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The world is black and white and the one who has yet to fall in love. It was told that, when you fall in love with the one, you will start seeing the colors.
So I waited.
And waited.
But it never happened.
18 year old.
Eighteen year old jimin fell in love with a girl that he thought was the love of his life. He was so excited to finally see all the colors that his parents had described to him ever since he was a child.
His parents, who were madly in love and happily married of course now had seen how the world actually was painted.
When you were born, the only colors you’d see is black and white, like an unpainted canvas, it is just plain and dull. But there will be a time when it’ll change, said the myth. The moment you find the one who is meant for you, they’ll complete the missing half of you and give color to your life. Said it was very magical that the blank canvas you’d usually see would gradually start glowing in different shades, like his parents did.
Jimin believed it when his mom taught him colors, even though he can’t see it, he would imagine how it would be. He imagined the color of the sunset would be orange and yellow like his mom described it would be or the sky that was told to be a soft light blue even though all he could see was nothing but white and black.
And he never loses his hope.
Until he was eighteen.
Jimin knew that he liked her, so does her. They went out to a couple of dates, shared couples of kisses here and there.
But his worldview was still the same.
‘Maybe all i need is to wait and have patience’ he keeps on telling himself. But a few months have passed and his patience is slowly wearing off. He doesn’t know if his girlfriend was expecting the same as he did, but what he knew was that he thought they loved each other.
One year.
They spent time together as a couple for one year. However, Jimin knew by now that the colors he expected to see probably was just a myth, and what his mom said was just something to cheer him up as a kid. Maybe perhaps all this time, everyone was seeing the same thing, just black and white even after they fell in love. That’s what he believed after one year.
“Jimin ah” His girlfriend called his name. She's been staying in his apartment for a while since they started dating.
“hmm?”
“Did you see my bag?”
“What c- i mean, what does it look like?” The male was about to ask what color it was until he realized that the color she’ll reply to is either the two, which is no use.
“There’s a word G on the bag. I think i placed it somewhere on the bed, but it’s gone now” She sighed, hands both at each side of her waist. “I wanna go to the toilet first. I’ll be right back”
“I'll help you find it, don't worry,” She nodded and left. Jimin was in the middle of searching for the female’s bag in the room when suddenly a phone rang.
b <3
Was the name of the contact name shown. It Was still ringing, and the name was bugging him so he had no choice but to answer it.
“Babe! Why are you so late? i’ve been waiting for you” Whined the man from the other call.
“.....”
“babe? hello?”
And that was when Jimin realized, all this time, the girl he loved and spent his years with never actually loved him wholeheartedly. She shared the love with another man behind his back.
But what he never thought was, that was the reason he didn’t see the colors. because it wasn’t love.
It never was.
By now, Jimin is already 19 year old. A year has passed since the breakup with his ex-girlfriend. He no longer expects to see colors because he had it drilled on his head that it was only a myth, and never real at all. He had spent his whole life seeing the same two colors, so he never wanted to hope towards anything at all.
“Okay! That's the last box. I hope living here would be a good start for you bro” Jimin’s brother exhaled. He was breathing heavily from helping his brother to carry his belongings to a new dorm of his new university.
Yes. Everything is new. He decided that he wanted to make a new start for his life. all his life, Jimin only thought and focused on trying to find the one that can make him see colors, but now he realized that he’s wasting his life for something that won’t happen. So he wanted to get over that and start anew.
“Thanks hyunnie. Take care of mom and dad okay?” his brother snorted.
“You always do. And it’s Jihyun for you Jimin” Park jihyun. That's his brother’s name.
“Whatever. But it’s Jimin HYUNG for you brat” And the boys just laughed it off.
After all the goodbyes, Jimin's family left so he could unpack and rest for the day. Jimin looked around the dorm room and realized that he wasn’t using the room alone. There’s another single bed next to his, that is still untouched and empty.
Jimin shrugged. He had too many things he had to unpack to worry about than an empty bed beside him. One by one, he arranged his things. The room was quite big actually. When you open the room you’ll see two single beds are placed iin the middle of the room, and the closet is in front of it, leaning against the wall and next to each bed are the study tables. While in the middle of the two beds are one small table with drawers.
Jimin would love to describe the colors, but he knew he can’t see anything but the same two.
knock knock
A soft knock came from the door. Jimin faced the door as it slowly began to open, revealing a man who looked way younger than him with hair that looks softer than his. For a moment Jimin was stunned by the boy in front of him.
He is indeed very good looking.
“H-hii. I think you’re my new roommate?” It took awhile for the boy to say that. At first he looked like he was surprised, but then the boy just smiled. “I’m jungkook”
The boy whom he calls himself jungkook wasn’t able to extend his hands to him because he was holding a gigantic box that was almost as big as his body. Talking about body, this guy had a very athletic body. So unlike his face who’s like a baby.
“Um hi. I’m jimin” Hesmiled, earning a smile from the boy as well.
“Well let me help you there jungkook” He came to jungkook and helped him carry the box with him, and placed it in his bed.
“Thank you” Jungkook shyly rubbed his nape.
“No problem”
Jimin was a little hesitant to ask, but he was very curious about the boy’s age. He looks very young for someone who is starting uni. For Jimin, he looks like he's the same age as his brother who’s still in high school, always crying over simple algebraic fractions.
“Hey do you mind if i ask you something?” Jimin started. Jungkook, who was unpacking his boxes, is now facing him. His baby face makes a small smile, making Jimin's stomach flutter a little bit.
“Yeah. we’re roommates after all. i want to know you too”
For one second Jimin was out of his head. Asking himself why is he acting like he’s talking with the girl of his dreams. Suddenly an imagination of him dating the boy crossed his mind.
‘what the hell jimin?? he’s not a girl!!’
He shouted to himself in his mind.
‘that was really stupid of you park’
And again. Jimin had nothing against gays as he has a lot of friends who are, but he just couldn’t picture himself dating a guy. He doesn’t want to try.
Jimin was just standing there in his own world and he didn’t even realize that jungkook was staring at him, looking at his behavior.
“Jimin?”
