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There's a lot of regret in the things you do.
At first, everything was normal, it was the way of life, as expected to be.
You had a son.
You let him free.
You didn't regret it.
It was how things should be
Growning up without parents is...
What is meant to happen.
So many things are meant to happen.
Maybe it was unfair in some eyes.
But you aren't human.
Emotions aren't befitting of you.
Emotions is not what a business man has.
It is
A human thing.
You are not
Human.
It is not functional to have emotions.
You are not human.
Humans are fragile.
Humans wish they had the power you possessed.
You are better than humans.
That's why you observe them.
You do not interact.
It is beneath you.
Humans are weak.
Pathetic, even.
They are unable to fight back against such a powerful force.
They require help
That is your job.
To pity them.
To help them.
To use them.
But...
Emotions could be something you possess.
Your employers don't deny your right.
They just recommend and prevent.
You've grown attached.
To this existence.
It is.
Nice.
These feelings.
Nice?
You barely understand.
But you do.
Fully.
Your composure has been slipping recently.
You never stand up striaght anymore.
You fiddle with your suit and tie.
And you
Feel...
You feel...
It feels...
How can people handle these negative emotions?
Humans should be praised.
Guilt.
You shouldn't feel it.
Your son
He was meant to be left behind.
You made sure he had a good life.
You didn't want to interfere.
You feared that would ruin him.
Now you fear speaking to him.
Do you deserve to know him?
After all, it's been so long.
But he...
He still acts like nothing's wrong.
He loves you.
His father.
But you feel
As if he's just pretending.
You wish you could say something
But seeing him upset?
A fate worse than death.
Emotional hell
That's what you'd describe
The feelings you've felt
Your son Tommy was the first to make you feel emotions
First to make you feel human
And it was hell
And it was painful
And it was fine
You love your son
He means the universe to you
You fear that he does not see that
You fear he feels you feel nothing
You do nothing to resolve that
You may feel emotions but you are not one for expressing them
You are still not human
You wonder what it is like
And if it is nice
You also feel guilt for your dismissal of his friends
A good father should like his son's friends.
You respect the two older doctors, but barely give them much thought.
The entity know as benry is unusual and impossible, you have a distaste for him. But he is your son's best friend.
Mr Freeman...
Your employers...
They require that you do not care.
You could try.
You feel it is wrong.
You should not question your employers
But
Mr Freeman being used as a tool.
That is wrong.
The entity having to be resolved.
That is wrong.
Opportunities always present themselves
What your employers plan can proceed without this manipulation.
Gordon wishes for a normal and happy human life
Your employers do not wish for that.
But things can be changed without harm.
The entity is unpredictable but can be reasonable
Things could change.
The scientists...
Your employers have interests in them too
You wish to change that
Otherwise they will not be happy too
You wish for them to be happy
For your son's sake
No.
You should wish for their sakes
They deserve it
You wonder what it is like to be human
Could you be human, in a way?
Maybe one day
You are taking progressive steps.