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- Summer
My first summer with you was filled with laughter, joy, and admiration.
I still remember your pale skin basking in the harsh sun rays.
You were complaining about getting sunburnt while continuing to drag me out to the gentle sea anyways.
It was just the two of us splashing each other with water while our laughter scales the empty beach.
A bit later you handed me a shell and called it the treasure of the seas.
To me it was just a simple white shell, it reminded me of your hair though.
But you went on and told me that anything can be important or of great value if you have a strong enough connection with it.
What a weird way of saying that you wanted to keep the shell as memory from our trip here.
Whatever, I still kept the shell.
That summer, I got to know more about you.
I found out how cool you were.
Your great ideals and aspirations.
But most of all.
I found myself looking up to you that summer.
I thought you were a good guy who protects the weak and defeats the evil.
You were truly an inspiration to me.
The more time I spent with you, I felt myself changing.
I began picking up hobbies and interests that benefited me.
I started doing greater goods that helps me and the people around me.
No matter the reason, you taught me it was the right thing to do.
You were such an incredible person.
As summer came to an end, I thought that I wanted to follow you until death do us apart.
- Autumn
Everything that bloomed in Spring and Summer was falling down right in front of my face.
Like leaves on a calm Autumn morning.
You were standing there with your back towards me.
You were giving me the cold shoulder.
Where did your smile go?
The one that I loved, the one that I cherished?
Did it also fall, along with the other things I loved about you?
The leaves were falling.
I tried to stop it.
But no matter how much glue or threads I use,
The powerful wind still came by and swept it all up.
I sprinted to chase it down.
And it led me back to the seas.
Splish splash in the water.
My feet couldn’t cut through the water that easily.
And yet I still march forward, slowly, but I was getting closer.
Why were you bringing me so far away from shore anyways?
Suddenly the leaves fell.
I jumped for it.
I swear my fingertips had grazed it just a tiny bit.
Oh no.
The water decided to return me back to shore.
Tumbling and crashing down.
I was drowning in the sea of memories.
I waved my hand in the water out of desperation and fear.
Hoping for someone to rescue me.
Amidst it all, I cried out one last time.
Help me. I’ve lost myself.
- Winter
No one told me that winter would be this cold without you.
The first winter I spent with you was warm.
This one wasn’t.
It was cold, bitter, and harsh.
I keep on seeing couples sharing hot cocoa together.
They were also merrily playing in the snow.
And they were kissing under the mistletoe.
If only you were here to hold me in your arms.
If only you were here to warm my hands for me.
If only you were here to share the familiar warmth that I loved so much with me.
It would make me feel so much better.
I really wish you were here with me.
Winter had really reminded me of how much I’ve missed you.
- Spring
This spring, I spent it with my family.
I loved my family.
They’re very important to me.
But my heart still can’t help but to wander back to you.
And just like every spring, I watch the flower buds bloom into bold and beautiful blooms.
Some of them reminded me of you.
Strong, bold, fierce and courageous.
I wanted to pick them up and make a bouquet just for you.
But something inside me stopped me from doing so.
Perhaps it was something along the line of hesitation and angst.
I couldn’t really tell.
The streets were filled with festivity.
And once again I see couples spending time together.
I hope that can be us one day.
Once all of the misunderstanding and bad blood between us goes away.
It’s kind of funny.
How can I still love you even after all we’ve been through?
Hell, I still kept that shell you gave me from that beach.
I must be insane.
But the thing is.
It’s you who I fell in love with.
Maybe because its specifically you that made me like this.
Unwilling to give up.
I wouldn't mind if it’s another cycle of season that I’ll have to go through before I can see you again.
I wouldn't mind if it’s two cycle of seasons that I’ll have to experience before we can clear up everything between us.
I wouldn't care if it takes a lifetime for you to fall in love with me again.
I really won't care as long as I can still have you by my side.
Through Spring.
Through Summer.
Through Autumn.
Through Winter.
And until death do us apart.
I’m sorry about my selfish desires.
But I just can’t bring myself to forget about you.
Your figure.
Your interests.
Your personality.
Your face.
Your name.
And most importantly,
Your heart.
I still loved you so much.