“Oh sorry. i..um.. sorry”
“It’s okay. so.. your question?”
“Right. I was about to ask about your age. i don’t want to be rude or anything but.. you look very young” he sheepishly smiles.
“I’m 18. i just graduated a little early because i’m advanced”
‘no wonder he looks young, he is young’ Jimin thought.
“Well you look younger than my idiot brother who’s still in highschool. He’s in the same age as you are” They both laughed. It was Jimin's first time seeing the younger boy laugh. It would be weird to say this, but jimin finds it very intriguing that the way he laughs was somewhat calming and adorable.
“I’m from the faculty of media. how about you?” I asked.
“Faculty of art”
2 months later - jimin pov
“You asshole come back!” I shouted while running around the table.
Me and jungkook we’re sitting on our usual seat on the garden, and we planned on studying together but this annoying bastard keeps on disturbing me as i quote he said, “You’re already smart so don’t study too much” as if he isn’t the smart one who got into advanced classes and made into uni in a young age.
“You bastard give back my papers!” I yelled again, this time, my feet suddenly lost their balance and decided it’s a great time to fall on the ground.
“Shit” my white shirt is now stained with, of course, none other than the color black. That bastard Jungkook made a shocked face first before running to help me. “Are you okay?”
“Mmm” I nodded. When I tried to move my feet, a stinging pain came from the ankle. “fuck”
“C'mon i’ll carry you to our room”
our. It was no surprise to me anymore. It’s been two months since we shared the dorm room together and I gotta admit Jungkook is really a good friend. He’s always the first person to take care of me when something goes wrong, also the only person that’s with me for almost every time. We spent too much time together that people always mistook us as boyfriends.
I mean, cmon. I can never date a guy.
“Bro what happened to you?” One of our friends, taehyung asked when he saw jungkook carrying me on his back and my stupid ass clinging on his neck for dear life.
“This clumsy idiot fell and hurt his ankle,” Jungkook told him.
“Shut up you bastard. If it wasn’t because of you stealing my papers i wouldn’t be running like an idiot and hurt my ankle” I snorted, hitting the back of his head with my hands.
“ouch!” He exclaimed. Serves you right you asshole that’s for my precious little ankle.
By now Taehyung was laughing his ass off like he’s watching the funniest gag show ever. “Yeah I saw. you two are running like you’re acting on a bollywood movie. It was fucking funny” He said between his laughter.
“Shut up tae” I glared at him while Jungkook just chucked. You wanna know how I can see that even though I'm on his back? I can feel his shoulders moving a little.
One thing I noticed when I got to know Jungkook was he wasn’t really that much of a talker. Most of his words are usually short and sometimes it’ll be just a nod. To hear Jungkook say something in a long sentence, I’d probably have a bigger chance of winning the lottery.
Even though he’s a quiet little bird, when it comes to me, that asshole would tease me like his life depended on it.
Can i say he’s comfortable with me? maybe. Well well lucky me.
Note the sarcasm.
______
Jimin was shivering from head to toe. his hands are hugging his small body and his feet are tapping the floor continuously.
He had no choice but to sit on the seat under the air conditioner in the library because the other seats were full. Everyone is basically fighting for seats because this is the mid term exams month.
“Damn it. this place is so cold” I said to myself , still shivering.
I wonder if this place is really the library or the freaking north pole.
Are they petting a polar bear?
“Cold?” a deep voice interrupted me. Suddenly I felt a warm jacket being draped over my shoulders. I turned back to see none other than Jeon Jungkook, sitting on a seat next to me with an expressionless face.
“Thanks” I said, trying to figure out his expressions. is he seriously just expressionless, or he’s just tired?
“Mmm” he hummed, taking out his study notes and starting reading.
“Um kook?”
“Mm?” still looking at his notes.
“Are you okay?”
He stopped and looked into my eyes. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
Okay jimin. stop freaking out over a damned eye contact.
“I don't know you seem a little tired today.” Jungkook always has this expressionless expression on his face, but today he just seems tired. Especially with the dark eye bags under his eyes.
“a little”
“What did you do before?” I asked again. This morning he woke up very early and left the dorm without having breakfast.
“I had early morning classes, and then the basketball captain wanted us to be on time for a two hours meeting. I was literally busy the whole day” He sighed. wow. That is one of the longest things Jungkook has said.
“How about we skip study and go home?” I offered. It’s very unusual to see him very exhausted. Everytime i had my books on me, this younger male sitting in front of me would start teasing but this time, he was weirdly quieter than usual.
“Home?”
“Our dorm room kook”
“I’d love to, but my brother wants me to come to his friend’s birthday party in a few hours” He was about to pack his things in his bag when suddenly he looked at me, a small smile plastered on his face. “Do you wanna come?”
“You’re inviting me?”
“mmm. i think it’ll enjoy it more with you there with me”
So here I am, wearing a shirt and a denim jacket while Jungkook is just wearing a black t-shirt along with ripped black jeans. It sounds simple, but when he wears it, it looks like he’s about to get ready to go on a fashion runway.
How in the world can he look so good wearing something so simple?
“What?” By the looks of it jungkook probably realized that i’ve been staring at him for now.
“Nothing you just..”
“Just?”
“uhhh” Jungkook was getting closer and closer to my face and I was getting nervous for no reason.
“Hmm?” i can feel his breath on my face and it smells like mint.
jimin you gotta be kidding me.
“You look.. good,” I said, eyes staring right into him.
“Thanks jimin. and you look.. beautiful” He replied, his minty breath against mine. And then his eyes that were staring with mine for god knows how long, formed into a crescent.
He’s smiling.
“This style suits you a lot...tiny” he whispered, as his hand softly caressed my head. And you know what he did after that? left.
yeah he left after making me feel all weird.
i hate him.
The first thing I noticed when coming into this party is the big space it has in this tent. The moment you walk in, you’ll see a chandelier hanging in the middle, and white transparent tables are neatly placed at every corner. And the food. the food is the best. That asshole jungkook left me alone because he was in the toilet.
