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His eyes met mine from across the darkness which covered the stage, the few lights flashing around as the sounds of my guitar and the other aswell as the drums rang through the sounds of the crowd screaming and cheering out loud.
He winked at me softly and they must of saw as a sudden rush of screams and shouts filled the air again as I smiled and looked away again, a pain stabbing at my heart slightly as I let my smile slowly fade as I turned away from him and carried on playing, his voice once again loud as he started to sing.
The lights went up fall and for a moment or two I was blinded by the brightness, but it all soon became clear again as I felt movement from behind me and I turned my head slightly to see him stood there singing and looking at me, he moved and stepped in front before leaning back a little, my guitar being pressed against me as I played and he lent, the way my heart sped up against my chest was scary, it always did the same thing whenever he was close to me.
His eyes met mine again as he moved his hand up and grabbed my neck before pushing himself away, I turned and went to walk when I felt his fingers in my hair, grabbing it slightly, pulling me back to him, of course it was all for show and it did hurt a little but I would do anything for him as he moved closer again, our eyes met as he moved the microphone away from his moving lips and brought them near mine, his tongue licking over my lower lip and in to my mouth slightly before flicking against my top lip, a small smirk on both of our lips as he moved away I knew that he would be back again for another kiss within this song and I would be waiting for it...I was always waiting for it.
He came close to me again, the smell of sweat and glitter and makeup strong from the both of us and the crowds, his finger tips touched my skin just under my chin and lifted my jaw up slightly, my eyes still downwards before I looked up at him, a soft smile appearing against the corners of his lips so I could only see, what was this? I had never seen that smile before on stage between us,
But I was lost in my thoughts again as he lent forward and his lips crashed against mine, moving tendly against each others in a quick embrace before they left again and I turned away with a small smirk as I carried on playing, not looking back at him as he went on to sing the rest of his song. I loved him, truly loved him. More then he knew I did.
By the time the song was over and the crowd was cheering for another song, we all new that time had come to an end and that the gig was over. Walking towards the side of the stage I pulled my guitar off and let it fall to the ground as I walked off the side and in to the back stage where I grabbed a jacket which seemed to be his, grabbing my cigarettes, I carried on walking and took no notice of anyone else as I found my way outside and started to walk a little more again, I needed to clear my head from everything, to get away from him... He was dangours for me and I swear he knew it, well maybe not as much, but he knew it affected me slightly but just not the whole truth.
The way I left, I knew I would’ve caused some sort of rumor to start or just a lot of confusion with people and with him but I was upset, I was upset that I wanted him when he didn’t want me, all he wanted was a stage romance. I knew that I was being stupid and foolish and letting my heart lead my mind but he was perfection, my perfection. I breathed out deeply as I came to sit on the railings over looking the river, the darkness around me making a soft shiver run over my body as it past and I placed a cigarette between my lips and lit up. I could still taste him on my lips mixing with the taste of the smoke, a deadly combination to live by.
My eyes closed and I lowered my head slightly before reaching up and turned his jacket collar up against my neck to try and protect it from the wind but I knew it was no use. Just sitting there in silence felt perfect not as perfect as when he kissed me on stage tonight, I sighed deeply and took another drag before flicking the butt in to the dark water below me, my hands finding themselves holding on to the cold surface of the bar I was sat on.
I watched as he turned away and pulled his guitar off his shoulders and let it fall to the stage floor before just leaving, my eyes following his exit before I turned to look at the other band members who had also seen him leave. I wanted to chase after him but I knew that it would be best to just let him be on his own for now, he had been acting strange the past few days and he wouldn’t tell me why. By the time the crowd had calmed down again and the rest of the band left the stage with me, I went looking around the building for him to find that no one had seen him. I let a sigh out knowing that he had gone out to smoke, I hated seeing him smoking and I tried my best to get him to quit but it wasn’t working all that good, I mean he had cut down more but he was still smoking. Finding his jacket and mine gone I smiled softly before picking it up anyway and pulled it on as I headed out the back door and started to walk through the alley way until I came across the main street, a few fans shrieked at me and asked for photos, I done a few before telling them I had to do something as I glanced up and noticed a figure sat on some railings near the river. I knew it was him and that he had something on his mind, escaping the fans I walked towards him a few of the girls followed behind me at a distance as I got closer to him.
He hadn’t notice my arrival as I stood next to him and lent against the railings his breath showing in the coldness as he breathed out and let the cigarette butt drop down in to the water, ‘’What happened back there?’’ I asked him softly, his eyes widened a little as he turned to see me stood there before a look appeared on his face which I knew all to well, the look of not wanting to talk about it. I sighed and watched him climb back off and started to walk away from me again and I walked closer to him, grabbing his arm and pulled him back to me. ‘’Tommy I know there is something wrong with you, so don’t go walking away from me god damn it’’ I told him, his eyes meeting mine before looking behind me as he shrugged my hold off him, I turned to follow his glaze to see some of the crowd from the gig stood there watching us.