Work Text:
July 30th 7:35am ET/6:35am CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
GOOD MORNING MY LOVE!!!!!!!!
IT’S MOVING DAY!
Jaehyun:
Such enthusiasm for so early in the morning.
What are you doing awake?
Johnny:
How can I not be? You’re awake.
Jaehyun:
Thank you. Make me coffee.
Johnny:
I’m brewing a second cup for you right now.
Oh how I wish I could be there.
Jaehyun:
Me too baby.
Johnny:
This really sucks 😕
Jaehyun:
Don’t sad face me.
Johnny:
😃
Jaehyun:
That’s a bit much…
Johnny:
There’s no other appropriate emoji.
😕
Jaehyun:
I miss you too…
Johnny:
🍆
Wait. Found another appropriate one.
Jaehyun:
Down boy.
I’m barely awake.
Johnny:
How can you get coffee when I’m not there to get it for you!
I’m going to use DoorDash.
Jaehyun:
Johnny, don’t. It’ll just add to the chaos.
Johnny
What’s going on? When are they getting there?
Jaehyun
Everyone said 8 but we’ll see. I have the UHaul outside. Jungwoo and Mark are already loading up some stuff.
Johnny
Tell everybody I said they’d BETTER be there on time 👿
Jaehyun
You’re not as intimidating when you’re not in person.
Johnny
I should be there in person.
Jaehyun
You have a job.
Johnny
I’ll take the day off.
Jaehyun
In your first week?
Johnny
I’ll call out dead. I can be reincarnated tomorrow.
Jaehyun
Okay Johnny
Johnny
I hate that I’m missing this.
Jaehyun
You did a lot, baby.
Johnny
Oh I know. I’ll yell at everyone in the group chat!
Good idea.
Jaehyun
I did not say that.
Johnny
Thanks babe. No one will be late!
🐻
July 30th 7:41am ET/6:41am CT
DEATH CABIN SURVIVORS GROUP CHAT
Johnny/Jaehyun/Jungwoo/Mark/Taeyong/Doyoung/Yuta
Johnny
RISE AND SHINE!!!!!!
Everybody better be awake!
And on their way to Jaehyun’s place.
Jungwoo
I’m already here.
Mark
Me too
Johnny
Jungwoo you don’t count you live there.
Jungwoo
Mark where are you?
Mark
The bathroom
Jungwoo
Without me?
Mark
It’s taking a while I’m shy at your place.
Johnny
Can you guys take this conversation OFFLINE???
Jungwoo
What does that mean?
Doyoung
we’re on our way. we’re driving.
taeyong is driving.
he says hi johnny
Johnny
HI!
Yuta
I’ll be there.
This is a favor you know.
Johnny
It’s not a favor for my boyfriend, it’s required
Yuta
Says the person who isn’t here.
Johnny
Don’t rub it in.
Yuta
Isn’t it time for you to push some paper?
Johnny
Not without knowing you all are moving Jaehyun in!
Yuta
We got this chill!
Jaehyun
Take your time…
Yuta is right, you’re doing us a favor.
Johnny
You need to do most of the stuff before the heat sets in! You already should have gotten started.
Jaehyun
I can handle it.
Johnny
If Jaehyun gets heatstroke, I’m coming down there and BEATING ALL OF YOUR ASSES!
Yuta
Calm down, isn’t it six am there?
I was kidding. Doing something for Jaehyun is never a favor.
He’s our brother, we got his back.
Jaehyun
thank you
Taeyong
Just pulled up out front.
Hi Johnny! You didn’t text me back last night.
Johnny
Sorry I totally crashed.
Working is hard.
you’ll find out soon
Yuta
Fooled you. I’m in the car too.
Jungwoo is wearing the shortest shorts I’ve ever seen on a man
Jungwoo
It’s hot!
Do you like them?
Jaehyun
Please don’t answer that
Doyoung
ok phones down if we’re going to help Jaehyun move
Jaehyun
thank you
Johnny
I want a full report every half hour!
Yuta
Johnny go to work!
🐻
July 30th 1:02pm ET/12:02pm CT
Johnny/Taeyong
Johnny
Goodnight. Sorry late response
So how’s everything going?
Taeyong
Hey!
Yeah, real late with that.
We’re almost done! Jaehyun’s new place isn’t bad.
What did he say?
Johnny
He said he’s putting stuff away in the kitchen.