I was in the middle of feeding my dear self when a man, probably in his mid twenties came and mentioned my name.
This man is very handsome. He’s tall, has broad shoulders and is wearing a buttoned up shirt that looks perfect on him. I feel so ugly here damn.
“Jimin?” he spoke again. “Me?”
“Of course you. Jungkook talked about you a lot with me. You are indeed very cute” He smiled. Now I noticed the similarities he had with jungkook. Their eyes when they smile kind of look alike and if i’m not mistaken, this handsome guy must be his brother.
“Good things, I hope” I replied to him.
“Believe it or not. I think the guy don’t know anything bad about you”
“He does. Especially the part where i’m clumsy” and his brother laughed. somehow it reminds me of a windshield.
“Hey jimin? do you know the myth about colors?” I looked at him curiously.
“I think everyone knows that”
“Do you believe it?”
“No. it’s never real in the first place. it’s just a stupid myth”
“Why do you think so?”
“Because it’s not real hyung. Why do you have to find someone to only see colors? That’s just dumb. I used to believe it, until I had my girlfriend that I loved so much but I waited and it never happened. So then i knew it’s bullshit”
“Have you ever sat and thought maybe she wasn’t the right one for you? You see, you won’t never know the real truth until you get to know it yourself jimin”
“You say it like you experienced it yourself. Tell me then, have you seen the colors? Have you found one?”
“I-”
“Clumsy! I was searching everywhere for you god you shouldn’t walk alone and wait for m-” He paused when he saw his brother smiling at his frantic little brother.
“Jin hyung?”
“Kookie. Jiminie is here with me, why worry so much?” jin, his brother whom i just knew the name teased him. I haven't heard his answer because of this idiot jungkook coming to interrupt us.
“Of course I am. He's clumsy. I'm afraid he might hurt himself or something” that asshole! Don’t embarrass me like that.
“I’m not that clumsy you jerk. In fact i’m having a good time with jin hyung here”
“What did you guys talk about?”
“A lot of things” jin hyung replied to him.
“Oh and jimin? take a wild guess about what my answer is”
“What do you m-”
“Guys meet my boyfriend” jin hyung suddenly said.
BOYFRIEND?? he’s gay??!!
“Namjoon, this is my brother jungkook and his… friend jimin” He introduced his uh boyfriend to us.
His boyfriend was quite a visual
himself. He looks smart and neat, he has dimples when he smiles which I think is very attractive.
“Nice to meet you both”
“You too”
“....”
“Jimin? you seemed shocked” it was jin hyung.
“I uh, a little. so you’re gay?” I asked and the both of them laughed so hard, which made me a little confused. While jungkook is just standing there quietly, chukling.
“Yes we are. are you..?”
“No! no! i have nothing against that oh god sorry i’m i seem a little rude. i just.. um.. it’s a little unexpected”
“Have you dated guys jimin?” it was namjoon who asked.
“No. definitely not, i’m straight”
“Hmmm” Jin just nodded, looking at Jungkook who is still quiet, as always. “I used to say that too. at least i thought i was, not until i met this guy here”
I just silently nodded, smiling at them. They look like they’re a good pair. Both very handsome and somewhat nice. i was looking down at my shoes when i realized i was still holding the bouquet of
roses i wanted to give them. Shoot!
“Oh namjoon hyung I forgot! this is for you. happy birthday” i handed him the roses. “I don't know what birthday gift I should buy, and then Jungkook told me you love flowers. Sorry it’s not that much but i hope you like it”
Namjoon smiled, his dimples reaching his cheeks so deep. “It’s special enough that you came here. Thanks Jimin”
“aww! it matches our theme joon!” jin happily said.
Matches.. our.. theme..?
Did he mean that the colors or?
“Theme?” I asked him.
“Yes! Joon wants it to be red. Thank you for the roses jimin! Let me put it in a vase”
Red?
The color red?
Can he see it?
“Jimin let’s walk around the garden,” Jungkook pulled my hand and guided me somewhere.
My soulless body just followed him quietly while my mind wondered about the two couples. Can they really see colors? Is that why jin hyung was so convincing when he talked earlier?
“Namjoon and Jin hyung can see colors,” Jungkook suddenly said, answering all of my questions in my mind. Did I really think out loud, or was it just obvious?
“They do?”
“mmm”
“But it's not real?” It came more like a question than a statement.
“It is real jimin”
“How do you know? what if they’re lying?”
“At first i thought the same until they proved it to me”
“Prove how?”
“.....”
“Jungkook proved how?”
Jungkook was looking into my eyes, his eyes. I don’t know what i should say about it. But then it went to look upwards, and after that I realized that it was snowing.
“It’s snowing!” i said excitedly. Jungkook just stood there smiling at my behavior.
“It's not real snow. it’s a machine. Jin hyung has it for the plants he planted” as soon as he said that, my face went down. “i thought it’s real”
“Hey for the record, it’s a snow machine so it’s kinda real” He caresses my head, before sitting on the swing surrounded by the sunflowers.
Sunflowers are always my favorite. Too bad I couldn't see the colors but I knew it’ll be my favorite by the way it looks. It’s beautiful.
“I love sunflowers,” I told him.
“It suits you” he smiled, eyes never leaving mine. If you ask me this in real life I would never admit this, but I love Jungkook's presence. He's a great company. Although he doesn’t talk much, sometimes his silence is just perfect. There’s something about him that makes me feel like anywhere when I'm with him, I feel safe, secure and warm.
His presence is all that matters.
“What suits me?”
“Yellow. it’s bright and alluring”
Wait what
“What’s yellow?” I swear for a moment I saw his eyes widen before he just shrugged it off.
“My brother told me, sunflowers are yellow”
If it’s not because i’m too tired of thinking too much, i wouldn’t let it go just like that. But after the thing with jin and namjoon hyung, i’m a little exhausted to overthink.
Damn jimin. Why are you like this?
______
“So jimin’s straight huh?” Jin’s voice brought jungkook back to his senses. After sending Jimin back to their dorm, he had to tell him that he had to go back and help his brother and his boyfriend to clean their newly bought house.
