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“Hey, baby! You woke up early.” Jiwon planted a kiss on Junhoe’s head and take his seat on the other side of the table to have his breakfast.
Junhoe, indeed, woke up early to prepare a very special breakfast for Jiwon. And if he calls it a very special one, he means it. He just looked at his three years of a boyfriend digging into the delicious breakfast.
It’s Jiwon’s favorite, fried rice with an omelet, vegetable salad, and a cup of brewed coffee with an amount of creamer, just the way he likes it.
It’s a perfect ideal breakfast for him if Junhoe will look at the contented smile on his boyfriend’s face. It’s surely is, if he just didn’t doubt that Jiwon being contented was true, the very reason why he woke up so early.
Jiwon looked up from his plate to check his boyfriend who didn’t say even a single word since he arrived. He was confused at Junhoe’s appearance; he was dressed as if he is going somewhere in this early morning.
Oblivious to the tensed atmosphere, he brings himself back on eating not minding the intent look coming from his boyfriend’s eyes.
“Let’s end this.” Junhoe started. Jiwon looked back at him abruptly, with a confused face. What the fuck Junhoe meant by that?
“What do you mean by “let’s end this”? End what?” Jiwon asked confusingly.
“Our relationship. Let’s end this here. Please.” Junhoe pleads casually as if he was just asking for Jiwon to allow him to buy something like he always does.
“And why the fuck do we have to do that?!” Jiwon exclaimed. The delicious breakfast was forgotten, now all of his attention is on Junhoe. His mind is going nuts at his boyfriend’s sudden plea.
“I just realized that I don’t want to be with you anymore” Junhoe mumbled. Looking away, controlling the tears that are about to fall.
“Junhoe… I-I thought we were happy, I thought y-you are h-happy…with me.” Jiwon said when he recovered himself from being stunned for a moment. Junhoe scoffed loudly as if he heard the most nonsense joke in his entire life.
“Well, I thought so too. I thought that you…are happy with me….and me alone.” Junhoe remarked.
Jiwon was taken aback, suddenly felt a strong pang in his chest, holding back his tears as he reached for Junhoe’s hand, holding it so tight not wanting to let go of him.
“Junhoe… p-please let me explain, b-baby." Jiwon pleads miserably. Knowing where this conversation was heading, in his past affair.
It was just a mistake actually; Jiwon was no longer meeting the model that he made out with once. Just once. Because they had realized eventually that what happened between them was completely wrong.
They just met at a party that they both attended and ended up making out in Jisoo’s car. Jiwon loves Junhoe so much as Jisoo loves her boyfriend, so after that night they stayed as good friends.
The next day, while Jiwon was having a shower, Junhoe was collecting his boyfriend’s clothes from last night, preparing it to do the laundry. While he was checking Jiwon’s shirt, he noticed something from its collar.
A smudged red lipstick.
He brought the shirt to his nose and smelled it. It has Jiwon’s body smell and perfume but he also noticed another fragrance that he can’t recognize who owns. It was a strawberry flavored fragrance, too sweet for his likings, especially for Jiwon. Jiwon hates anything with strawberries.
Junhoe was not innocent. Jiwon was not his first. He knows almost everything in terms of a relationship. He will know easily if something was odd and with the evidence that he’s holding right now, he knew it right away.
Jiwon was with someone last night.
The thought made Junhoe felt dizzy, chest tightened and he can’t breathe properly. No. Jiwon will never do that to him. Jiwon promised him that he will be the only one in his partner’s life. Jiwon is a faithful man. He thought.
While he was lost in his thoughts, Jiwon suddenly got out of the bathroom, freshly bathed wearing only boxer shorts with a towel on his right hand drying his hair. Junhoe immediately throws the shirt on their laundry basket.
A few moments later, he suddenly felt Jiwon’s body heat behind him, and a pair of arms were wrapped around his waist. Jiwon was back hugging him.
“Hi, Baby” Jiwon whispered to his ear. Nibbling it and leaving kisses down to his neck. Junhoe sighed, still thinking about the information he found earlier. Jiwon didn’t notice the discomfort from his boyfriend so he continued to kiss him more eagerly.
Showering kisses on Junhoe’s neck and shoulder and he turned Junhoe around, facing him. Jiwon pulled and hold his body tightly. Kissing him passionately, Junhoe moaned on Jiwon’s lips.
“I love you, my Junhoe. I always do.” Jiwon said between his kisses. After hearing those words, Junhoe finally kissed him back, throwing all the negative thoughts he has a while ago.
They made love for the whole day. They missed each other so much. Jiwon was giving his all to Junhoe, thinking that it can erase permanently the things that he had done the night before.
Junhoe felt so loved after that day and it was more than what he asked for. Jiwon became so clingy with him. Always doing sweet things to him, making him feel so special. The thought of Jiwon cheating on him was already thrown out of Junhoe’s mind.
The incident between Jiwon and Jisoo happened a long time ago. To be honest, Jiwon nearly forgotten it.
But last night, they met at a concert fest. Jiwon was invited to perform a set. The crowd was so wild that they were dancing and singing with him while performing. It was a coincidence that Kim Jisoo was also there to support his singer boyfriend named Suho who will also be performing after him.
It was an incredible night, though Jiwon was a little bit sad because Junhoe didn’t make it to watch and support him. He needs to finish some plates that he will be due in two days.
“No, you don’t have to explain. I get it.” Junhoe pulled back his hand out of Jiwon’s grip and the latter is now breaking into tears.