You know Jaehyun he’s real diplomatic.
He wouldn’t say anything if something went wrong.
Did you guys break the TV?
Taeyong
No it actually went really well!
Doyoung told us exactly how to pack the uhaul
We didn’t know if we were going to fit everything in but we did
Johnny
Thank you guys
I’m so grateful.
Really.
Taeyong
We know. But don’t worry about Jaehyun. He’s alright
Johnny
I don’t know.
I worry a lot.
I regret taking this stupid job.
I miss him so much.
Taeyong
You’ll see him on weekends.
We’ll be there for him.
I know you’d do the same for me.
Johnny
Is Doyoung moving to Chicago?
Taeyong
I’d never let him.
Johnny
😩
Ouch!
Taeyong
Haha
Sorry
I just can’t stand to be away from him for very long.
I’ve been thinking about something.
It’s a little bit crazy…
Johnny
Tell me.
Taeyong
It’s almost our second year anniversary.
We’ve talked about it.
We both graduated and we’re both good to stay here.
I’m looking into it
I want to marry him Johnny.
Johnny
Wow
That’s amazing!
That’s really good. You’re going to ask him?
Taeyong
I’m thinking about it…
Johnny
I think it’s incredible.
Isn’t it the best thing to be in love?
Taeyong
It really is Johnny.
Johnny
You know what’s the worst thing?
Lunch breaks. Mine is over. I gotta go!
🐻
July 30th 9:14pm ET/8:14pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
I’m home!
Jaehyun
Good. How was happy hour?
Johnny
It felt like more work.
But there’s one guy who’s kind of cool
Can you talk?
Jaehyun
I’m watching a movie with Jungwoo.
He’s in a weird mood.
Johnny
What happened?
Jaehyun
I don’t know. Too much moving? Mark left. I think they got in a fight.
Johnny
That sucks
It’s moving. It’s stressful.
After the movie?
Jaehyun
Yeah
Wait, will you be asleep?
Johnny
I’ll stay up for you.
Jaehyun
You gotta be ready for work.
Johnny
It’s Friday tomorrow. I’m sure it’s like really casual.
Jaehyun
I’m sure it’s not.
Johnny
I want you to tell me everything else about the move.
Jaehyun
There’s not much more to say.
Everyone was great.
The stuff is all here.
Thank you for helping me arrange everything, baby.
We’re okay.
Tonight we’ll see if the neighbors are loud.
Johnny
Babe, we camped out at that apartment building for three different nights. I think it’ll be quiet.
Johnny
I’ll talk to you all night so I know.
Jaehyun
Not all night. You have work.
Johnny
We’ll see what happens.
Tell Jungwoo I hope he feels better.
Call me when the movie is over.
Jaehyun
I will. You go relax.
Johnny
It’s so fucking weird to live by myself.
So quiet.
Jaehyun
That’s why we picked out those speakers.
Johnny
Yeah, I’ll crank them up.
But I’m waiting to hear your voice.
Don’t forget!
Jaehyun
I’ll never forget you
I love you.
Johnny
I love you, too.
🐻
July 31st 7:45pm ET/6:45pm CT
Johnny/Jungwoo
Jungwoo
Hey
What are you doing?
Johnny
Hey! I’m on the L going home.
Jungwoo
What’s that?
Johnny
The train in Chicago. Like the subway but it’s above ground
We’ll use it when you come visit.
How are you?
Jungwoo
I’m okay.
Johnny
Just okay?
Jaehyun said you were in a weird mood last night.
Jungwoo
Ohhhhhhh yeah
Yeah
It’s weird being here. I don’t like switching places. I miss our old apartment.
Johnny
I can imagine.
It really sucks.
But you have Jaehyun. You’re lucky. He’s gonna make the place nice for you.
We searched high and low for a really nice apartment in your guy’s budget.
Jungwoo
He cooked tonight!
Johnny
See?
Jungwoo
It wasn’t that good…
Johnny
It’s the thought that counts 😊
Jungwoo
Not when it comes to food!
Johnny
You ate it though, didn’t you?
Jungwoo
😅
I’ll eat anything!
Johnny
😂
Jungwoo
I wanted to ask your advice Johnny.
Johnny
What’s up?
Jungwoo
Mark’s mad at me.
I forgot his birthday.
Johnny
How did you forget his birthday?
It’s August 2nd
Jungwoo
How did you know???
