want to pressurize him but the thought of waking up one morning with no ray of sunshine haunts him. He knows he is being paranoid but he cannot help. The self loathing thoughts and anxiety which he left years ago is still following him.
If Hoseok wouldn't have existed in his life then he might be brooding over his failures in the past. He might not be able to buy such a lavish apartment and might even be still living in his one room studio. Life wouldn't have been as colourful as it is now. Maybe he would have burnt his lungs smoking day and night. Maybe he would be still cutting his skin.
If Hoseok were not there then he perhaps won't have anyone to babysit him when he is tired or feeling down. If Hoseok were not present in his life then instead of the stomach filling dinner he might be having a cup of instant noodles. If Hoseok would not have existed he might never have someone who would make him his whole world.
After the bath he wears his Oggy and the Cockroaches pajamas whereas the other man is wearing muscle tee and shorts. The eat their dinner in silence and move to bed in the same suffocating silence.
When Yoongi is about to lose his mind and literally run off to the guest room to save himself from bursting at Hoseok the latter hugs him by waist and settles his face on his chest. His anger melts off and he hugs back with his one hand cradling his head and the other wrapped over his back.
....
"I know that he is hiding something from me but I don't know what he is hiding."
Jin hmms and nods like he understood what his bestfriend told him. He recollects the information literally spat on his face a minute ago,"So you are telling me that the energetic and straight forward Hoseok does not talk to you much nowadays; you feel that he is hiding something from you and you fear that the way he is distancing himself from you can lead to you break up?"
"Absolutely!"
Yoongi punches the table in vexation and cries out in pain as a result.
Jin murmurs,"Both of them are such dummies."
"What?"
"I am saying that he is such a dummy for hiding things from you."
Yoongi agrees but exclaims a moment later when he realizes that his bestfriend called his boyfriend a dummy,"Yah, Don't call my Hobi a dummy!"
Jin thinks,"Dummies in love I might add." and slaps his forehead.
"The cookies are tasty."
Jin thanks him as if on autopilot mode and adds,"You will still have to pay for them."
Yoongi complains,"Hey what is the benefit of befriending the owner of a bakery if I cannot have some free cookies?"
Yes, Seokjin owns a bakery. Thoth Bakers. It is his family business and by the grace of the God he had a knack for cooking since childhood. Whenever someone asks him why he became a baker he always replies with a proud 'I was born to bake'.
Yoongi says that there is magic in his cookies because every cookie of his tastes like he had had it for the first time in spite of munching them everyday. He likes to come to Thoth Bakers everyday problem or no problem. The scent of bread and sugar calms his senses.
"Come on you never have 'some' cookies and you know that. You always finish up at least one batch of the Kookie cookies. I won't be surprised if you end up eating the whole bakery one day."
The Blue monster jokes,"You know you should stop naming your bakery products after your children. I bet you'd end up having more children than the number of ancestors you have."
The taller man hits his arm and asks,"What even is your problem with my children?"
He says rhetorically,"What is my problem with your children?" and goes hysteric,"What is your problem with my- I mean what problem do your children have with me? They all hate me!"
Jin says genuinely,"Stop thinking that they hate you."
Yoongi asks,"You tell me then why do your triplets run as if they have seen a ghost whenver they see me?"
Kim Seokjin himself is oblivious to what goes inside his children's minds. His husband Namjoon does not even try because he knows that what world their little minds build in their heads is beyond his comprehension. They were eight and products of their sperms yet they were nothing like their parents. Maybe that is why a man could be the father of his son's flesh, but that did not mean that he was also the father of his spirit.
Jin tries to form a reasonable explanation,"They do so because...They do so because they have only seen your rough side. Remember that time when they heard you cussing and shouting at Daniel on phone? That time left a big bad impression on them. Don't worry. Once they see your soft fluff ball side they will never be scared of you anymore." He ends with a wink earning a smack from his bestfriend.
What was supposed to be a thorough discussion over Hoseok's weird behaviour ends up being a lighthearted talk about cookies and kids over Kookies.
If Hoseok would never have existed then he might not even have the opportunity of meeting a great bestfriend like Jin.
....
Yoongi feels satisfied after hearing from Hitman Bang that the members very much liked the track especially the maknae of the group, Huening Kai. He succeeded to finish the song in the last three days of the deadline.
He stretches his arms over his head producing a cracking sound in habit. He leans his head on the chair and closes his eyes to absorb the moment. Taking deeps breathes he calms himself down.
"They liked the song! My favourite idol group liked the song!" He thinks quietly squealing in his mind.
He picks his phone from his lap tell of his accomplishment to his partner. He frowns at his phone as soon as he sees 3 messages from the same partner.
Hubbi💜:
Meet me at the company's terrace I have something to tell you
Hubbi💜:
DO NOT THINK ANYTHING NEGATIVE!!
Hubbi💜:
Love ya
Yoongi is confused now.
"Just what are you upto Hoseok-ah?"
He gets up from the desk chair and runs out of the studio. Fetching the car keys he opens the door of the house but slows down his steps as he looks at the walls of the living room. There is not even a single empty space left. The walls are filled with photoframes of their memories. Last time he checked there were only 7 photoframes on the wall but now he cannot even count on his fingers.
