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Namjoon
It wasn’t anyone’s fault. Really. I don’t know why Yoongi-hyung is beating himself up over this. He’s so hard on himself. I wish he’d stop. It’s all been going to shit.
I just want us all to be happy again.
Seokjin
A long time ago I told Namjoon I’d meet him at the gas station because that’s the only place we can see each other without getting into some sort of trouble. It’s a habit, I guess. Every time I set foot in that place, I feel like I’ve done it before. I even dream about it. Is that weird? Sometimes it’s just me and Namjoon; sometimes it’s all the guys. I’m not sure. It keeps happening. It’s been happening a lot lately.
The line between reality and not is starting to fade.
Yoongi
I told him to stay away. He never listened to me. He kept coming back like he had something to gain, and I kept telling him to stay away, because the more he was near me the worse he’d get. I was a ticking time bomb. I don’t trust Joon anymore. I think someone poisoned the kid. He wouldn’t let me help. I’m scared. And look what happened. They keep telling me it’s not my fault, but it is. I told him to stay away because if he came closer, he’d be unhappy, and he was.
Little shit.
Hoseok
Sometimes I look at him and I feel like he’s on a different plane of existence. He might as well be. He’s ethereal. But he doesn’t like himself. That makes me sad. I try to be happy for him. He says he’s just living a lie. He used to be so bright and bubbly, the life of the party. I don’t know what happened. Sometimes I look at him and he looks back at me but he doesn’t see me. It’s like he’s trying to find something that isn’t there. Something’s weighing on him. It makes me dizzy.
If he’s not careful, he’ll drown.
Taehyung
They used to say it as a joke. Something’s wrong with you. But it wasn’t really funny. I did something bad. Something happened to Jin-hyung. I think I might have done it. Namjoon-hyung and I used to get into shit all the time. We used to do it together. It was fun. I don’t know what I did to Jin-hyung. I wonder if that’s why I haven’t seen him around lately. But it was fun.
Too late to take back what I did.
Jimin
I used to be unhappy with myself. Times have changed. Now I’m just scared.
We fell apart a long time ago. Before that, we were just… okay. Not comfortable, not always happy, but we were okay. At our best: the brightest firecrackers. I guess it was only a matter of time until we fizzled out.
We used to be friends. Now, we’re just
dead?
I hope we are, because terrible things are happening.
Jungkook
I miss them. I miss living. I wish I could go back.