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I had that dream again.
That...dream that always wrenches my heart, makes my stomach turn.
That dream where you find me on the street, crying in the rain. You put your coat over me, it’s so cliche…
You take me back to your house, I change into a pair of your clothes… They’re oversized, but comfortable.
You take me to your room… We both lay in your bed. My heart hurts looking at you next to me, trying to fall asleep to the sound of silence.
I catch myself staring… Everytime, I… I find myself staring. Your hair sits perfectly on your face, your eyes are closed… You look so peaceful. You look content.
You slowly open your eyes and my face goes red… You just smile at me.
My heart hurts...God…
The way you smile so softly at me… The way your eyes lighten up when you smile…
I wish I could see that outside of the dream. Maybe that’s why it hurts so much.
You stir, I realize you are closer than you were… No matter how many times I see it happen, it kills me. I can’t help but move closer to you as well…
Our bodies touch, and you put your lips on mine.
I wake up.
...I never get the chance to kiss back.
That dream… It reoccurs, it’s been occurring since I met you, and I don’t know how to make it stop. It’s too much to bear.
No one knows about it, either. I guess that’s why I’m writing this down.
I feel stupid.
Turning off his phone, the boy slaps his phone onto his face… “No, No no no this shouldn’t be documented, God what if someone finds that…” He mumbles, fumbling with his phone. He gets it turned on, and he stares at the vent he wrote… That is, until he heard a voice behind him.
“Ah, Inochi!” A familiar voice calls out to Inochi, who nearly jumps out of his skin and turns his phone off again, quickly looking over to where the voice came from…
“Hm, what are you doing here?” Inochi asks with a calm voice… He’s trying hard to keep calm and not die from embarrassment.
“I could ask you the same, you are in the middle of the street… WHILE It’s raining… jeez, you don’t even have an umbrella…” Inochi had barely noticed that it was raining, and the other boy basically scolded him, he runs his hand through his spiky blond, near silver hair, letting out a sigh.
“I don’t have an umbrella, besides there’s a bit of covering here… Stop worrying so much, Rei.” Inochi let’s out a sigh… Part of him is happy that he is worrying about him, though, no matter how much he wants to deny it… He’s happy that he cares.
“Ahh…” Rei thinks for a moment before his eyes light up. “I don’t have an extra umbrella, but this should work-“ Rei then takes his school jacket off, handing it to Inochi…
Inochi hesitates, his eyes wide… it’s just like that dream...Nono, that’s… that not. No.
Inochi takes his jacket nonetheless and covers himself with it. “Thanks, but i’m not going to just steal your jacket from you.” Inochi states, pausing for a moment before adding on, “Besides, isn’t this your school uniform? You shouldn’t let it get ruined like this.” Rei shakes his head.
“True… I can wash it, though…” Rei pauses, thinking, “Why are you out here anyway? Shouldn’t you be at, like… Your place?”
Inochi has to relax himself. He simply shrugs in response, while mumbling the truth, “I don’t have any place to go back to.”
“I… see…” Rei breathes out… There is an obvious hint of worry in his voice… It makes Inochi’s heart hurt. “Well, you can always come back with me...I mean, just to stay for the night, if that’s okay with you!” Rei was clearly worried about Inochi having a pissy reaction to that, but instead it was met with surprise.
“...Really?” The smaller boy looks at him. Another thought about the dream surfaces before he quickly suppresses it. Rei nods, giving Inochi a small, but soft smile.
Inochi feels he has no choice, and so he agrees. Inochi walks home with Rei, the two sharing an umbrella while walking.
When they arrive at Rei’s place, Rei gets Inochi a change of clothes… Rei had picked out a hoodie he had, but rarely wore. He gives a quick apology about the size of it as well, though Inochi dismisses it, saying he usually wears oversized clothes anyway.
Inochi navigates to the restroom so he can change into the dry, warm clothes. After changing, he looks into the mirror…
Again… This has to be a coincidence… There’s absolutely no way that the rest of that dream will happen…
Inochi splashes cold water onto his face, clearing his mind, before leaving the restroom.
The rest of the evening goes normal, the two hang out, talking about Zingai and how Rei has been doing with Q-Ta. The conversation never stays on Inochi for more than a few words, however…
Rei offers him food, however Inochi denies, saying he had already ate before Rei found him. It was a lie, but Inochi couldn’t bring himself to tell the truth about himself to Rei.
They spend so much time talking that they don’t realize how late it got… Inochi’s heart skips a beat when Rei mentions that he could sleep in his room with him…
This...is exactly like the dream… I mean, the last thing in the dream won’t happen...will it???
Inochi doesn’t complain, however, and the two go to his room, Rei laying down first and Inochi laying next to him, though having distance between the two…
Inochi closes his eyes, trying to fight the thoughts of the dream… T his day has just gone… exactly like that dream… how am I supposed to feel about this? Am I supposed to just wait and see what happens?! Ugh… I really am being dumb, there’s no way that stupid ass dream will come true...even if I want it to… I hate it here.
Inochi rolls onto his side, opening his eyes… He’s met with Rei’s face…
It’s just like the dream, Rei’s eyes are closed, he looks so peaceful. It’s clear he’s still awake, but even so, Inochi can’t take his eyes off of him…
Sure, he always saw this scene in his dreams… But now he’s seeing it in real life… Rei’s hair framing his face in a way that it didn’t in the dream, it’s more messy and it makes Inochi love it even more.
Inochi’s face slowly heats up as he continues to admire Rei… That is, until Rei’s eyes open…
He looks more tired than he did in the dream, maybe he’s half asleep, but that doesn’t matter to Inochi at the moment… Inochi opens his mouth to mutter an apology, or just something to fill the dead silence in the room, but he finds himself unable to speak. He closes his mouth, giving up on making his vocal chords cooperate.
Rei moves his hand up to rest on Inochi’s head, slightly running his fingers through Inochi’s blonde hair. Inochi’s face heats up more and his heart starts beating faster…
Rei’s definitely not in the right state of mind...or… am I dreaming again?! Is this just a curse???
Inochi’s thoughts soon get interrupted by the sound of the sheets rustling. Rei had moved closer to him, too close… Inochi stiffens up, and time stops…
He’s dreamed about this moment for so long… Ever since he met Rei, ever since he started falling for him, ever since the first time they had properly hung out… Inochi never thought he’d be this close to Rei. He isn’t * used to it.* He isn’t used to any type of physical affection, except for some hugs that Noppo gives him… but this? This is different.
But...before Inochi knows it, Rei’s lips are pressed against his, and Inochi’s eyes go wide…
It’s clear Rei is half asleep, there is barely any force in the kiss, and Rei’s face seems tired, but Inochi still can’t believe what he is feeling at this moment…
Rei pulls away from the kiss soon, nearly immediately falling asleep afterwards…
Inochi just lays there, eye’s wide, not even being able to begin to comprehend what just happened.
… I still didn’t get the chance to kiss back