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It felt different
He was not used to this feeling in his chest when he sees another lad
But this felt different
He knew he said this a hundred times, but it felt different
Different because it was f o r e i g n
Different because it was u n f a m i l i a r
Different because He. Never. Felt. This. Before.
There are more than a billion people in the world, yet, he fell for him
Him, with the piercing green eyes that captivated his heart
Him, whose hair falls down his shoulders, an angel in disguise
Him, who made him realize the person that he was (and who he’ll always be, something to be proud of)
Him. Him. Him.
All he kept thinking about was him.
His mind was clouded with possibilities
(what ifs)
(what should be’s)
(what is)
He looked at his reflection, the man blinked back
* S p l a s h *
This will wake him up from his fantasies
But it was more like a baptism, a rebirth of some sort
This was him, the real him
(The boy with the green eyes made him realize that)
BUT
What were they?
They were two souls, brought together by circumstance
There were thousands of possibilities, yet here they are,
Fighting for freedom
(and their feelings for each other – because it’s complicated)
((the gods above said so))
BUT
Not a day goes by that he does not think about him
The way his eyes lit up when they first met
(when green met blue)
The way his laughter fills the depths of his soul
(because I love you)
The way he completes him
(always and forever, it will always be true)
HE completes HIM (and will always do)
(Always in my heart, @Harry_Styles. Yours sincerely, @Louis_Tomlinson)
That was when he realized
He was
Falling
Falling
Falling
Falling
Falling
D E E P L Y
inlovewithhim
hush, it was a secret
hush, you can’t tell anyone except the man in the mirror
hush, keep your heart steady
(but was he obvious?)
did they notice the sway on his hips when he walked?
did they notice the crimson on his cheeks when another lad talked to him?
did they notice the …
Did they notice? n o t i c e n o t i c e n o t i c e N O T I C E ! ! !
his reflection stared back at him, confused
for some reason, it felt wrong
W W
R R
O
N N
G G
W W
R R
O
N N
G G
W W
R R
O
N N
G G
Wrongfully wrong because of their piercing stares when they held hands
The nods of disapproval, the snickers, the snide remarks
Why can’t we just love each other?
LOVE IS LOVE
Love is love
love is love
Love will always be love
In all forms
In all shapes
In all sizes
L O V E I S L O V E
And he loved him, with a l l h i s h e a r t
a l l h i s b e i n g
(everything)
STOP! (the gods above told them)
This is what you’re going to do!
CONTRACT, BEARDS, AND LIES!
(an endless cycle)
Suddenly they ?loathed¿ each other.
Now, he’s with her || and he’s with her (and a baby)
(the cycle repeats itself
it keeps repeating itself
it always does)
that’s the price of freedom - unfortunately
At this point, his soul was weary
(and so was his)
They were tired, tired, TIRED!
Tired of everything, tired of nothing
He lit his first cigarette, let it burn inside his lungs to fill the emptiness inside
He wiped his tears away, plastered on a smile
Rumors – speculation – date – breakup – image – freedo-(NO!) – damage control – ru-
(I can’t do this anymore!
Do you think it’s easy for me?)
That made him think, as he lit his hundredth cigarette, let it diffuse in a cloud above him
What was he supposed to do with these feelings?
Was he supposed to ignore them, act as if his mind was not conflicted with all these questions?
Should he run away, pretend like nothing happened?
Or should he just give up?
(give up)
(give up)
* * * * * * * * * * * *
Time to l e t g o
(Goodbye curly)
Maybe it’s time for us to---
But green eyes held his hand, held him tight
(told him everything was gonna be alright)
We’ve come so far
We have these scars (even though they can’t always be seen)
I don’t know what I’d do if we’d fell apart
He took a breath, took it all in
Who would’ve thought that loving was a sin?
So he held him tight, they’ll never let go
He was the anchor to his rope
They’ll keep fighting, they won’t lose hope
(No matter how long it takes)
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In that moment, they managed to escape
The glass closet where they were encaged
Always and forever, he’ll be in his heart
Nothing could ever break them apart
(Nobody can drag them down, they were fireproof!)
Now, the battle’s over
Finally, there’s
f r e e d o m
h a p p i n e s s
and most importantly,
l o v e x x x
(They loved each other and that was enough for now)