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Wonwoo hates seafood, but that is fine because Mingyu can eat it. Wonwoo can not sleep if he hears loud sounds around him, but that is fine Mingyu who snores while sleeping, can sleep in the living room.
Wonwoo likes cat but Mingyu is alergic to it, but it is fine because he can endure the sneeze and pain.
He can do anything as long as it is for Wonwoo, Wonwoo is Mingyu's muse, Wonwoo is like an oxygen for him, Wonwoo is everything for Mingyu, and Mingyu will never regret anything he has done for Wonwoo.
Never once in Mingyu's life he can feel something like this, the feeling of being a person who wants to give everything, the feeling of someone who willing to sacrifice everything just for one person and the person for Mingyu is Wonwoo.
On the other hand, Wonwoo is used to all love, affections, and Mingyu being considerate to him. He does not need to be hesitated of Mingyu, he knows that he can rely on that man. He believes that Mingyu won't dissapoint him.
But it was on Sunday after their grocery shopping that changed everything, it was raining heavily at that time, the road was slippery, Mingyu who was driving could not see the road clearly because of the fog.
"We need to get back to the shopping centre"
"No Wonwoo, let's just go home. We have already half way now"
"I run out the face wash, how can I clean my face then?"
"You can use mine, Wonwoo"
"You know that I get itchy whenever I use yours, right?"
"Come on, Wonwoo. it is raining now and I'm afraid it will get heavier and it will cause the road become more slippery"
"Pleaseeee, Gyu"
"Arghh, okay.. okay.. You really know me, huh? you know that I can't resist your pleading face"
So, by that Mingyu turned the car in the middle of the road to come back to the shopping centre. Wonwoo was playing with his phone playfully with brightness that was not up to 30% because of the dim lights around them and it was also because Wonwoo could not stand bright lights. It was still dim for a moment until it suddenly became so bright that Wonwoo could not see anything, the only thing Wonwoo saw was Mingyu's face with his smile plastered on his face and the last thing Wonwoo heard was Mingyu calling for his full name and then his surroundings turned dark.
The next day, Wonwoo woke up with a really bright lights in a room full with medical stuffs attached on his body. He was trying to get up before a nurse came to his room with a tray of hospital food and prevented him for getting up from a bed.
"I'm sorry, Sir. Please don't move or it will affect the oxygen tube"
"Wait, Why am I here?"
"You got accident last night on route 63, Sir"
"I am what?"
"Sir, please lay down, you may have post-trauma after the accident"
"No.... no I don't need that. wait.... where is Mingyu?'
"Excuse me, Sir?"
"Mingyu, the other guy in the car, Kim Mingyu"
"Aahh, he is in another place, Sir. You may meet him later but please take your medicine and your food and rest your body, first. you need that, Sir"
And the nurse was not lying, he met Mingyu in another place, in a place called cemetery. He cried, he cried his heart out on that day and the day after that.
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Days after that are so hard for Wonwoo, he can not sleep without dreaming their last moment inside that car, he can not drive a car or even use a car as a transportation, and even worse he can not see himself in the mirror.
All the what ifs, all the whys, all the tears, all the questions, and all the feeling of guilty hold him to even see his own reflection in anything.
"Wonwoo, hello Jeon Wonwoo?"
"Ahh, I'm sorry. What was that. Hao?"
"Gosh, I asked you for three times you know!"
Wonwoo only gives Minghao a smile. Seo Myungho, or well known as Minghao is a bestfriend of Wonwoo and Mingyu. The three of them have already known each other for 9 years, even Wonwoo doesn't call Minghao a friend anymore but a brother.
"Nevermind, you come with me or not?"
"to?"
"you don't need to know, for your information it will be fun"
"Hmmm, I don't think I can't, Hao. Next time okay"
As he said that, he goes to the pantry taking some snacks and followed with the sound of Minghao's pace coming to him.
"Wonwoo, it's been 3 years. Are you not tired?"
"No, Mingyu never tired of me before then why should I become tired?"
"It's not like that, Why not you try to move on, you kno-"
The sound of bottle hitting a table fill the room. For a moment they become silent.
"Stop, Hao if you don't have anything to talk please leave my place"
"I just want to help you, Wonwoo"
"You can't, you will never can help me, Hao. Do you know how hurt I am? Do you know how sick I am? Do you know how much pain I have to endure? I am in a sea of pain, Hao. Everyday I have to face the pain, the feeling of guilty, Do you know that I can't even see my own self?"
Wonwoo fell on the floor, crying in a mess. For the whole 3 year after Mingyu left him, this is the first time he pour all of his heart in front of someone. He always trying his best to hide his feeling, he tends to change the topic if someone started to talk about Mingyu. He just does not want anyone knows about him and his pour heart.
And by that, Hao leaves the place. The sound of door closed is the next thing Wonwoo hear despite his crying sound.
Wonwoo tries to get up, walks to the sink and wash his face up, sweeping out his tears from his cheeks.
Facing the rest of the day again, act like nothing's happen.
Wonwoo chooses to stay at his bedroom, watching some series that he and mingyu often watched before.
Minghao
5.47 PM
in case you change ur mind, here's the address /address attached/ I'll wait for u!!
reply mark as read
Wonwoo throws his phone to the bed next to him. He groans as he see the message, he knows that he was messed up. He did not mean it to yell at Minghao before.
After all the thoughts on his mind, he chooses to reply to the message.