“Yeah” the younger one heard the two elders laugh. “How did you know he is?”
“I knew it from the way he flirted with some girls in our uni, not to mention last month he had a date with this famous girl” Jungkook had his face glued on his phone, but somehow Jin knew his baby brother was thinking about something else in his mind.
“We don’t know if he likes men too tho?” namjoon added, trying to cheer the younger up.
“He doesn’t hyung. it’s just.. the way he looks at.. you know. it’s different” i told them and jin hyung came to sit next to me, draping his arms over my shoulders.
“i don’t want to assume anything kook, but who knows, maybe you can open his heart one day”
jimin pov
01:38
It's the third time I glanced at the clock. jungkook looked a little down and quiet when he drove me back home. i know he’s always quiet but not with me. That guy talks a lot when he’s with me so to see him go all quiet, that’s so unlike him.
I can hear the sound of keys unlocking the door, followed by the sound of the door creaking open.
“Jimin? why are you still awake?” he looks tired and his hair is disheveled.
“I um.. i can't sleep” i lied. Honestly i couldn’t sleep knowing he’s acting a little different than usual, and now seeing him looking so exhausted made me worry even more. I knew he was probably tired from this morning, but his behavior is different.
“You should sleep. you have morning class tomorrow don’t you?”
“Yeah”
“....”
“Hey gguk?”
“Mmm?”
“How was the cleaning?”
“Okay”
“Can i ask something about your brother? and umm his boy..friend”
“Mmm”
“How can he see the colors?”
“Because.. he found the one”
“Even if it’s a guy?” for a moment jungkook sighed. I don’t know if that’s because of my dumb question, or because he’s tired. or both.
“It's not because of that. it’s because of love. Love is when you find the right one for you. regardless of gender” he told me. The room was a little dark for me to see my reflection in his eyes, but I can see his eyes glistening under the lights.
“It's my turn to ask you a question,” he said, eyes still never leaving mine. “Can you.. do you.. ever picture yourself dating a man like my hyung?”
“No”
“Why not?”
“I can’t. i’m straight”
“Mm ok”
“Um.. how about you?”
“You should go to sleep, it’s late” this asshole ignored my question.
“Answer me first you jerk”
“I don’t know”
“What do you mean?”
“Maybe not”
“So you and me are the same-”
“because i have someone i like already”
“Damn it” I grunted. I couldn't sleep at all last night, and by the time I tried for the last time it’s already 7 am. You gotta be kidding me. i spent the whole night thinking about something really stupid. After the talk last night, I just knew that Jungkook had someone he liked. Is it a guy? or a girl?
Probably a girl. Jungkook is actually well known at our uni. He's that quiet handsome popular guy everyone dreamed of. While me? Just the friendly cute guy.
“Hey park, you look so trashed,” Taehyung told me as I sat beside him.
“I know. couldn’t sleep last night” I replied to him, taking out my papers.
“Well just so you know, the exams are the day after tomorrow so you better take care of your weak ass”
Shit. I totally forgot this is exam week. well i’m fucked then. i didn't even study much lately, which means i’m gonna have to spend later and tomorrow to study.
God, I've been so distracted lately. I don’t know why I am even worried about that asshole jungkook. He's acting weird. He didn’t even wake me up by hitting my head with a pillow anymore, he just left saying he had early classes.
“Jimin dude are you listening?'' Taehyung's annoying hand is waving in front of my face.
“what?”
“I said, can I study in your room after class?”
“You have your own room you dumbass, go study there”
“You know how annoying my roommate is! He plays music too loud. It's distracting me! Plus i’m sure your roommate jungkook is okay with me coming along, he’s nice” he whines.
“whatever. How old are you really? whining like a three year old kid”
“Shut up”
“Hi jungkook!” As soon as we entered the room, Taehyung cheerfully greeted the younger one who was drawing something on his canvas.
“Hey,” he replied, still focused on his work.
“What's that?” asked Taehyung, sitting next to him as he observed the younger’s work. “Its my art assignment”
“Taehyung you said that you wanted to study, so don’t bother him and focus” i told that noisy jerk. He rolled his eyes while muttering something that i think was ‘jealous as fuck’.
Jealous? In your dreams. Why would I be jealous of you and that quiet asshole?
Talking about assholes, Jungkook still hasn’t talked with me much since this morning and it is really, really disturbing me.
“Gguk? Since when were you home?” I tried to start a conversation.
“I don't have afternoon class, so I went home to finish my drawing.” I really want to smack the back of his head so maybe he would face me while he talks. This asshole is pissing me off for no reason! Whatever, let’s just study jimin.
ding!
The sound of my notification popped up.
Focus focus.
I take out my notes and tried to organize it one by one and then,
ding!
Another notification goes off.
ding!
Who the hell is that? Why is it so annoying?
Annoyed, I aggressively took my phone out of my bag and checked the notification bar.
[instagram] seokjjins has requested to follow you
seokjjins has sent you a message (3)
seokjin…? as in jin hyung? Jungkook’s brother had requested to follow me on instagram? And spammed me with three freaking dms? Let me just read the message.
seokjjins:
-jimiiiin!! accept my request
-JIMIN
-PARK JIMIIIIINNNNN
parkjm:
-jin hyung?
seokjjins:
-the one and only
-hi there :)
parkjm:
-why did you message me hyung?
seokjjins:
-i forgot to ask for your number.
-oh and i just wanna ask how’s kook?
parkjm:
-what? don’t you have his number?
seokjjins:
-that brat ignored my texts and calls.
-anws, how is he
parkjm:
-he’s kinda weird
-quieter than usual
seokjjins:
-tell me about it
parkjm:
-idk hyung. but he seems down? or tired? is he upset about something?
-or with me?
seokjjins:
-i’m sure he’s fine
-let me talk with him yeah?
parkjm:
-yeah. do you want me to tell him to check his phone?
seokjjins:
-yes please!! and also give me your number!!
parkjm:
-okay
“Hey jungkook. your brother wants you to check your phone. He's worried” Jungkook looked up and turned around to look at me. “Jin?”
