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Jinhyuk presses the like button immediately.

@iloveryu._ posted another photo in that pretty blue hair and Jinhyuk’s left here sitting on the floor wondering if she knows how badly she affects him.  He’s not stupid enough to use his actual account to like her photo, doesn’t want to invite unnecessary speculation that a single like could bring.  However, with this throwaway account?  Anything goes.

They don’t text much, exchanging random tidbits whenever something happens.  Their first messages to each other were Sujeong sending him the selcas they took backstage of BOF and her reaction to listening to his mini album.  However, now the conversations have cooled off to one of them randomly sending a news headline featuring the other and congratulating them on whatever they’ve done, or a random emoji expressing their happiness.  Jinhyuk sent her a congrats when she released her first solo, giving the same enthusiastic response to her mini album as she did with his own.

He tugs at his hair as he tosses his phone towards his bed.  Should he text her?  Tell her that he’s happy she’s kept her blue hair after promotions?  Was that too weird?

Getting up from the floor, he flops onto his bed, picking up his phone again.

Jinhyuk’s finger hovers over the like button of another picture, before he ends up just going through her photos and liking each one of them.

His fingers still itch, so he moves to his other account, the official one and chooses a random selca to upload.

He peeks at the notifications after he uploads, and immediately takes notice of one of the users starting to like basically every single photo that he’s posted so far.  The username feels familiar, Jinhyuk remembering that Sujeong mentioned her hometown was Daejeon.  And maybe he’s completely out of touch but maybe… Just maybe.

Jinhyuk takes a screenshot of the notifications from that user and pulls up his text thread with Sujeong.  He tries not to think about it when he sends the screenshot to her.

He gets a reply in a minute (which feels like a year, by the way).

Sujeong 🐯👁️

guess i got caught by you 😉

Jinhyuk 🍼☀️

your blue hair looks good on you, i’m glad you kept it

A chuckle escaped his lips, heart accelerating in his chest.  He pulls up instagram again, switching the account to his throwaway again and starts liking all the photos on her account.

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The first thing she thinks when she stands in front of Leedo that this was really stupid.  Why did she let Juri goad her into this?  She has no idea.

Yeonhee considers herself as a pretty confident person, usually has enough guts to pull off the most ridiculous of things.  She’s the leader of the group, so she usually is the one the others look to when speaking, and so she usually has enough courage to speak in front of strangers on behalf of the group.

Now looking at Leedo though, she wonders briefly where all that confidence went.  Why did it abandon her in her hour of need?

She’s fidgeting nervously with her sleeve, eyes anywhere but on his.  Yeonhee knows that he’s probably confused on why she would be standing in front of her after filming, especially after her group had already gone around to the other Dancing Idol groups and MC’s to say their thanks and farewells.  She wants to say something to him, but she really can’t seem to get anything out of her mouth.  There are actual butterflies in her stomach, she swears it.  This feeling couldn’t be explained by anything else.

Leedo speaks up, “Is there something the matter?”  Yeonhee’s knees seem like they’re going to collapse.  Who let someone be born with such an attractive voice?  It’s completely unfair.  She tilts her head upwards to look him in the eyes, a sheepish smile on her face.

“N-nothing’s the matter!” Yeonhee wants to smack herself in the head, why is she stuttering?  Whatever confidence she had while performing ‘Boy In Luv’, she’d like it to come back into her body now.

Clearing her throat, she tries again “I just wanted to say, you did really well!  And the rest of your group too!  I really enjoyed your performance today.  You did amazing during ‘My House’, you had so much charisma and I couldn’t take my eyes off of you.” It comes out in one go, and she can only be thankful that she didn’t stutter again.  However, she’s embarrassed at herself for being way too truthful.  Gosh, why can’t she get it together?

Despite her inner turmoil, his face melts into a soft smile, and if Yeonhee wasn’t sure if she was blushing before, she knows for sure she is now because his face is so sweet and she can’t help but have a wide smile in return for him.  “Thank you, you and Rocket Punch did very well too.  I didn’t get to finish what I wanted to say on stage, but you all performed very powerfully.  Plus, I thought you did well during the second half.  Congrats on the win.”

Why is his voice so pretty?  Yeonhee knows her cheeks are completely red at this point.

“Thank you so much.” She mumbles out, bowing.  “That really means a lot…”  Her heart is beating right out of her chest at this point and she knows she needs to make her escape before he can ask her about her tomato red cheeks.  “Uh well, that’s what I wanted to say!  I hope I see you again soon!  At another performance!” She exclaims, before bowing again.

She then darts away, little footsteps fluttering away around the corner and back towards her own dressing room.

Wait, did he just praise her specifically when he said ‘I thought you did well during the second half’?  That means he was watching her, right? Yeonhee’s probably going to have that sentence on repeat in her mind for the next month at least.

(Keonhee slaps his back when he enters the dressing room again.

