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Subject: Letter #1
Hey,
I heard from Seokmin that your sister finally got married. I remember how she used to ask me if I could introduce her to at least one of my cousins. I'm glad she finally found someone, and that she's happy.
Were you able to find happiness too?
I'm not sure if I'm allowed to ask that. Or if I have any right to know anything more about you — not after everything that happened. I still talk to our old friends, but I think I tried too hard to steer all conversations away from you, from us; that they don't mention you anymore. Seokmin only let it slip because we were squabbling about who's the most lightweight. (Soonyoung kept saying it's Seokmin, and he countered that Soonyoung was the first one to get plastered during the wedding's reception.)
Anyway, I hope you're happy.
I never said it, but I've always been happy with you. I wish I was more honest. If I was, I wouldn't be writing this letter, no? I would be saying these words to you.
I'm sorry I've been a coward. I can't even write your name because it hurts too much.
