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Taehyung and Yoongi stood backstage watching Jimin perform a solo gliding around the stage. The entire choreography for Serendipity had been redone for this concert and Jimin didn’t let anyone see it til day of. Now they were all watching from monitors or the wings of the stage. Taehyung smiled watching proudly. “Ah he looks so good, it really is perfect.”
Yoongi hummed nodding in agreement. He loved the way Jimin could control his body in ways he could only wish that he could. He would never be nearly as good as Jimin but he loved to watch him. He made it all seem so effortless. Yoongi let out a soft sigh and Taehyung looked over. “Ah Hyung you okay.”
Yoongi nodded again. “Uh, yeah just wish I could dance like that with such emotion.”
Taehyung patted his shoulder. “Hyung you are an amazing dancer.”
Yoongi shook his head. “Not like that his body can tell a story and that is something I cant do its really something else.”
Taehyung grinned nodding. “Yeah, my best friend is something else. I love him.”
Yoongi nodded turning away as the performance wrapped up speaking to himself. “You’re not the only one.”
Yoongi got ready for his solo changing, thinking about the dance the whole time. He helped to write that song, though no one really knew where he got the inspiration from. The inspiration was from the dancer itself. He had these deep feelings for Jimin and told him once that he care for him more then he should, but Jimin had turned him down. The feelings never went away, and the other members had no idea.
Jimin had promised to keep it to himself there was times when it was awkward Yoongi would look at Jimin longingly and Jimin would get embarrassed and leave the room. Now Jimin was on and off seeing someone and it torture to Yoongi. He would see Jimin smile from getting text or phone calls. Jimin came into the room with the stylist quickly helping him change and Yoongi looked over and gave a soft small. “You did good Jimnie, really beautiful.”
Jimin beamed he loved when he made his band mates proud. Jimin opened his mouth to talk and Yoongi quickly left the room, not giving him a chance. Yoongi stretched across the couch that would be raised onto the stage. He was getting ready to do Seesaw, another song he had written about Jimin. Though he never led him on or made him think anything was going to happen. Yoongi just felt himself falling more and more no matter how hard he tried to not do it. Jimin was just his usual beautiful self. He took a deep breath and put all his energy into his performance. Letting the emotions come out the never ending up and down of it all the way it hurt the way he just wanted to be the one to hold him at night.
Yoongi tried to put a smile on his face, but the pain was there in his eyes, the want the need for more that was never going to happen. He finished and went backstage while a VR was playing quickly changing for the next group performance he walked in and looked at Jimin who was looking down at his phone. Yoongi sighed turning away fixing up his hair why does this have to be so hard. Today it was even worse for some reason he really wanted more and it was killing him.
He just had to finish up the show then he could get to his hotel room and be done with it, maybe tomorrow would be easier. It was a lie he always told himself that tomorrow would be easier, tomorrow he would love him less, tomorrow it would hurt less. It never happened though, every day he loved him more and everyday it hurt more.
Yoongi lost himself in the rest of the concert and they were waiting backstage for the cars to take them home. Their manager gathered them on the couch for their end of show picture he sat on the arm, and Jimin sat next to him leaning on his leg smiling. Yoongi flinched at the touch but smiled for the picture none the less. After it was done he quickly jumped up grabbing his stuff and leaving the room. The others looked on with concern.
Jin followed him out and stood beside him as the cars were pulling up. “Are you ok Yoongi?”
Yoongi nodded. “Just have a headache and am tired, want to shower and lay down, we still have another show tomorrow. Need rest.”
The cars pulled up and Yoongi walked away climbing in one and too the back he laid back on the seat drapping his arm over his face willing the tears he felt building up not to fall. The biggest mistake he ever did was falling for someone he cant have, and someone he has to spend all his time with now. It was painful. He heard other members climb in the car and by the sound of the voices Jimin was not one of them. He sighed in relief, Jin was in the car and leaned over the seat. “Do you need to talk Yoongi.”
Yoongi sighed and removed his arm from his face. “No I am fine Hyung, just shower and sleep.”
Jin nodded. “Okay we are going to order food. I will bring you some okay. Eat before you sleep.”
Yoongi huffed but smiled Jin was always making sure everyone was okay. Jin turned back around and Yoongi stared up at the roof of the car. He just had to hold himself a little bit longer then he would have the night alone, he knew they liked to all eat together but this one night they would have to do with out him. If she said he didn’t feel well then generally they would respect that.
The hotel was a short drive and they were there quickly. Yoongi got out of the car rushing inside with Jin hollering he would bring the food. He made it into the room and sunk to the floor he tried to steady his breathing but he went into a full panic attack. His heart was hammering and he couldn’t steady his breathes. He started sobbing running his hands over his face. He pulled himself from the ground still crying and stripped off his clothes making his way into the bathroom turning the water on hot he slipped in letting it rush over him.
All of his emotions were running out and down the drain he cried until he felt his tears had run dry and the water started to get cold. He got out drying himself off and slipping into some sweats he flopped himself on the bed with a sigh, his heart felt so heavy days like this were the worst and he didn’t know how he could keep going with this. He didn’t want to leave the group but was it doing more harm then good right now. He might have to talk and tell someone he needed to work out all the muddled emotions in his head.
A knock at the door he sighed getting off the bed knowing it was Jin with the food. He shuffled across the room not bothering to look he opened the door and turned away from it. “You can put it on the table. I might lay down first and heat it up later.”
He heard movement behind him the door shutting and a rustling of a bag. He laid back down staring up at the ceiling and before he knew it he was crying again. A sob broke out and he covered his face in his hands. He heard the movement stop and the sound of Jin coming closer. The bed side him dipped and a hand touched his shoulder.