“What did the cutie have to say to you?” 

He shrugs, “Just that she liked our performance, that’s all.”

A sigh escapes Keonhee’s lips, “That’s all?  She came in here looking for you all nervous and fluttery, I was sure she was gonna confess or something.”

Humming, he shrugs Keonhee off and heads over to pack the last of his things in his bag.  He thinks about Yeonhee for a moment, her quickly reddening cheeks and her fidgeting fingers.  Her bouncing little half ponytail as she hurried down the hall away from him.

Geonhak thinks about Yeonhee for a moment, and smiles.

He hopes he’ll catch her eye again.)

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Jibeom looks adorable like that, eyes staring off into the distance.  Donghan chuckles to himself, he snaps his fingers in front of his face and gets a very shocked look from Jibeom.  Donghan hums, heart warm and happy.

“Focus, yeah?”

The man in front of him huffs softly and slings an arm around his shoulders.  It feels familiar and warm, just like the past when they were in school together.  Donghan leans his head on Jibeom’s shoulder, sliding his arms around his middle comfortably.  He’s dizzy with happiness, eyes fluttering close.  He could stay like this forever and he’d be content.

“Jibeom!  We gotta go!”

Jibeom lets go of him and Donghan finds himself feeling suddenly quite empty without Jibeom’s warmth.

“I’ll see you later, yeah?” Jibeom says as a goodbye.

Donghan hopes it's sooner.

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Eunbi feels it looming over her head. (The disbandment, the goodbye.)

She puts on a bright smile in front of the cameras, but in private she stares at calendars counting down the day she’ll have to leave her newly found sisters.  It hurts, it sucks, it’s not fair.  However, in a way, they all signed up for this, and they’ll all have to deal with the consequences.

However it’s hard.  It’s hard when she looks into all of the girls faces and knows that she won’t see them every single day after the disbandment.  Well, she’ll have Chaewon, but Chaewon will be sad to see the rest of them go.  It’ll be hard.  She loves them all dearly.

Eunbi curls up on her bed, fiddling with her sheets a little, before hearing the ping of a new text come in.

Jiyeonnie 🌸💖🌸

it’s not over yet, so why are you upset?

you should enjoy each and every moment with them 💖

just like how i’ve been waiting for you to come back home

they’ll be looking forward to the day that you’ll all come back together again to enjoy the memories 💖

i wouldn’t exchange lovelyz for anything in the world, and i know you and the rest of iz*one wouldn’t exchange the memories you share for anything in the world

even if it does hurt

so smile 💖

i love you, and so do your girls 💖

Eunbi smiles.

It’ll hurt leaving them, but she thinks it’ll hurt more if she didn’t get the chance to be with them in the first place.

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“Oh yes!  Junho says hi, by the way.  He and the others will be watching today’s broadcast.” Yeonhee says to Hangyul and Dohyon, a cheerful smile on her face.

They’re currently making their rounds, greeting all the seniors backstage.  However, when they made it to H&D’s dressing room, Yeonhee had suddenly remembered that Junho had asked her to pass a message to the H&D’s members, which is fine because Junho’s really nice and he was probably pretty excited to pass on a silly message to them, even though she knows Junho can text them at any time. It’s fine because Dahyun’s definitely not nervous or shy being in the same room with Hangyul or Dohyon, especially Dohyon.  It’s not like he was her one pick, after all the Woollim boys, during Produce X 101.  Definitely not.

Anyways all of Drippin are really nice to her, probably because she’s younger than all of them and even though technically she’s their senior, they all feel an innate responsibility to make sure she’s happy.  Kinda like older brothers.  Which she’s thankful for, because they’re all really nice.

She’s rambling in her head and spacing out at this point.  Oh no, what was Yeonhee saying again?

“...Dahyun?”  Yeonhee’s voice snaps her out of it.  Immediately she bows her head, cheeks pinking.  How embarrassing.

“Sorry, what was that?”

Yeonhee just grins, “I was just saying that you’re around the same age as Dohyon.”

Dahyun smiles and bows towards him.  She has to literally look up to meet his eyes because of his height and that’s kinda cute?  Is it kinda weird that his height makes him more attractive to her?  Is that rude to shorter people?  To Hangyul?  Dahyun has no clue but it also makes her neck feel weird so maybe it’s not that cute.

“Ah, yes.  I’m a year younger.”

At the corner of her eye she can see Yunkyoung snickering to herself and Dahyun wants to smack herself in the head because now she accidentally let him know that she knows his birthday which is one more fact that she did not want the world to know.  Dahyun groans inwardly but tries to smile despite it, even though she knows her smile looks a little, correction, very stiff.

Hangyul has a smile on his face that probably means that he can tell what Dahyun’s inner turmoils are as well as her own members and it makes her want to bang her head against the wall.  Please, she already gets teased enough by her own members.

