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I got my driver’s license last week
Just like we always talked about
‘Cause you were so excited for me
To finally drive up to your house
“Ricky!! Stop it”. The two were up in Nini’s room, while Nini was trying to get some last-minute studying done for her permit test the following week.
Ricky was distracting her by tickling her to no end, as he wanted her to take a break. “Okay, okay fine, we can watch a movie”. Ricky smiled and then brought her into a tight embrace. “You’re going to ace the test Neens, and then you can pick me up for once”.
But today I drove through the suburbs
Crying ’cause you weren’t around
Nini wasn’t sure what time it was. All she knew was that it was dark and she was sad. She only wanted the comfort of one person, so she drove around his neighbourhood. As the tears kept falling and her heart continued to break.
And you’re probably with that blonde girl
Who always made me doubt
She’s so much older than me
She’s everything I’m insecure about
Ricky started hanging around with another girl. As Nini watched from afar, she couldn’t help the comparisons that followed. This girl’s hair was as beautiful as honey, she had bigger hips, a bigger butt, and even bigger boobs. There was no competition.
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
‘Cause how could I ever love someone else?
Nini couldn’t stand to see the picture the two of them together any longer, so she sprinted to her car. She made it just in time before the tears came. She looked at her puffy and red eyes in the mirror and wondered what Ricky ever saw in her.
And I know we weren’t perfect but I’ve never felt this way for no one
And I just can’t imagine how you could be so okay now that I’m gone
Ricky was Nini’s first and only love. This was hard enough, without having to see Ricky look perfectly fine with his new girl. She just wished she was more important to him. She wished she was as important to him, as he was to her.
Guess you didn’t mean what you wrote in that song about me
“How am I supposed to think about anything else? How am I to go on keeping this to myself? I am done pretending I want anyone else Anyone else” Ricky sang these words to Nini with so much love, any onlooker could tell how in love they were. Ricky just finished putting his guitar down before Nini launched herself at him, and started peppering his face with kisses.
When Nini thinks of this memory now, all she feels is foolish.
‘Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
Another late night. Another drive to the suburbs. The stars are out tonight, so Nini makes a wish for something better before returning home.
And all my friends are tired Of hearing how much I miss you,
but I kinda feel sorry for them
‘Cause they’ll never know you the way that I do, yeah
“Neens this has gone on for too long. You need to eat, sleep, or at the very least, function like a normal human being”. Kourtney has been with her through all the stages of grief, but she just didn’t get it.
“How will I ever get over him? I can’t even look at him without busting into tears, I feel like I’m dying”. “I’m with you Nini, always and forever. Bro’s before hoes and all that”, Kourney said as she stroked her hair back.
Red lights, stop signs
Stolen kisses whenever the car was stopped as Ricky stroked the back of Nini’s hand with his thumb, conjoined on the console. She remembers how alive she felt.
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Ricky ran up to Nini’s house to show her his brand new white car that his dad bought him after he got his driver’s license. She remembers how in awe she felt.
Can’t drive past the places we used to go to
Nini has to take a different route home, because she can’t bear the added pain of taking the route Ricky always took to drive her home. She remembers how happy she felt.
Cause I still fuckin’ love you, babe
Simple as that. Nini still loves Ricky, and he doesn’t deserve it. And fuck, does it ever hurt. She remembers how loved she felt.
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic, we’re laughing
Their combined hands swinging in between them as they eat their ice cream on a summer night. Both of them laughing so loud, everyone around them would smile and say “ah, kids these days”. She remembers how alive she felt.
Over all the noise
God I’m so blue, know we’re through
But I still fuckin’ love you, babe
But none of these memories matter anymore, it’s over.
Yeah, you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
She remembers how strong she felt. How strong she is.