“Aw c’mon Sweetheart, don’t look at me like that…”
Goro practically purred to you as he stepped closer, his arms outstretched with want to gently pull you to him only to stop dead as you stepped further out of his reach. His eye going wide with surprise.
“No, just… Goro do you realize what could have happened? How–How things could have gone? You could have died?”
“Well, yeah,” he replied bluntly. “My instinct wins out all the time, there was nothin’ to worry about Darlin’.”
“Do NOT Darlin’ me..”
Goro drew his hands back a bit as if he’d been burned, and continued to stare at you only to feel his heart leap up into his throat when he noticed the tears in your eyes. Well shit, I really fucked this one up, didn’t I?
“Hey–”
“NO!” you snapped at him, your brows dipping into a glare as you lifted your hand to stop him from moving any closer. “Just–Just stay there for a moment, I’m not done.”
Goro blinked at you, still rather wide eyed before he let his hands fall to his sides. He gave you the slightest nod of his head, looked down to the floor before taking a deep breath, then lifted his eye to you. He knew that if he looked away from you now it would hurt you more than he’d already had.
And when he saw the tears run down your face, it felt as if he’d been shot all over again.
You frowned as you angrily wiped at your face. “Do us a favor, and I know it’s difficult for you, but next time, try not to do anything so stupid ever again. Because if you do, and I find out about it, so help me Goro, I will not be here when you get back.”
Goro knew that was no idle threat. What you said, and how you said it with your voice full of anger and fear caused him to frown. He’d never intended for you to find out what it was he was doing; but then again he should have known that Nishida would have been honest with you. Especially if you gave Nishida those puppy dog eyes of yours that worked on, well, pretty much everyone.
Yeah. I fucked up. I’d better start to make it right, or m’gonna lose her.
Slowly, he let himself sink down to his knees, his eyes never leaving yours. “I’m sorry,” he started then moved prostrate before you, pressing his forehead firmly against the floor. He was quiet for a moment, waiting to hear if you were going to move away before he pushed himself up on his hands. His eye lifted enough to look up at you. “I didn’t mean to scare ya, or worry ya, I honestly thought it would have been better if you didn’t know anything… but now that I think about it, that would have probably made it worse.”
“You’re damned right it would…” you sniffled a bit, and once more rubbed at your cheek.
“I’m sorry, Sweetheart. But, someone had to do it.”
“Why you?! And why–why on earth do you think that just by trusting your–your instincts will win every time?”
He had no answer for you really. He’d just always been lucky. Lucky with this whole situation. Lucky to have met you… though he was starting to think that for him to be lucky with something, the luck would have to be taken from somewhere else.
“Promise me… Goro,” your voice was soft as it cracked with your emotions. “Promise me… I don’t–I can’t lose you Goro.”
Finally he let himself look up to your eyes. He nodded before scrambling up off the floor to wrap his arms around you, and crush you against his chest. He hid his face against your neck, fisting the back of your shirt as if he was afraid you would pull away from him.
“I’m sorry, babygirl…” he spoke softly, wanting to kiss your skin but he was sure that his apology wouldn’t mean shit if he did. “I swear m’sorry. I won’t–I’ll be more careful from now on. Just… stay, please?”
Goro felt you whimper and he feared that you might actually push him away, only to sigh as your arms finally went around him and you started to cry. “Don’t do that… ever again.”
“I’m sorry for scarin’ ya. I swear I am.” his hand moved up from your shirt to the back of your head, letting his fingers thread into your hair so he could coax it gently down to his shoulder. He pressed his cheek against yours and let his eye close. “I’ll be more careful. I promise.”
“Please..” you whimpered.
“I promise, babygirl.” he reaffirmed turning his head to brush his lips against your ear. “I’ll be more careful. I’ll come home to ya, no matter what. And if I don’t, you’re the lucky one that gets to bring me back from the dead and kick my ass.”
He couldn’t stop the soft smile at your little laugh as he lifted his head further to kiss your temple. “Promise.”