Dohyon on the other hand looks like he hasn’t realized Dahyun’s inner struggle and has a bright smile on his face.  He must be used to being the youngest because he looks proud and Dahyun’s treacherous heart is beating double time because wow that smile looks like it can power the whole of Seoul.

Honestly, she’s so caught up in his smile that she barely registers that Hangyul and Yeonhee have shooed the two of them out to hang out by the vending machines.  Unfortunately, Dahyun can’t escape using the excuse of needing to finish greeting groups with the rest of her members because H&D were the last ones they needed to greet.  So, she finds herself awkwardly leaning against the wall of an empty corridor with Dohyon, both of them holding a drink in one hand.  Dohyon had paid for her drink, despite her protests, and Dahyun eventually had to give in because she then realized she didn’t have her wallet with her so she let him buy it for her.

Her very treacherous heart did not skip a beat when their fingers brushed against each other when he handed the drink to her.

Her eyebrows are slightly furrowed together as she tries to think of something intelligent to say, and perhaps he’s struggling like her because his face is a little blank as he takes a drink from his bottle.

“Your skirt’s really cute.” Dohyon suddenly blurts out, and it takes her by surprise, eyes widening.  However, her cheeks immediately resume the blushing it was doing previously and Dahyun gulps as she mumbles out a ‘thank you.’

She knows that she needs to actually try harder so she follows up with a, “I like your outfit too, it was my favourite one from the MV.”  And then immediately decides that she should never try this again because now he knows that she’s watched the MV and paid close enough attention to recognize the outfit he was wearing was from the MV.  Was that creepy?  Dahyun did not want to come off as creepy.

It seems as though he’s happy that she’s recognized it, and he nods.  “Thanks!  This is actually my favourite outfit from the MV too.”

Dahyun nods, and searches her brain for something else intelligent to say before the moment leaves and she no longer has something cool in her mind.  

“Hey, do you think you’ve reached your dream yet?” Dohyon asks her.  Dahyun looks at him with wide eyes, not expecting such a sudden question.  His eyes seem very earnest, looking into hers.  She’s getting kinda red at this point but she needs to answer the question.  Her eyebrows furrow (again) as she thinks for a moment for a good answer.

“I’m still chasing my dream, but I can do it.” That is what she settles on.  The answer seems to satisfy Dohyon, as he bobs his head up and down, probably thinking about her answer.  Hopefully it wasn’t a super dumb answer or else he’ll never want to talk to her again and then she’ll have to spend the rest of her career avoiding him but, will that be possible when he’s so tall?

“Me too.  Let’s chase our dreams together.” Dohyon says, and holds out his fist for her.

Dahyun raises her own fist and bumps it against Dohyon’s own gently.  Simultaneously, huge smiles spread on their faces, and they both end up giggling out of embarrassment.

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“Cut!  Alright, everyone take ten, we’ll be running the next scene then.”  The director announces, and everyone sort of disperses to do their own thing for a little.

They’re in the same park, filming a few scenes, sitting next to each other on the same bench.  Jisoo’s hand is still in his despite the scene ending, and he hasn’t made a move to pull out of her hold.  He knows he should, but he can’t help but want to keep her close just for a little longer.  It seems like she feels the same way and it makes him smile to himself.

The staff approach them to fix their outfits and makeup, and reluctantly, Junseop lets go of Jisoo’s hand.  She pulls it back slowly, but she has the same stunning smile that made him go pink in the cheeks the first day they met.  Junseop thinks he might be blushing again just like that day.

The staff disperse again from them, apparently something happening with a cart in one of the tents, and Junseop and Jisoo are asked just to sit tight until filming starts again.   Jisoo looks at him with a raised eyebrow, and Junseop offers his hand to her again.

Their fingers interlock and Junseop’s heart feels like it’s going to jump out of his chest now.  There are a thousand words he could say, but perhaps the pinkness of his cheeks is all Jisoo needs to know to understand what is going on in his head.

He hopes she understands.  With the way she squeezes his hand, he thinks she does.

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Jaehwan 🍍

We broke up today

Yein 🍎

😲

I’m sorry to hear that

I know you liked her a lot

Jaehwan 🍍

It is what it is I guess,,,

Yein 🍎

Do you want to go get a drink?

Jaehwan 🍍

It’s late though, and I know you said you had something to do in the morning

Yein 🍎

Can’t let you be a mope by yourself though

The moon’s not even out today

She’s not gonna accompany you to drink

Jaehwan 🍍

Do you think that we’ll get back together?

Yein 🍎

I dunno, honestly

Jaehwan 🍍

You don’t think it’s a good idea, do you?

Yein 🍎

You just seemed to like her more than she likes you

That’s never a good sign

Plus, you two never seem to see eye to eye on things

Jaehwan 🍍

You’re right

I wish I found someone like you

Yein 🍎

I’m still here, you know. (unsent)