Johnny
I know all my friends birthdays. It’s a skill
So you didn’t forget it.
Jungwoo
I did!
When we were moving I told Mark that I was going to go to Detroit with my new friend Lucas on 8/2.
Lucas’s father is a movie producer and they are filming in Detroit that day.
Johnny
Uh oh. Is Mark friends with Lucas, too?
Jungwoo
No, I met Lucas in my summer class.
Mark was mad that I made plans on his birthday.
I feel bad.
I told him I wasn’t going to go anymore!
He said that I don’t think about him.
I feel like I’m a bad person 😞
Johnny
Awww Jungwoo. I know you think of him.
You’re not a bad person. You’re funny and you always make people smile. That’s an important trait in a person.
Especially someone like you, who has gone through some real shit in life.
I really admire that about you.
You’re not a bad person. Apologize to Mark. But you still have time to make this right.
Jungwoo
I don’t know if he wants to talk to me. He hasn’t talked to me all day.
Johnny
Call him? Let him know that you want to figure this out.
What’s something that Mark likes?
Jungwoo
Lately we really like playing Animal Crossing.
Johnny
Send him a cute invite to your island or whatever. I don’t know shit about that game but… do something sweet around that. Break the ice. And then see if you can visit him and talk to him.
You can do it
When you’re dating, you’re bound to hurt each other’s feelings sometimes.
Does any of this help?
Jungwoo
Yeah, Johnny
I think you’re really romantic so I wanted to ask you.
You’re always making hyung smile!
But he’s not smiling as much these days…
Johnny
Don’t break my heart, Jungwoo.
Keep an eye on him for me, will you?
Jungwoo
I promise!
He’s my cousin, I love him more than you 😛
Johnny
I don’t think so!
Jungwoo
🤣
He loves me more than you!
Johnny
😒
maybe
🐻
August 2nd 11:48am ET/10:48am CT
From: [email protected]
Subject: Thinking about you…
Hey baby,
I am up way too early on a Sunday. But sleeping alone fucking sucks. I don’t know how I ever did it without you. Or even when we were dating. Why did we spend so many nights not together? It feels crazy that when we were together, we chose to be apart.
I’m being really sappy right now, aren’t I? You know, I had an idea to write you an actual real love letter. Like with pen and paper. Maybe even in Korean? But the mail is so slow. I want to talk to you now. It’s crazy how much I think about you. I’m not sure you even know. It’s impossible to quantify the way you’re always on my mind. Especially now that I’m without you. I’m really missing you.
I was texting with Jungwoo the other day. He hasn’t gotten back to me yet so I hoped it worked out. He asked me about romance. Really cute. It made me think about how I hope you think I’m romantic. I thought it was romantic when we put the love lock on the fence at Namsan tower. I’d seen it on TV but I still couldn’t believe there were so many. I don’t know. I think those locks should only be reserved for true love, not just if you’re on a date, you know? I know I have true love with you but we had to fight for space with all those locks from people who broke up in a month.
I think you’re romantic. It’s in the way you look at me. I love your smile. But more than that, the way you listen to me and remember everything that I say. Like on our first second date and you bought the wine that I liked. It stuck with me so much, baby. I know you’re always thinking about me.
Taeyong told me some exciting news. I don’t know if he told you. But he’s thinking about proposing to Doyoung… soon, I guess. They had the right idea, both going to grad school at the same place. What do you think? I think it’s very cool. I’m excited for them. Taeyong better make me best man! I wanna know how he’s going to do it. How do you plan something like that? What would you like?
Write me back even though we talk all day…
Love,
Johnny
🐻
August 2nd 2:45pm ET/1:45 pm PT
OMG Are You From Seattle?! (Korea Trip) Group Chat
Johnny/Jaehyun/Jungwoo/Mark
Johnny
Happy Birthday Mark!
I was saving this pic for your birthday.
-sends pic-
This one too.
-sends pic-
Mark
Thanks!
Wow… where was this?
Johnny
When we went to the beach on our second to last night.
Mark
I’ve never had pics like this of me before
Jungwoo
You look amazing. You look like a celebrity!
Mark
I’m really shocked.
Johnny
Don’t be. Perfect lighting and you’re a good looking guy
Jungwoo
You are. I always tell you you’re hot, Markie!
Mark
Oooookay…
Johnny
-sends pic-
You two are very cute together
Mark
Wow how many pictures do you have that you haven’t shown us?