Yoongi sniffled and apologized. “I am sorry. I just cant hold it all in anymore. It is too painful.”
The hand rubbed his shoulder softly. “Hyung, is this my fault?”
Yoongi sat up quickly realizing next to him was Jimin and not Jin. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!”
Jimin startled jumping up. “I told Jin I would bring your food!”
Yoongi groaned and put his face in his hands. “I am sorry I didn’t mean to yell I was just surpsied.”
Jimin nodded and sat back down. “Now tell me what is wrong, what is going?”
Yoongi shook his head and Jimin scooted closer pressing into Yoongis side. “We need to talk this out, we cant keep having things strained between us.”
Yoongi sighed. “It doesn’t matter, you are with someone and you do not like me like that. Hell you don’t love me like I love you.”
Jimin opened his mouth and Yoongi put his hand up. “Please don’t. It would only hurt me cause the truth is I am in love with you, and I fall more in love with you every day but I have to sit here and watch you be happy with someone else. I wont lie it breaks my heart, I wont force anything on you, and eventually I will probably get over and move on. I don’t know when but some days might be hard like this and I might need my space from you Jimin. Today is one of those days. I’m sorry.”
Jimin opened his mouth again to talk and Yoongi stood up grabbing his arm gently pulling him to the door. “Please do not say anything and just go.”
Jimin stopped yanking his arm out of Yoongi’s hand. He gave a glare. Yoongi huffed. “Jimin! Get Out! If you wont leave then I will and I will just go somewhere else.”
Jimin stood there staring at him. Yoongi nodded turning toward the door and Jimin grabbed his arm this time. “No, please. Wait. Please. Can’t we just talk? Please? Let me talk.”
Yoongi threw his hands up in the air walking back into the room. “Jimin, what is even the point? So you can break my heart all over again. Why don’t you go talk to your boyfriend!”
Jimin snapped. “Because I broke up with him! Now will you shut up.”
Yoongi turned around confused. “Why on earth did you do that? He made you happy? You were always grinning at your stupid phone.”
Jimin shook his head. Yoongi didn’t stop “But really so your single now I just have to deal with knowing your single and can still not be with you. Is that supposed to help me?”
Jimin stepped toward Yoongi who stepped away from him. “Just keep your distance Jimin, I want to just hug and kiss you so bad.”
Jimin groaned. “Can I talk without you interrupting me for once?”
Yoongi opened his mouth and this time Jimin put his hand up. “No you have said enough.”
Yoongi let his head hang down. He had taken out all his frustrations on to Jimin and now he was really in for it he probably wrecked anything they might have had and fractured the last bit of their barely there friendship.
He heard Jimin sigh softly then start singing. “All this is not a coincidence; I know it because just by my feeling. The world is different from yesterday.”
Yoongi looked up he opened his mouth and Jimin shook his head continuing he was singing the Serendipity. He went through the first verse eyes locked on Yoongi’s “You wrote this, is it about me?”
Yoongi nodded letting out a sigh. Jimin smiled and Yoongi felt his breath leave his chest cause it was one of the biggest smiles he has ever seen on him. His chest filled with warmth. “Hyung, did you see my performance of it tonight?”
Yoongi nodded again. “I told you, it was beautiful. Perfect you danced the words out beautifully, would have believed you felt them.”
Jimin closes the distance between them. “I do, Yoongi.”
Yoongi looked up and Jimin was within arms reach. “Don’t say that unless you mean it.”
Jimin reached up and pressed his hand on his face. “I don’t know when or how it changed but it did. You have been so patient with me, and I was so careless with you. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness or a chance but I guess that is what I am asking for. A chance, a redo, a try at us.”
Yoongis mouth fell open he couldn’t formulate words. “I broke up with him because I am not in love with him. He would say all these things and want to make plans, I never wanted them with him. I saw myself doing them with you. When you looked at me after the performance I saw and hoped maybe you still felt something and that I could try. Then Jin said you weren’t okay you looked sad and were sick. I just wanted to take care of you. I am sorry to be the cause of this.”
Yoongi grabbed ahold of Jimin pulling him into a hug. Jimin cooed and wrapped his arms around him holding him tightly. Yoongi was shaking. “Do you really mean this Jimin.”
Jimin squeezed him tighter nodding. “If you will give me a shot, lets take it slow work on us but I want this for real.”
Yoongi pulled back looking up at him, crying again but these were happy tears. Tears of relief and a smile crossed his face. Jimin cupped Yoongis face brushing the tears away with this thumbs and smiled. “I am going to kiss you now, is that okay?”
Yoongi nodded and Jimin leaned in kissing him softly. Yoongi melted into it, kissing Jimin was better then he ever thought it could be. It was like his lips were meant for Jimins and vice versa. The kiss was soft and sweet. Nothing rushed or heated, but it was still full of emotion and want. Jimin broke the kiss pressing his forehead into Yoongi’s. “Why don’t we eat, watch a movie and cuddle. We can just relax tonight and worry about everything else tomorrow.”
Yoongi nodded. “Will you stay with me tonight?”
Jimin smiled. “Do you want me to?”
Yoongi nodded again biting his lip. Jimin sighed softly smiling. “This is what I have been missing, you are so cute. If you want me to stay then I will stay.”
Yoongi blushed hiding his face in Jimins chest. Jimin gave him a tight squeeze before pulling him to the bed and sitting him down. “Let me heat up our food all these emotions and now I am starving.”
Yoongi laughed and smiled. “You’re not the only one.”
Yoongi didn’t know what tomorrow held, or how they would approach all the members with this if they would. All he knew is that for right now, Jimin was by his side and that is all he could ask for. He smiled watching Jimin prepare the food while humming the song, that really brought them full circle, maybe it really was Serendipity.