I nodded. “He flooded my instagram with his texts because of you”
“Shit” he cursed before searching his phone on his table that is messier than my life.
No wonder he didn’t reply, this idiot lost his phone in the sea of these messy papers.
jungkook’s pov
“Yeah yeah. don’t worry. okay i promise. okayyyy” i answered him multiple times. Apparently my big brother here is very worried about me not replying to his call so I had to promise him that I would reply to him every time. Even if it means I'm in the toilet pooping, his word, not mine.
“Also, what is going on with you and jimin?” He suddenly asked.
“What about us?”
“Why are you acting like a dick?”
“What do you mean hyung”
“I heard okay. You, who loves to talk with him suddenly don’t” he’s not wrong with that one. I, for someone who hates talking with people, love to talk with jimin. Somehow with him I feel like I have so much to tell, I feel like I want to share every little detail of myself to him because he’s someone who loves to listen.
Jimin is the type that when you tell him stupid stories whether it’s about something else or yourself, he’ll listen and remember it. He makes me want to talk a lot about everything.
There’s something about him that’s different with anyone else that made me feel that way.
Weird? Probably.
“Jungkook stop thinking and answer me”
“I..i don’t know hyung. i feel like he won’t like me back the way i like him, and the more i think about it, the more i feel like, i should-”
“Okay young man stop right there. i have a bad feeling about that”
“....”
“Okay first, who are you and what did you do to my baby?-” I chuckled. “-and second, WHY in the world are you not fighting for it? I thought you loved him?”
“I do hyung”
“Then what the hell are you being a coward for? Does Jimin have a partner? no! then what is stopping you?” By now I think he’s probably going to be mad.
“Because, he’s strai-”
“omagaaaaaad” he started.
“Stop scolding that child, you're so dramatic” I heard Namjoon's voice on the line.
“I told you, didn't I? You know kook, maybe you can open his heart. But now if you’re avoiding him instead of trying and it’s never gonna prove anything. Honey i love you so much but why are you so dumb” It sounds like a statement instead of a question.
“If you really love him, then fight for him. heck go out there and win his heart for god sake. what’s love without a little sacrifice eh? or do you need some flirting skills from this amazing big bro?”
“Babe, maybe i agree with the fight part but what is he actually sacrificing?” Again, Namjoon hyung’s voice on the other line asking another question while I'm just here being quiet.
“You too kim namjoon i love you but shut up i’m being wise right now” I can hear namjoon hyung wincing in pain after that, god knows what my brother did i hope he’s okay.
“And jungkook?” jin said.
“Yeah?”
“You don’t see colors from a one sided love”
Jimin woke up to something soft brushing over his nostrils, And he want to sneeze so bad.
“Wake up clumsy”
Adeep voice interrupted. It took awhile for Jimin to process.
Wait.
“Jungkook!” He jerked up, pushing his blanket away and accidentally hitting Jungkook’s pretty face.
“What in the world?” Jimin shouted
“ouch!” Jungkook exclaimed in pain, we said that in unison.
“What are you..” He paused slowly, seeing the view next to him. Jungkook is rubbing his head with his hands, currently shirtless.
“That hurts you know” he whined, still rubbing his dear head. “Sorry. that’s what you get for disturbing me in my sleep”
Jimin is still processing the whole thing, but then he realized that Jungkook was behaving normally again.
“Gguk?”
“Mmm?”
“Are you on your period?”
Jungkook's deadpanned face stared at him for what it seemed like forever and suddenly his blank face came in contact with a pillow.
That bastard is… smiling? Jimin thought.
“probably”
“Okay sister,” The older said, pulling back his blanket over his head trying to continue his beauty sleep.
“I’m sorry for acting so weird before,” He said.
“Yeah you should”
“And I’m sorry for being a jerk”
“Yeap you are”
“Oh and Jimin?”
“What?”
“you’re late for class”
Processing.. processing…
“WHAT” He jerked up looking at the clock next to his bed.
8:03 AM
“JUNGKOOK WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP?? I'M LATE!”
Jungkook was looking at him with his famous blank face, and then raising his both hands on his sides like he’s surrendering for something, “Hey i tried waking you up several times! You are just a biiiiiiiig sleeper”
“Omg i hate you” Jimin threw a pillow to him, quickly running to the bathroom. But he didn’t miss Jungkook whining saying “what did i do” over the pillow.
Jungkook seems like he’s in a good mood today. not gonna lie Jimin does miss him being a dork like that, but sometimes his mood swings is really making the older lose his mind. yesterday he wouldn’t even talk about anything and ignores literally almost everyone at times, but now he’s being smiley.
but whatever that is, this current jungkook is the one Jimin likes the most.
“Jimin! are you listening?” Taehyung waved his hand over Jimin’s face. “no” He deadpanned.
“dude stop spacing out really, you look dumb” he teased, spoon stuck on his mouth. Taehyung is always so happy and lucky. His outgoing personality and uniqueness are his hidden charms. Sometimes he acts like a complete dork but there are times, once in a blue moon where he acts serious. Because they went to the same high school, they decided it would be nice if they had the same faculty.
“So, are you coming today?” He asked again, this time he had to make sure Jimin was listening to him.
“To where?”
“To Yoongi’s. You know he hosts the best parties in this world” He said, adding so much exaggeration in his tone.
“You’re so dramatic tae”
“So are you coming or not?”
“I d-”
“Hey” A deep voice interrupted. Jimin doesn't have to turn his face to see who’s voice that belongs to, because he knows with no doubts who that is.
“Hello Jungkook! Say, are you coming to Yoongi’s party tonight?” Taehyung asked. “Yeah, absolutely” And Taehyung started clapping his hands happily.
“So now it's you left Jimin. What were you saying?”
Jimin wasn’t planning to go to the party. Hell could go loose and he will still choose to stay in his room, spending some time with his books or his roommate.
“Yeah. I’ll go”
So here He is, sitting on the sofa, right hand gripping the red cup tightly watching his friends slowly get drunk one by one. As expected, Yoongi indeed hosts the best party. There were so many people from uni around, dancing to the blasting music half sober half drunk.