Johnny
Hundreds
Jungwoo
I look weird.
Mark
No way, that picture is awesome.
I want to frame it.
Thank you Johnny!
Johnny
Let me. I’ll print it out and frame it for you. Give me a week or so.
Jungwoo
What about me?
Johnny
See it when you go to Mark’s place!
Are you two together today?
Mark
Yep!
Jungwoo
Yeah
We’re at a Jurassic Park marathon. All the movies!
Johnny
That sounds… exhausting.
Have fun!
Jaehyun
I’m late
Happy Birthday Mark
Johnny
Where are you?
Jaehyun
Library. Practice test #2.
Gotta go
Jungwoo
He’s so boring
Jurassic Park III
Bye Johnny!
Mark
Bye!
🐻
August 2nd 4:44pm ET/3:44pm PT
Johnny/Mark
Mark
Hi Johnny!
I wanted to say thank you again.
I’m so impressed.
Thank you!
Johnny
You’re welcome Mark
How was the movie?
Mark
Jurassic Park III is so bad
It’s kinda sad 😞
Johnny
I’m… sorry?
Mark
Did you mean it when you said you’d frame the picture for me?
Johnny
Of course I did
I don’t say things I don’t mean
Mark
Thank you!
I’m excited.
Johnny
I think I can develop it. I just need to find a place around here
Mark
Johnny your pictures are so amazing.
You should be a photographer!
Johnny
Haha tell that to my bank account
Mark
I’m serious!
What about those places at the mall?
Johnny
🤣
Mark you flatter me.
You know malls are dying right?
Mark
Instagram!
Johnny
Yeah, because I’m cool enough to be an influencer
Thank you though
Mark
You should send all the pictures to me from the trip. I want to see them.
Johnny
I will. I’m still working on them.
I didn’t have a lot of time after the trip.
Now I do since I’m mostly… alone.
Mark
Awesome!
Jungwoo has to go to the bathroom. Byeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!
🐻
August 2nd 11:17pm ET/10:17pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
Hellllllllllloooooooo darling
Barely heard from you all day
Jaehyun
Sorry
Johnny
How were the practice tests?
Jaehyun
Not great
Johnny
It’s just practice
Plus tests don’t really say how smart you are.
They should be outlawed.
Jaehyun
I wanted to take the test on the 14th but now I think I’m gonna push it to the 8th.
Johnny
I’m sure you’re not doing that bad on the practice tests.
Jaehyun
I don’t feel confident.
Johnny
I want you to feel confident.
The 8th it is.
Jaehyun
But that means I can’t see you over labor day.
Johnny
Yeah I figured that.
But you know, you have to do what you have to do.
It’s all so you can get here, right?
Jaehyun
Right
Johnny
I want you to feel well prepared.
But even if you don’t make it into Northwestern, there’s a lot of other great schools here.
There’s also online schools.
Lots of options.
Jaehyun
But Northwestern has the program I want and the scholarship I want.
Johnny
I’ll help you pay for anything babe.
don’t feel locked into one option.
Jaehyun
Okay
Thank you
Johnny
Did you get my email?
Jaehyun
Yeah, but I haven’t read it yet.
I’m teaching at 8 tomorrow.
I’ll call you in the morning
Johnny
Okay
I love you
Jaehyun
Goodnight
🐻
August 3rd 6:37am ET/5:37am CT
From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: Thinking about you…
Good morning.
I think you’re very romantic. Anything you do for me makes me smile. Thanks for talking to Jungwoo. I think he’s over whatever was happening with Mark. I didn’t see him all at yesterday.
That’s exciting for Taeyong and Doyoung. I think you just plan out what’s right for you. I don’t know, I’ve never thought about being proposed to? Whatever you do is fine. Maybe I would propose to you.
Have a good day at work. Thanks for the email.
Jaehyun
🐻
August 3rd 3:40pm ET/2:40pm CT
Johnny/Yuta
Yuta
I have NEWS!
Can you talk?
Johnny
Yeah. I’m sitting here doing nothing.
Yuta
I quit my job today
Johnny
Whoa. Just like that?
Yuta
On the spot.
Don’t even know if they’re gonna send me my last paycheck
But I don’t give a FUCK!
Johnny
Wow
Yuta
Sicheng asked me to go with him
He’s doing a BUNCH of different clubs and festivals and shit this month
I think we’re finally official official OFFICIAL!!!!