He dashes out of the apartment complex and drives to 'the company'. The company was the place where they both were trainees. They met, sang, rapped, danced and fell in love. They were desparate to debut but could not make it at the end. They had cried buckets at that time but now he thinks that it was for the best. He would never have been able to get the privilege of having such a strong relationship. The idol world was not open to gays and Yoongi feels quite happy that he is in the sidelines.
He enters the building of BigHit Ent citing that he wanted to discuss something with the CEO. The guards and receptionist know him and much to his relief believe in his lie.
He travels to the roof through the elevator. As soon as he steps on the terrace floor the cool wind hits him making his palpitating heart relax. It makes him revisit the old times.
The bluish purple canvas of skies with few patches of clouds painted on it and the setting sun being hidden by the silhouette of his muse makes his heart skip a beat.
"Hoseok," He gently calls his boyfriend as if speaking a pitch higher will break the tranquility of the moment.
Hobi tilts his head to see his lover, his perfect white set of teeth exposed in an infectious smile. The sunrays fall on his left cheek colouring his honey skin orange.
The blue head steps closer to the breathtakingly beautiful boy. He asks,"What do you want to tell me?"
"I am in love with you," The older boy blurts.
Blush creeps up Yoongi's neck and he is forced to look away from the orbs of his lover's which are leaking out love for him from the ocean of his heart. His heart flutters albeit he has heard this love confession so many times.
He replies,"I love you too."
"No no no Yoon-ah you are not understanding the depth of my words." He shakes his head vigorously.
"Do you know the difference between I love you and I am in love with you?"
Getting a negative reply he continues to explain,"I love you means I want you to be happy. I am in love with you means I want you to be happy with me. I love you means it's okay even if you leave me. I am in love with you means I am going to be with you now and forever. I love you means you want this? I am in love with you means take mine. I love you means we are together. I am in love with you means we are a part of each other. I love you means will you love me back? I am in love with you means spend the rest of your life with me.
I used to love you Min Yoongi but slowly and steadily I realized that I am infact in love with you. Living with you and loving you I realized that together we are a perfectly imperfect piece of art. So my Shooky are you too in love with me? Will you spend the rest of your life with m- Hey, Why are you crying?"
Yoongi tries to repair his broken dam by wiping his tears with the back of his hand. He cries like a baby whose mother scolded him first and then hugged him.
Hobi cups his cheeks and asks this time concern and doubt lacing his voice,"Why are you crying baby? Do you not want to-"
He is interrupted by his boyfriend who hugs him tightly and affirms, "I am too. I am too in love with you. I'd love to spend my life with you."
Hoseok tears up too looking at his crying boyfriend and joyous from hearing the answer.
The shorter man breaks the hug and says while wiping the tears from his sunshine's face,"It's just that I was overwhelmed. I was on edge since the day you have been speaking less to me and always giving short replies to my questions. My thoughts were going wild and I let the negative thoughts overpower me. I-I thought that you no longer wanted to be with me. I-I thought you were going to break up with me. I'm-I'm so sorry for thinking like this. I am so sorry Hobi."
He broke down again and sat on the floor. Hoseok covered the former's body with his and coaxed him into stop crying.
"Shh don't cry. It's okay to feel like this. It is my fault only. I wanted to surprise you. You know what I am like. If I talked to you more than a minute I would have ruined the surprise."
"Surprise? What surprise?"
As soon as these words leave Yoongi's mouth the now navy blue sky is sparkled with firecrackers moulding to form words. His eyes widen as he reads,"Will you marry me?"
"Surprise!" Hobi shouts in his ear enveloping him in a tackling hug.
They spend the next few hours kissing and cuddling under the wide canvas of the sky. At the end they have to go back because the bugs and flies won't let them leave without sucking the nectar called blood from their bodies.
Yoongi whines when Hoseok pulls him up from the terrace floor after dropping a kiss on his forehead but complies as the night is still young and they are in love.
As to why Yoongi did not say a yes or no to Hobi's proposal, isn't it obvious?
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1 Year Later
"Congos Yoonie uncle," the triplets sing in chorus as try to hand over the big flower bookey to the Blue Monster without getting crushed under its weight.
Yoongi accepts the primrose bookey before they can fall, a gummy smile gleaming his face.
His newly wedded husband whispers in his ear,"What happened to them? Weren't they scared of you?"
To this he replies pecking his sunshine on the cheek,"Sometimes you have to understand that not all your fears deserve to be given that much importance and you have to remove them from your heart."
The Kim couple walk to them to congratulate them but the youngest Kim disagrees and starts crying as Namjoon comes near Yoongi with the 4 month old in his arms.
Namjoon thinks that the baby is maybe scared after seeing so many unknown faces but realizes the true cause when Kim Ami wriggles in his arms as the bestfriend of his husband comes closer to pick the infant in his arms.
Alarmed, the electrical engineer calls out,"Yoongi"
"Not again!" The Blue Moster cries.
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"I am in love with you," Hoseok confesses his voice hoarse from the long night of love making.
Yoongi replies nonchalantly,"Me too."
"Say the whole sentence," The mature one among the husband-husband demands rather childishly.
Yoongi pulls his soulmate's leg by saying,"I love you too."
"YAH MIN YOONGI!"
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I̶f̶ ̶J̶u̶n̶g̶ ̶H̶o̶s̶e̶o̶k̶ ̶w̶e̶r̶e̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶l̶i̶f̶e̶ Jung Hoseok would have existed in Min Yoongi's life anyhow.