“Truth or dare Jimin?” Jimin and his drunk group of friends, who is now very drunk, was playing the lame game of truth or dare.
“Truth”
“Will you ever date me?” It was Jungkook, definitely not sober anymore. His eyes were squinting over the bright lights when he tried to look at the older.
Will you ever date me?
Jimin sat there surprised. Will he date him? Honestly, He doesn’t don’t know. He never imagined himself dating his best friend, more even Jungkook, a man. But truthfully, the idea of being with Jungkook wasn’t bad at all.
He pictured himself with Jungkook, hands holding, hugging, doing all the couple things people normally do, and somehow it makes him feel some kind of thing that he can’t quite explain what.
“If you can't answer you can take a shot” Taehyung spoke, breaking the silence. Everybody was sitting quietly waiting for Jimin’s answer. Especially Jungkook.
“I’ll take a shot” Jimin quietly muttered, Hoseok nodded and pushed the red cup filled with alcohol towards Jimin as he took the cup towards his mouth in one go. Letting it take over him.
The game goes around for what Jimin thinks about an hour that they all, himself included, is very very drunk. For the whole time, everytime it was Jimin’s turn, Jungkook would ask him the same question, “Will you ever date me?” And Jimin will do the same thing, take a shot. The others tried to make jokes and say something, but the tension between the two was just tense enough.
Jimin stood outside the balcony, eyes closed letting the winds blow his hair. He is so drunk, but still a little sober enough to be aware of his surroundings.
“Jimin” It was Jungkook. “Why?”
Jimin turned to look at the younger, his hands gripping the balcony to help make him stable.
“Why what?”
“Why didn’t you answer my question?”
“I.. i don’t know”
“You don’t like me?”
“Jungkook i-”
“Jimin I like you. I like you. I like you so much I can’t hold it anymore. I want to hold your hand, hold you in my arms and keep you close with me all the time because I want to do everything with you”
Jimin was speechless. He doesn't know if the words that came from Jungkook were just a joke or serious. Jungkook is drunk. He tells himself. There’s no way he likes him. It’s impossible.
“Say something” The younger said, eyes staring right into Jimin’s.
“I don’t know wh-”
Before he could continue answering, he was pulled towards by Jungkook and leaned forward to kiss him. Jimin can feel the younger’s lips against his own, a mixture of alcohol with cherry and he was frozen. He wanted to scold him, but he couldn't. He wanted to push him away, but he had no strength. As if his body was reacting against his ways and his legs felt so weak.
He felt Jungkook’s left arm move its way to surround his waist, and the other cupping his face, caressing his cheeks. Jimin swore if Jungkook wasn’t holding him, he’d melt on the floor. The kiss wasn’t bad, instead it was very warm and soft, and slowly Jimin finds himself closing his eyes savoring the moment.
After what it seems like an eternity, they both let go. But as soon as Jimin slowly opened his eyes, the world was changing.
Slowly, he can see Jungkook’s black hair changes into a darker shade of brown, his eyes glows into a light brown glistening under the bright yellow balcony lights. He saw Jungkook’s black sweater turned into a maroon. He can see it. And Jimin was beyond surprised that everything, all the things around him have colors.
Jimin was bewildered that when he took a step back from Jungkook’s hold, he stumbled like a drunk man trying to walk.
“Hey hey hey,” Jungkook took his hands with his, holding him. “Are you okay? I’m- I’m sorry for-”
“I have to leave. I..I have to go” He said as he walked away.
Everything that happened a while ago, it’s too much that Jimin doesn’t know how to handle it. The kiss, the colors, and his feelings. He was confused. He knew that with Jungkook, he made Jimin feel something he never did before, but now that he saw the colors, he was beyond confused.
Jungkook made Jimin become that person who cares so much about him. He’d be worried when Jungkook came to their room late, or when he stayed quiet for the whole day or whatever that is, he’d notice everything no matter how small that is. Sure Jimin does care so much about his other friends, but it never gets to the point where Jimin has to stay up all night and wonder how the latter is doing, and sometimes he’d miss having his company. He never felt anything like this. Jungkook could just crack a small joke or simply be with Jimin and he’d feel like his world is so much lighter.
Jungkook made him feel like 16, when he had his first girlfriend.
And for the whole night Jimin couldn’t do anything but think.
________
Jimin regretted coming into the party and got drunk after, because it’s now a Monday morning and he has early classes and what’s worse is he didn’t get any sleep. So he just sat there in front of his laptop after taking a warm shower, bright and early.
He turned his head to his left, towards Jungkook who was sleeping soundly on his bed. When he heard Hoseok’s voice complaining about how heavy Jungkook is on the door outside, Jimin quickly opened the door revealing Hoseok and Taehyung carrying a very drunk, smelled like strong alcohol man which is Jungkook.
“What happened to him?” Jimin asked, worried as he eyed the younger on their arms, completely passed out.
“Honestly, I don't know. He came saying you left, and then he just drank so much that he literally passed out” Hoseok said, walking in and Jimin helped the two.
“Why didn’t anyone stop him? God he reek alcohol” Jimin sighed, after laying the younger on the bed he slowly took of his jacket and his socks, making him lay comfortably.
“We tried Jimin. God he was so mad he just started screaming, I swear he was about to punch me if I got close to him any further so we just let him be” Complained taehyung, who seems so exhausted.
“Did you two fight or something?”
“No. No we didn’t”
And that’s how Jungkook ended up on the bed, now shuffling around and kicking his blanket.
“Aah fuck” The man grunted, Jimin quickly sat up straight looking at him worried. “Jungkook?”
“Hmm I’m alive”
“Are you okay? Wait let me get you something” Jimin said, walking to the table to get him water and painkillers.
“If you’re wondering then I feel like my head is going to burst. I’m gonna die”
“Here” He said as he handed Jungkook the tray of food. Jungkook was looking at Jimin and when they had eye contact, Jimin just quickly looked away. Feeling the heat of his face.
“Thanks” The younger quietly muttered, enough for Jimin to hear.
