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“Seriously! Again?! Pull yourself together!” Mary snapped at Ava as the younger girl suddenly tripped over nothing and fell onto the ground while they were doing long ranged weapons training. Normally Camila would be assisting, but she was off helping their other sisters somewhere. Which meant Mary had to deal with the Halo Bearer all on her own.
“I’m sorry! I don’t even know what happened!” Ava reasoned out as she lets out a huff before getting back up onto her feet and glancing over to where Beatrice has walked by. Really, no one could blame Ava for letting her eyes follow Beatrice until she disappeared from sight. To be around Beatrice was to admire her.
Mary shakes her head as she loads up the pistols with ammo, clearly not missing the longing look in Ava’s gaze. “Girl, you need a new hobby.” She tells the younger girl before Ava pulls her gaze away from the door that Beatrice went through.
“Excuse you but I do have a hobby.” Ava says with a confident nod; making Mary roll her eyes.
“Sorry to inform you but staring at Beatrice all day doesn’t count as a hobby.”
Ava shoots her a glare before smirking. “Fine. You’re right. Because it’s very much a profession and I damn well excel in it.” She says before dusting herself off. Mary just lets out a breathy chuckle at Ava’s words. “You’ve got it bad, huh?”
Oh, truer words have never been spoken. Ava was a confident girl. Sure, she could be an idiot sometimes. And a messy idiot at that but somehow she can’t bring herself to go up to Beatrice and confess that she’s been crushing on her hard.
And it wasn’t like Ava hadn’t tried at all. Out of everyone in her circle, she spent the most time with Beatrice. At first it was only training, maybe a few lessons on different things here in there, and then gradually it just turned into something more. Something that Ava craved every single day but she knew she couldn’t just push Beatrice into that. After all, Bea was still a nun who took her vows. Despite all their lingering touches and staring and almost kisses.
God, Ava has lost count of how many times she and Beatrice had the opportunity to kiss.
But somehow she just couldn’t do it and it bothered her to no ends because damn it, she just wanted Beatrice’s lips on hers and she wanted to spoon and cuddle and she wanted to go on dates, and hold her hand as they stroll through the streets and the beach and everywhere.
“Hey!” Mary clapped her hands in front of Ava’s face, snapping the younger girl out of her thoughts. “Sorry, sorry.” She mumbles, not even noticing that she got lost in her own thoughts again. It seriously wasn’t fair that God made her His chosen one but also made her a queer mess. A queer mess who fell for a nun, nonetheless! Who does that??
“Get your head out of the clouds and pick up that gun. We aren’t done yet.” Mary instructs as she points to the loaded pistol on the table before gesturing to the targets at the other side of the field. “I’m not going to sugar coat it. Your aim is defined as breaking-the-laws-of-physics terrible.”
Ava crinkles her nose before crossing her arms and looking at Mary. “You know I don’t know who’s a worse teacher. You or Lilith. At least Lilith lets me take breaks now whenever Beatrice walks by.” She says and Mary just aims a shotgun at her. “Pick up the gun and start practicing or else I’m going to give that Halo of yours something to heal for the rest of the night.”
For a second, Ava was going to do it. But then her eyes caught a glance of Beatrice from one of the windows. She spared a second to glance at Mary before taking off running all over the place in case Mary started shooting.
“You little bitch! Come back here! What are you doing?!” Mary shouted before pulling the trigger and shooting the ground by Ava’s feet as she was running away.
Ava in turn just kept going and hoped for the best that she wouldn’t get shot. “I have no idea what I’m doing but you can’t stop me!!” Ava yelled over her shoulder as a response before ducking inside and running God knows where just to avoid more lessons with Mary.
Unbeknown to her, Ava’s legs were taking her straight to Beatrice’s room. But come on, was it really surprising at this point? Ava was basically obsessed with the badass Sister Warrior. Once Ava reaches the outside of Beatrice’s door, she could only pound her fists twice again the hard wood before turning the doorknob and letting herself in.
Beatrice would never show it, but she got startled a bit when Ava suddenly burst through the door like a madwoman. Panting and locking the door behind her. “Ava? What are you—“ She stops before she could finish her question since Ava just blurted out for her to shut up.
“No–sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. You can talk but just–wait. Listen. Hold on.” Ava manager to get out as her lungs tried to regain much needed oxygen, a finger up at Beatrice to keep the other girl from speaking. Finally, after about a minute of deep breathing, Ava was finally able to talk properly and look at at Beatrice.
“I don’t know what happened, alright? I don’t know what you did to me, or when it happened. I just know the reason!” Ava all but exclaimed, which just confused Beatrice even more. “What? Ava, what are you on about?” She asks as she set aside the book that she was reading down so she can rise up to her feet.
Ava just lets out a breath because now that she was more calm and had more time to think, all the idiot thoughts and nervousness just creeped up to her again. “I don’t even know! That’s what I’m trying to say!” She tells Beatrice as she starts pacing back and forth across the room. She had to release her nervous energy somehow if she was actually doing what she was trying to do.
“Look, Bea, you did something to me. Or maybe something else did something to me. But all I know is that one day I was basically just an elk on the plain, peacefully grazing and living my best elk life when suddenly—“ Ava stressed before cursing under her breath. “When suddenly fucking cupid or I don’t know! Camila probably!! Decided to just pack a damn compound bow and then shot a fucking love arrow right into my heart!! And fuck!!” Ava curses, clearly a bit lost on what to say that she was basically just spewing none sense at that point.
And Beatrice, well, she didn’t really know what was happening for once in her life. Usually she caught on pretty quickly but this time she had no clue. And that just made Ava even more frustrated because how could Beatrice be so oblivious!!!
“Ava! Ava, calm down.” Beatrice eventually says in that damn calming and loving tone of hers and fuck, it just made Ava want to melt. She looks up at Beatrice when she takes Ava’s hands in hers, squeezing them reassuringly before lifting a hand up so it could cup Ava’s cheek to get her eyes on Beatrice’s.
“That’s it. Just breathe, calm down for a moment. You’re not trying to catch anything, nothing is getting away from you.” She tells Ava and Ava fought every urge to tell her that Beatrice was the one she was trying to catch. And the confidence of doing so was definitely getting away from her because the more she looked at Beatrice, the dumber her brain got because how can a person look so beautiful and perfect and her lips just look so kissable—
“Oh, fuck it.” Ava mutters and Beatrice barely had time to register that in her brain before Ava captured her lips with her own. Beatrice’s muffled gasp could barely be heard between them, and the situation honestly was not registering in her head. Before she even knew it, Ava had pulled away with wide eyes. She scrambled to move a few feet away, not knowing what to do now that she’s really gone and done it.
“Bea–I’m so sorry. Oh my God, I’m so sorry I don’t know what came over me. I just—I can never put into words how much you mean to me. You know? And how much of an impact you’ve had in my life in the time that we’ve known each other and I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever be able to. But all I want to do is remind you everyday of that and of how much you mean to me and damn it, Beatrice! I’m in love with you! Why can’t you see that!” Ava’s words and thoughts just spilled out quickly, basically like if a damn burst and all the water just came rushing out.
Meanwhile Beatrice could only really stare, not knowing how to find the words. Which for everyone around, knew was nearly impossible. And yet, here it was. Beatrice was finally speechless at everything that happened in the last five minutes. And all Ava could do was watch.