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A step towards the edge of the building top, I will die. I will be free from all the responsibilities I have ever taken. No one will mourn my death as they have towards sherlock. It will be a peaceful death.
Sherlock will probably be happy, that I left him alone. Not troubling him anymore. Not coming to his flat and giving him cases that I thought would satisfy him. He has his Dr. Watson, which I really don't think is good for him. Dr. Watson will lash out and quickly.
I know this. I am sure of it.
I must warn Anthea about that and make her my successor. She will be better than me. She can understand the body and the heart. I hope she still helps Sherlock. I know Thea, but the chances of her helping sherlock are fairly less probably because of how Sherlock is or how because of him I gave Thea a hard time. I don't know if she will mourn my death or will be happy that I died and she could take my spot. I think its the first one. She is one of the best PA I have got, I will somehow pay her.
I don't really have anyone to love but a crush that has been from the start. The first time I saw. Gregory Lestrade. He was married at that time, even if I wanted I couldn't have done anything. He is loyal and brave and so handsome.
He helped Sherlock and now Sherlock do have him. If I am not there Gregory would surely help Sherlock. I am circling into my thoughts again and again. I don't want to leave but I can't stay. If I stay any longer I don't know what I will do.