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The buzzing sound of the hotel air con cut the pregnant silence between Hyungwon and Changkyun, it reminded them that time didn’t just- stop moving.
How long does it take for your life to a jump down a completely different path? Swerve off of the road and absolutely obliterate anything in its way? 5 seconds.
That’s how long their lips stayed pressed together- anxious, hurried, desperate.
The concert went great just a couple hours earlier, no one had any accidental nip slips or technical issues and the fans seemed extraordinarily hyped about everything they performed.
Hyungwon wasn’t sure what made the night so, different from the others. Maybe it was the sleep deprivation? concert adrenalin? or maybe the stars were aligned just so to cause everything to crash back down to reality.
It started out innocent, really. Hyungwon’s feelings for his fellow group member. Everyone dotes on the cute maknae right? At some point it just went from doting on him to more of a... I’m doing this because I really really like you kind of thing.
Luckily, Hyungwon has gotten quite good at keeping his feelings in check and stuffing everything down hidden underneath layers of his cold persona. The only one who might have a little teeny tiny inkling is Minhyuk; damn him for knowing Hyungwon for so long and seeing straight through his exterior. He even tried to breach the topic a couple of times but of course Hyungwon feigned innocence getting away with playing dumb by giving Minhyuk skinship as a distraction.
So how the hell did he end up here? Lips pressed against Changkyun’s and the impending panic attack looming over his mind?
They got roomed together for the couple of nights they’d be in this hotel and it would’ve been fine. It really- truly would’ve been fine, but of course Hyungwon had to walk in on the maknae freshly showered dawned in a big t-shirt, damp air dried hair, and his cute ass face curled up in bed scrolling through his phone. His resolve crumbled just a bit.
“Hyung- come look at this funny video it’s like- these swans and they run and attack people walking around. It’s funny I swear.” Despite being exhausted, wanting nothing more than to climb into his respective bed and become dead to the world the taller succumbs to the hopeful eyes and squeezes in next to Changkyun in bed.
Falling down rabbit holes on YouTube is a dangerous thing- before you know it you’ve been watching swan videos for 45 minutes and you almost forget you’re shoulder to shoulder with your crush- sorta love of your life- thing.
Hyungwon finds himself focusing more on the loud cackle of the maknae and the way he throws his head back showing off his pretty teeth while he laughs. The previously mentioned maknae notices the staring.
“What is it do I have something on my face? Do you think I LOOK like a swan? Oh my god you think I look like a BIRD hyung how could you think-“
Before he gave himself any time to back out the older swoops forward to connect their lips and subsequently cuts the maknae off.
The little “hmmpf!” of surprise that slips out from behind the youngers now- occupied lips only spurs him on more to go further, harder, reach for more and take more. He licks into the youngers mouth tasting the minty toothpaste he must’ve just used and he groans deeply pouring all of his long nights thinking of him right back to the source. He was losing his mind drowning in him but all good things come to end and after those lovely amazing heart stopping five seconds Hyungwon realizes the gravity of what he just did.
A million thoughts run through his mind, all not very good and right as he’s about to jump out of the bed, run down the hall, to jump into the hotel pool to hopefully end his suffering, Changkyun grabs him, forcefully pulls him forward and crushes his mouth against the olders.
“You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for you to do that, hyung hyung hyung” like a mantra in the short sips of air between crushing kisses.
Gripping his dark shaggy locks holding onto the older for dear life as if letting go would ruin whatever this- thing was.
The moment Hyungwon realizes that his feelings- those horrible anxiety inducing feelings he tried to sleep away after drinking failed to show results, those feelings like an itch that would never ever go away were- reciprocated. He pulled away holding the youngers face tightly within his grasp searching his eyes for any insincerity or humor if this was all one big fat joke on him. All he found was.. love. Warmth and slight hesitation wrapped up in golden honey all for him and only him. The one thing he’s always wanted, was his.