Johnny
Congrats
That sounds really exciting.
Where are you going?
Yuta
I’m STOKED
Everywhere. But one place we’re going is Ibiza!
Spain!
Johnny
Wow you really mean everywhere
Yuta
EVERYWHERE
I can’t wait
Johnny
When are you leaving?
Yuta
This weekend. So I’m gonna spend the week packing up and selling all my shit and getting out of here early
Johnny
Wow
Yuta
Yeah and then I’ll be back in time to start
I can’t tell you how happy I am
This LDR thing SUCKS.
I mean no offense.
At least you and Jae know where you stand.
It was never that clear with Sicheng.
Now I know for sure!
Johnny
Yeah. It’s really cool.
Yuta
Why didn’t you and Jaehyun do this? You should have had one last fling.
Johnny
We went to Korea.
Yuta
That was a family trip. I mean a trip where the whole time is spent eating and fucking!
Johnny
Isn’t Sicheng going to be working?
Yuta
Believe me, he doesn’t work that hard.
Johnny
I don’t know, I guess we didn’t think of it.
A sex trip…
Yuta
A sex trip should be the FIRST thing on your minds!
Johnny
I’m really happy for you.
First a sex trip.
Then your dream job in New York City.
Yuta
Dude no words
Feels like my life is finally coming together.
Johnny
Feels like the end of an era
Yuta
The era ended when you left three weeks ago!
Johnny
Makes me a little sad
Yuta
I can’t be sad.
You shouldn’t be sad either.
We’re all spreading our wings and flyyyyyyyyying into the future!
Isn’t weed legal there? You should buy some.
Johnny
Yeah I should
And I shouldn’t be talking about buying weed at work
Let’s talk later?
Yuta
Text me!
🐻
August 3rd 8:18pm ET/7:18pm CT
From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: Re: Thinking about you…
Ha ha so email isn’t very romantic.
I should write you a letter. I don’t know if you can read my handwriting. Can you?
You’ve never thought about how you want to be proposed to? I think you should think about that and let me know. I haven’t thought about how I want it done to me but I’ve definitely thought about doing it. (Wow, that sounds so dirty. I kind of like it though.)
You’re right that it has to be very personal. Think about the scale from proposal at the Super Bowl to proposal in bed right before you go to sleep with your partner. What side of that scale are you on? I feel like I’m in the middle. I don’t wanna do Super Bowl. First of all, who can get tickets? Second of all, you aren’t into football that much. I’d do a sport you like! But anyway, I think I’d want it to be more romantic and intimate. After all, getting engaged is a decision between the two of us. It’s not something that other people get to weigh in on. So who cares if they watch, right?
But then again, I think it deserves celebration. So maybe at a restaurant? That way the proposal part is private but then everyone sees you say yes, and claps and you get free dessert. That would be sweet, right? I’d go to a place where you really like the dessert. Then we can go home and celebrate. All night. Would you like that? Would you say yes? You don’t have to answer that!
Well, guess what Yuta told me? He’s going around the world with Sicheng until he starts at Ralph Lauren. They are doing a whirlwind sex trip because Sicheng has so many DJ gigs. Can you believe it? He asked me why we didn’t have a sex trip. Now I’m thinking when we should have one! Would that be fun? We could go to Hawaii. We could go to a resort. He said Korea didn’t count. I get what he means. I mean we had sex but it wasn’t a SEX trip. I’m horny, obviously. Let’s see each other later? Maybe tonight?
I shouldn’t have started work so soon. Stupid sign on bonus. I’m not even doing anything. All my training is just me sitting in my cube by myself all day. I get a lot of time to think about you at least. I also get to look at all the pictures on my phone I need to transfer to my computer. Mark texted me to thank me about that pic I took of him and Jungwoo at Lotte World. It really is a great picture of them. He asked me why I’m not a photographer. Ha! Do you remember what it was like to be young enough to have dreams? But he got me thinking. I do have more free time now that I’m living by myself in Chicago and I don’t have a life. I could get back into photography more. Senior year got nuts. I miss using my camera and I have a billion pictures to develop.
This weekend I’m going home to see my parents. We’re also going to have a mini-high school reunion at a bar. A bunch of my classmates are back after graduation. I can’t wait to brag about you. Everyone is going to see your picture and they won’t understand how you ended up with me. How did that happen anyway? I’m so lucky.
