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Realistic
He really, really wants to patch things up with his brother, but after all the years of resentment and disdain on both their parts, he doesn't know how. Every attempt he's made ends up in them fighting, and Seth knows how to get under his skin so easily and so fast that he can't help but lose his temper every time. Not to mention how horrible they both are at talking about their feelings.
Pickles blames him for his alcoholism, sure. But he knows Seth was only a kid at the time too, and he understands now, looking back, how terrified Seth must have been to receive the brunt of his father's anger.
They were close, in their younger years, not in a picture perfect loving sibling way, but in a "you're the only other one who knows how shitty our parents are" way, and they shared a lot of interests, ones that, being in a small town, most other kids they knew didn't care about. There was a level of mutual respect and understanding that they didn't have with anyone else.
But after years of their parents driving a wedge between them, they drifted, and the final nail in the coffin was Pickles leaving, getting too caught up in his new life to keep contact with his brother, and Seth's resentment and jealousy over Pickles abandonment and then wild success just grew and grew, festering until all he could think about was how his brother must hate him so much to leave him in this shit town with his parents, and how fucking lucky he was to be able to get away. How he had won the proverbial birth lottery, being beautiful and talented and determined enough to make it big, while Seth was stuck selling cigarettes and dirt weed just to have enough money for alcohol to drink his problems away.
Wow. That got sad. Sorry.
Funny
For all Nathan loves fish, Pickles HATES them. They freak him out, with their dead eyes and cold blood and slippery scales, and the smell.
Absolutely will not go in Nathan's room after the remodel when he gets all the aquariums. He won't eat them, and refuses to go swimming in any bodies of water because he will shriek like a little girl if one brushes against his leg.
This hatred does not extend to all water beings, only fish. He has the utmost respect for dolphins, whales, mermaids, coral reefs, Cthulu, the Lake Troll, and of course, octopuses. But fish? Fish can fuck right off.
Sad
Was exploited pretty heavily during his Snakes and Barrels years by his manager and record label. He had been so young when he moved to L.A. and had no idea what was really going on; he was just so happy to be away from home and making music that he did anything they told him would make him famous. Like letting these gross old suits dress him up in tight pants with no underwear and have him make 'fuck me eyes' at the camera, or pose with his tongue between his fingers, or "Smile pretty for the camera, beautiful, the girls will eat it up."
And he had loved every second of it, loved being treated like the mature adult he thought he was, loved dressing in clothes and makeup and posing in ways that would scandalize his mother, feeling it was a solid "fuck you" to his small-town upbringing. Not until years later did he realize how messed up it was for those middle aged assholes to be posing a sixteen-year-old like a sex doll, feeding him as much alcohol and ecstacy and heroin as he had wanted to keep him happy and malleable.
He hates that fans still shove pictures and old magazines from those days at him to sign. He's come to terms with the bad decisions he made in his youth, (both from a fashion standpoint and a lifestyle one) but still, seeing himself like that, still a dumb fucking kid from the midwest, all dolled up and being pushed as a sex symbol makes his stomach churn.
Unrealistic
He isn't as technologically inept as touched on in canon. "What is the internet" my ass.
This man is 100% a shitposter, second only to Toki. They both have fake accounts on fansites and spread wild rumors about their bandmates, using just enough truth to make it believable, and use embarrassing pics of the others to make memes which become wildly popular. Pickles' greatest pride is getting one of his fakes Twitter verified.