Jimin was a little hesitant to ask, but he felt like he’s not gonna live in peace if he didn’t so he looked at the younger and spoke, “Gguk can I ask something?”
“Sure”
“Yesterday.. did you remember anything”
“What? Did I do anything stupid yesterday? Damn I can't remember anything” He dryly laughed, but Jimin can’t seem to get it.
“You can’t remember anything? At all?”
“Well I do remember something. We came and then Yoongi served us drinks, and then Tae said he wanted to play a game.. and then… that it’s. I passed out”
“Oh”
“Why?”
“Nothing. I’m.. nothing. Forget it. Um I have morning class so I have to leave. You should finish the food, and then eat your meds okay?”
“Okay. Thanks again Jimin”
“Don’t thank me. Thank Tae and Hoseok for bringing you home”
“AND HE DOESN'T REMEMBER?? KISSING YOU AND SHIT?”
“No Tae and shut up everyone can hear you” Jimin said closing his loud mouth. Apparently Jimin had told everything to Taehyung, from the kiss to him seeing colors. Everything. And taehyung has to make sure he didn’t leave out any details as he said so he can tell this story to his grandchildren.
“And how do you feel?”
“What do I feel?”
“Like when he kissed you, and you kissed him? And when you’re with him?”
“I don’t know. It feels like you know how they describe it in books? When you kiss someone you like and you feel butterflies and fireworks in your stomach? I thought it was a complete bullshit yanno like, you kiss and feel things in their body?? But then when we did, surprisingly it felt like i did. But it wasn’t just that you know? Like, it’s a whole damned nuclear atom or something. And when he have his hand on my waist it feels tingly and my legs are weak, if he’s with me I feel like I’m so light, if he smiles I feel like I want to smile too, and if he’s with me I feel like, I don’t need anyone else you know? But I guess that’s normal right? Bestfriends feel like that”
Jimin looked at the male who’s staring at him like he just lost his sanity.
“NORMAL MY ASS! Oh my god Park Jimin I thought you’re smart? That’s a whole love confession oh shit. You don’t feel like that with your bestfriend you idiot”
“You don’t?”
“You don’t.” He confirmed. “Do you feel anything like you said with me?”
“Well not all but-”
“Exactly! You’re in love with that boy!”
“Even if I do he probably don’t like me”
“Just saying honey, you don’t see colors from one sided love”
_______
That night when Jimin was studying in his room with Jungkook watching a movie on his bed, he received a text from Taehyung.
taetae:
ice cream if you agree to come with us to Bright’s Bar :3
Bright Bar is one of the local bars near a few blocks from our uni, it’s a small bar that has a small stage in it that usually voluntary groups perform at. We usually go there on weekends.
jimin:
are you bribing me with ice cream?
taetae:
is that working?
jimin:
maybe
taetae:
i love you! bring lover boy along xx
“I hate you,” Jimin quietly muttered, facing Jungkook who was too quiet and focused on his drama. Jimin was about to speak when his phone notifications suddenly went on.
“Tae told me they’re inviting us to Bright’s. You coming?” He asked right after checking his phone.
Jimin nodded, saying “Yeah. He bribed me with ice cream after all”, which Jungkook laughed at.
Jungkook knew that ice cream is Jimin’s favorite thing in the world. Get him ice cream, and he’d do anything for you.
By the time Jimin and Jungkook arrive, they are welcomed by Taehyung who is side hugging Jimin. Looking at their table carefully, he realized that there are some people that he never met before. Jimin is sitting between Taehyung and Jungkook. In front of Taehyung was Hoseok accompanied by Yoongi who’s talking with the stranger next to him. The person beside Jungkook is also someone he never met. But when Jimin can see these two strangers is that they’re very good looking.
“Oh yeah guys this guy is Jaehyun” Hoseok said introducing the guy next to Jungkook, “and this is Taejoon”.
“Hey! I heard that you’re good at photography?” Jaehyun said to Jungkook so suddenly. “Not really. Just a hobby”
“No kidding. I saw your instagram posts, that angle and adjustments was so cool dude. What camera did you use?” Jaehyun was really good at making conversation, because just like that Jungkook was already interested in communicating and laughing along with him.
Jimin didn’t even realize how long he kept glancing at both of them. Jungkook was laughing. Something he didn’t do with Jimin for a long time. Back in the dorms the air between him and Jungkook was so awkward and tense they barely even uttered a word, but here is Jungkook laughing with a stranger he just met.
This image creates some kind of tug in Jimin’s heart. And he finds that so painful. Especially to see Jungkook happy with someone else.
But not with him.
“Jimin are you okay?” Taehyung whispered, breath smelling like alcohol. Taehyung has a good alcohol tolerance so he doesn’t get drunk so fast.
“I’m.. i’m don’t feel so good. I think i’m gonna leave” Jimin felt sick. He feels like his head is being multiply hit by a hammer and his heart, it feels painful.
So he stood up and rushed over the door. He wanted to puke so bad and his head was thumping terribly. As Jimin was about to open the door knob, a hand stopped him.
“Where are you going?”
Jungkook.
“Dorm. I feel sick”
“Stay Jimin”
“Let my hand go. I’m going home” He insisted.
“Don’t. And what are you gonna leave with? I drove with you here with my car”
“I’ll figure it out, gguk. I'll grab a taxi or whatever. Let me go'' Jimin tried to pull his hand away, but Jungkook’s grip is too strong.
“No”
“Can’t you hear me? Let me go i wanna fucking go home! What the hell is your problem? Go and hangout with that guy right there and leave me the fuck alone!” Jimin tried to stop himself from crying, but as he raised his voice, the more the tears threatened to flow more. So he just let it go down through his cheeks. His tears are less of a concern at the moment.
“What the hell is your problem Jimin? What’s wrong with me hanging out with someone else? Are you jealous? You’re not my boyfriend” That stings. Jimin felt like his heart dropped. Right now he wants nothing but to disappear.
Jungkook’s face is washed with guilt as soon as he said those words. He looked carefully at Jimin’s eyes.
He’s crying.