Junhoe was confused with how his boyfriend was reacting right now, he thought that Jiwon would be relieved since he's now free to go out with anyone he likes. But with Jiwon who’s now miserably crying, he can’t help but feel confused and hurt even more.
He didn’t even imagine in his life that he would see Jiwon crying like this because of him, well, he didn’t even imagine as well that Jiwon will cheat on him.
“Junhoe… Baby p-please hear me out. P-please, give me a-another….chance.” Jiwon begged. Junhoe just looked at him disappointingly.
“No, Jiwon. I’ve already decided. I can’t do this anymore.” Junhoe stood and walked out of the kitchen. Jiwon followed him abruptly, his hopes being crushed when he saw Junhoe’s luggage waiting behind the couch of their living room. Surely, Junhoe has decided already to be prepared like this.
Junhoe was pulling his luggage when Jiwon suddenly hugged him tightly from his back. He was sobbing hysterically at the crook of Junhoe’s neck while whispering “No” and Please don’t leave me” on the latter’s ear.
“Please baby.” Jiwon pleads breathlessly.
“Don’t call me that fucking name. Let me go!” Junhoe tried to pull himself away from him but Jiwon is too strong. He was now disgusted on how Jiwon called him “Baby” knowing that he was also using it on someone else.
“Baby…please let’s fix this” Jiwon begged him.
“I told you to stop calling me that!” Junhoe shouted back, finally freeing himself from Jiwon. He looked back at Jiwon who was now on his knees crying like a mess.
It hurts him so much to see Jiwon in this state, he can’t take the scene in front of him, but he can’t stop himself from being reminded of how Jiwon used that name to someone else last night.
“Stop pretending that you are fucking clean. Why don’t you call instead of the other “Baby” of yours that you are talking with last night?” Junhoe pointed at him angrily. Jiwon was taken aback.
“Surprised? Do you think that I’m a fucking idiot? You think I didn’t know what you’ve done?” Junhoe asked sarcastically.
Jiwon didn’t have enough courage to just deny it. It was that moment he knew that he fucked everything up.
He recalled the incident last night. Exhausted from the concert fest that he attended, Jiwon arrived at their shared home and headed straight to their shared bedroom. Junhoe was already sleeping peacefully when he entered the room, he took off his clothes except his boxers to join his lover in dreamland.
As he walked to their shared bed, a vibration from his phone got his attention. He looked at the caller’s ID. It’s Jisoo.
He moved to the bed beside Junhoe, as he answered Jisoo’s call. He answered it in a hushed tone, he didn’t want to disturb Junhoe in his rest knowing that the latter was also tired from his work.
“I just got home, baby, it was a wild night,” Jiwon teased, Jisoo called him that time, worried after he left a little tipsy from the hard drinks that were offered to them at the fest. Suho even offered to drive him home but he refused it. He assured them that he can drive himself home safely.
“Yah! Stop teasing me that! God, I hate you, Jiwon!” Jisoo said annoyingly from the other side of the phone. He also heard Suho chuckling in the background.
For the whole night, Jiwon was teasing Jisoo by calling her different pet names. Why? Because Jisoo simply hates it, she thinks it’s too cheesy to hear. His boyfriend has this habit of calling him different pet names every time they were together especially when they were making love or even just making out and it was enough to make Jisoo felt annoyed.
That night, before Suho went out to the stage to perform he left a chaste kiss to Jisoo with an “I love you, Honeybunch” spiel, and Jiwon heard that.
“Sorry, I’m just kidding. Thanks for the night!” Jiwon chuckled as he said his farewell to Jisoo. After the call he let himself slide beside Junhoe, hugging him in his waist and joining him in slumber.
And if Junhoe did hear that, awakened by the hushed voice coming from his boyfriend on his backside, he didn’t mention it. Trying his best not to make any sound as he felt his tears suddenly rolled down in his cheeks.
So, Junhoe was not asleep at that time, and he heard all of that. But in a wrong way, this was a misunderstanding, Jiwon thought to himself.
He wants to explain everything but he doesn’t have enough strength to speak, he was just crying like a mess, sobbing, still on his knees. Hoping that through his cries, he will make Junhoe stay in his life.
“Maybe….I’m just not good enough….f-for you.” Tears are now rolling down his cheeks after holding it for a long time. He loved Jiwon for many years but he can’t stay in a relationship who made him feel like he was not enough.
“No, Junhoe. You are! You are all that I want. You’re my everything, Junhoe. Please I’m begging you, don’t leave me.” Jiwon crawled to hug Junhoe’s waist. He is willing to beg over and over again. If it will make Junhoe stay.
“I’m sorry, Jiwon. I love you but I can’t do this anymore.” Junhoe took Jiwon’s face between his hands and kissed him deeply on his lips. Jiwon was taken aback by the sudden kiss and Junhoe managed to push him.
Junhoe hurriedly pulled his luggage and walked out the door, he looked back at Jiwon with tears in his eyes before he closed the door between them. And at that moment, Junhoe was out of their shared apartment, out of Jiwon’s life.
Moments later, Jiwon took a blue velvet box out of his pocket, he opened and glanced at it. Tears blocking his vision from the silver ring coated with tiny diamonds around it, specially made for the supposed to be a wedding proposal for his boyfriend this morning.
His perfect ideal breakfast was ruined, the same as the idea of getting married and enjoy the rest of his life with Junhoe.