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i once had a lover.
he was charismatic, charming, and beyond confident.
he was beautiful in every aspect, inside and out.
i loved him with each passing second.
but it seemed like it was only, i, who thought that way.
golden eyes that used to look deep within me, now gaze at someone else.
hands that used to cling to my waist, now intertwine with the hands of another.
lips that used to leave marks on my neck, now leave soft kisses on somebody else's.
that childhood friend of his who couldn't stop apologizing to save his life.
someone that wasn't me.
was i hurt?
i suppose i was.
what did i expect though?
a true relationship?
what a faraway dream.
i hoped to be by his side, nothing more.
well, that was a lie, of course.
i wanted to be loved by him.
i wanted to be his.
but that was selfish of me.
he has kannonzaka-san.
he has his lover.
even through all of my useless tears and sobs.
that will never change.
it's a constant thorn in my side.
knowing that he'll never be mine.
we were nothing more than a fling after all.
but my heart won't stop yearning for him.
it stings and it burns.
this feeling in my chest.
irreversible and everlasting.
the string tied between the two of us has been cut and i'm the one left hurting.
i'm the one left with lingering feelings.
why?
i got too attached.
too attached to an old memory.
the memory of us.
i was completely smitten by him.
enamored of him, so to speak.
words of love that he would whisper in my ear.
tight embraces that he would comfort me with.
he was annoying.
he was ignorant with his speech.
he was a playboy.
but he was so cheerful.
so empathetic.
so caring.
he cared about me.
the blinding sun that he was, shone upon the dark shadows of myself.
i was saved.
how i wish i could be saved by him once more.
my dear hifumi.
to the lover i once called mine, i wish you well.
for you will never again, look back on this tragic ending of the tale that you know as yumeno gentaro.