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I have seen a rose
In a flower garden
It was the most beautiful
That our Lord created
The more it grew
The prettier it became
Even more so to me
Who got to see it so rarely
There was a while
When we were allowed to walk
Between the trees and fruit
And see the delightful bloom
But then the garden closed
I couldn't get in
It was forbidden me
To see the lovely flowers
There was a five year time
Where I nothing else knew
Than that it would be with
Me and you until the last
I went to you often
Though my road was long
But one who was closer
Was let in to the garden
If I have never seen you
I should be happy
Then I have no sorrow
For you in me to carry
If I never met you
In my young years
It would have saved me
From so many tears
I lost you, my friend
But I will never forget you
If God calls me away
And hides me in a grave
Because love hurts
Creating deep wounds
It's with heavy legs
I walk through life
Thank you for every time
I got to call you friend
And thank you for every time
I got to hold your hand
Thank you for every word
I heard from your mouth
And for loving me
This short while
I wish for you, my friend
As many quiet nights
As the linden tree carries leaves
And the hazel tree carries nuts
As the birds in the sky
And the sand at the bottom of the sea
As stars without a roof
Twinkling in the sky
When I go to bed
At night and the lights go out
I dream of you
My hearts beautiful rose
And when I wake
This prayer burns through me
That God would give me
Just one more night with you
I think maybe this is a song that gives me a lot more book!Quentin vibes, where every thing he does seems to, at least some extent, be driven by his love for Julia.
Obviously it's a song about unrequited love, and I imagine it as a good representation of Quentin working through his feelings about Julia and James' relationship. Mostly, I think this song gives me so strong Quentin vibes for it's sincerity, and it's honesty in wishing the best for someone who still hurts him to think about, and while, at least to himself, wishing that it was him with her instead.
It's a melancholic melody that feels a lot like something Quentin might have found some comfort in during depressive episodes (or am I just projecting really hard now?), and manages to be sad while also being so sincere and honest in its wishes for them to be happy, even if he isn't really a part of it anymore.