“Right. I’m not. I’m sorry for being so clingy and dramatic. I’m sorry for being jealous and for liking you” The younger’s grip on him suddenly softened, so Jimin knew it was his cue to leave. Rushing, he walked over to the side of the road, tears coming out of his eyes like a rainfall.
“Park Jimin, wait!”
But Jimin didn’t stop. His footsteps went faster and faster but Jungkook is just quicker.
“I said wait,” Jungkook grabbed his arms again. Jimin didn’t want Jungkook to see how pathetic he is, so he kept his head down. Not until Jungkook has his fingers under the older’s chin, slowly lifting it up. “Hey.. look at me” He said, eyes into his, “I’m sorry for making you cry” Jungkook places both hands on his cheeks, gently wiping the tears from his face.
His gestures were so delicate, like if he makes one wrong move and jimin will break.
“I’m sorry for.. for being dramatic. As a friend I wasn’t supposed to cross my limits. I..I.. I went overboard and I-”
“Jimin. Baby. Listen to me. Breathe” It breaks the younger’s heart to see Jimin’s voice sounding so weak and fragile. “Jimin, you don’t have anything to be sorry for-”
“I do,” The elder said.
“Okay maybe you do. But we both did some stupid dramatic mistakes don’t we? And you are not crossing the line Jiminnie. You don’t have to be sorry for loving me. If there is someone who should be sorry it’s me. I’m sorry for being a coward, it took this big of a fight for me to finally gain the courage to say I love you”
“You what?” Jungkook wanted to smile. The older looks so confused, blinking his sparky eyes wet from the tears like a baby.
“I love you Jimin. I love you so much because you are the most amazing person in this world”
“You do?”
“Yes”
And suddenly Jimin engulfed him in a hug, wrapping his hands around Jungkook’s waist as Jungkook smiled, hugging the smaller one who seemed so perfectly fit in his arms.
“Jungkook”
“Hmm?”
“I believe this is the part where you kiss me”
“Oh shut up” and he closes the gap by meeting his lips to him. The world felt like it was just both of them and no one else’s. Them being in the arm of someone they love, what could you ask for more? For them, it was more than enough, to be together in the world full of various colors.
Jungkook had wanted this for so long, he pictured how it’ll feel when Jimin is in his arms, how small he is, and he can completely feel his warmth over his own. He felt like if he let go, the smaller one is going to slip away.
“Oh my god look at them!”
“Shut up they’re gonna hear us”
A soft faint whisper was loud enough for both of them to pull away.
Who the hell?
Jimin turns around to see Taehyung with a phone in his hands, Hoseok trying to take away Taehyung’s phone and Yoongi smirking like he finally won a game. They all look like the end lips are going to rip off anytime from smiling so wide.
“Fucking finally”
“What the hell are you guys doing” Jungkook said, cheeks starting to get red as Jimin hides himself on Jungkook’s chest, definitely very embarrassed.
Jungkook looked down and saw Jimin looking up at him, cheeks flushed and smiling up to his eyes. “Your cheeks are so red,” Jungkook softly told him, holding his face.
Jimin giggles, which Jungkook finds so damn adorable. “You too ggukie,” and he raises his tiny fingers, pointing on Jungkook’s red cheeks.
The younger’s eyes widened in surprise, “Jimin you can.. see the colors?”
“And it’s all because of you gguk”
“You two definetely have to thank those two dudes.” It was Yoongi talking to the other two.
Wait a minute.
“Don’t tell me… those guys were..” Jimin started, Taehyung and Hoseok let out an oops as if they just got caught stealing a candy in the middle of the night.
“You little shits” Jimin walked away from Jungkook’s arms, towards where Taehyung and Hoseok was standing but the two duos started running away.
And they’re now chasing each other around the others like Tom and Jerry.
“Stop chasing us we’re sorry!”
“AAAAAAAAAA JIMIN AAAAAAA” That was Hoseok.
“COME HERE YOU SHITS”
All of them were dying with laughter by the time they stopped running around. Jimin ended up hitting Taehyung and Hoseok for making him jealous.
“Okay guys I'm so tired I'm gonna go home” Yoongi said and the others nodded in agreement.
“Me too”
“Yeah we should go home too”
After the others left, Jimin and Jungkook were the only ones left, standing there grinning at each other.
“Let’s go home?” The younger asked, putting his hands towards him like he’s asking for him to hold it.
“Let’s go home” and Jimin reaches his hands towards the younger, intertwining it together.
They walked side by sides, hand tightly sealed like a lock. “How do cuddles sound like after?”
“Terrible”
And Jungkook knew he was the luckiest person by the biggest smile on Jimin’s face.
It was destiny after all. For them to cross paths and meet each other in the same place when they came from two different worlds. Them, who are very different opposites in so many ways, completely complete each other in a way no one could. That is a soulmate. And when you find each other, nothing else matters.
“Gguk?”
“Yeah?”
“When did you fall in love?”
“When I first saw you. It was so shocking to see the colors start appearing before my eyes after I opened the door. More shocking was you stood there, with those cute eyes and blue sweater that is bigger than you, and you look so confused. I swear since then I knew I'm gonna screw up” he said, playing with the elder’s soft hair, running his hands around it. The elder snuggled into him closer, inhaling the younger’s scent.
“I’m sorry for being distant. I was so scared, the thought of not being with you just messed me up and i thought, staying away will make me like you less, but it just makes me want you more”
“You don’t have to be sorry. I was scared too. I was in denial at first, but then I was scared of losing you to those dudes in the bar. God bless Tae and Hobi I hope they slip on tha toilet”
“That’s so mean!” The younger laughed, his body moving.
“And you pretended like you didn’t remember the kiss! That’s meaner” The smaller one playfully punched the younger on his tummy. “Ouch!”
“Serves you right meanie”
“Do you think Tae’s gonna tell our story to his grandkids?” The younger one started.
“If Hoseok purposed to him, yes”
“How about you?”
“What about me?
“Will you marry me?”
“Shut up!”
“I’m serious”
“What?”
“Will you-”
“I know! I’m not deaf”
“So?”
“YES!”