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(??? Pov)
I felt soft tears trailing down my face…
This... couldn´t... no...I-you…
You promised me…
You said I wouldn't have to go through this anymore... that the tears would stop, that it would get better…
But... but you lied to me...
´We´re all gonna get out of here alive!!´ you said…
´No one would dare hurt you!´ you said...
Well, wheres that fuckin´ hope now?
Cause... this doesn't feel like it... this feels more like despair…
Yeah... Despair... I hate it. Why? Why you?
¨WHY FUCKING YOU?!?! WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN TO YOU!?!? WAS IT THE MOTIVE?!?! THAT STUPID FUCKING MOTIVE!?!? ABOUT THAT STUPID FUCKING ´LOVE´ MOTIVE?!?! WHY?!? Why...*hic* you..?¨
And before I even knew I was talking, I collapsed onto my knees, like I had so many times when my tears became just too much, and I couldn't talk, and could barely breathe…
I thought I felt arms around me, and I blinked, unable to push the thought out of my mind that you were alive, because you had to be alive, you promised me we would both make it out of here alive and intact, and we would grow up, and move in together, and you would take me travelling to all of your favorite places, and we would find everyone who had ever wronged us, and make them regret leaving us behind, and oh, God, why you?!
But when I opened my eye, it was just that stupid dumbass bitch Nayami. I looked in front of me, and oh, oh God you were still there, still dead with those stupid tears on your face and oh my God were you crying before it happened? Did it hurt you? How fucking dare that monster hurt you. I wanted to punch, kick, scream at Nayami because It's her fault. It's all their fault for not trying to prevent this, and, oh Lord, was it my fault too? Were your very last moments spent hating me? You must have! I didn't let you sleep because I just had to go and say I was scared, and you took action because we were emotionally attached.
My... fault. It was my... fault.
I killed you. Just as much as whatever bastard is controlling this stupid fucking bear.
I got scared.
And you paid for it with your life.