I love you. I’ll talk to you later tonight.
Love,
Johnny
🐻
August 3rd 11:15pm ET/10:15pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Jaehyun
Hey just got your email.
I will reply.
Let’s FaceTime but I’m tired.
Can we just chill and listen to music?
Johnny
Of course baby
Jaehyun
It’s been a long day.
Sorry.
Johnny
Don’t say sorry
You’re working your brain too hard!
Can we be naked at least?
Jaehyun
Yeah
Johnny
And can I jerk off…?
Jaehyun
If it makes you happy. I’ll cheer you on.
Johnny
Maybe some sexy cheering?
Jaehyun
Maybe
Johnny
I’m mad we haven’t broke our streak of 78 days
Jaehyun
Haven’t had a chance yet to start over yet
Johnny
Remember when we went like 3 months without having sex?
Jaehyun
You nearly killed me.
Johnny
I hope it’s not going to be like that again.
I don’t want you dead.
Jaehyun
We’re not quite there yet
Johnny
Three weeks? Getting close
I miss you
Jaehyun
I miss you too
I’ll call you in ten minutes
Johnny
I’ll be ready
🐻
August 5th 4:31pm ET/3:31pm CT
From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Thinking about you…
Sorry for the late response.
Where do I fall on the proposal scale? Probably in bed. Then it’s just the two of us. I like that idea.
Sex trip sounds fun. Good for Yuta. Yeah, I wish we could go on one. But you know I’m trying to keep my budget tight this year to make sure Jungwoo is okay for his senior year. We can have a sex trip in Chicago when I visit. Let’s bang somewhere exotic? Never been to your room before.
Sorry I’m not so great about emails. They remind me of work.
I can read your handwriting just fine.
Jaehyun
🐻
August 8th 12:13am ET/ August 7th 11:13pm CT
DEATH CABIN SURVIVORS GROUP CHAT
Johnny/Jaehyun/Jungwoo/Mark/Taeyong/Doyoung/Yuta
Yuta
Ayyyyyyyyyyy Johnny!
-sends pic-
Johnny
You’re KILLING me!
Yuta
Thought you’d be in bed old man.
Working stiff!
Taeyong
We miss you!
Johnny
Everyone’s there
Jungwoo
-sends video-
Johnny
WHY IS JAEHYUN DOING A BODY SHOT OFF DOYOUNG!!!!
Taeyong
Truth or Dare. I think they both lost.
Johnny
What is going on?????
Yuta
Last Pizza and Beer Friday Night
Taeyong
Going away party for Yuta
Jungwoo
It’s a party!
Mark
Hey Johnny!
-sends pic-
Johnny
There’s a beer pong table in my room?!
Yuta
You’re not in it. Now we can finally have one.
Mark
I’m losing so bad.
Doyoung
sorry they made me
for the record we did not enjoy
Johnny
You didn’t tell me you were having a party
Yuta
Are you here?
Taeyong
Sorry it kind of came together last minute.
We’re texting you because we wish you were here!
We miss you so much.
Johnny
Wish I could be there
Jungwoo
We’re having sooooooooooooooo much fun!
Mark
Your turn Woo!
Doyoung
you guys won’t get your deposit back
Taeyong
Don’t worry, I’ll clean up!
Yuta
I’m mad you’re not here Johnny. It fucking sucks. I’m leaving tomorrow. I’ll call you.
Johnny
I’m gonna cry myself to sleep.
Taeyong
We love you!
🐻
August 8th 12:37am ET/August 7th 11:37pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
You didn’t mention this party???
I haven’t even talked to you tonight!
Jaehyun
Sorry
I actually wasn’t going to go but Jungwoo made me
I’m glad he did.
We wish you were here.
Johnny
You wish I was there so much that you didn’t bother to text me that you’re at a party with my friends at my apartment?
Body shots?
Jaehyun
It was my dare. No big deal.
Johnny
You could have told me. That’s a big deal.
You kind of suck at texting sometimes.
Jaehyun
I know
Johnny
It’s not good when I’m 250 miles away
Jaehyun
I know
Johnny
How drunk are you?
Jaehyun
Somewhat
Johnny
Call me when you get home.
Jaehyun
You need sleep. You’re leaving early tomorrow.
Johnny
Just call me.
Jaehyun
Okay
Johnny
Okay
🐻
August 8th 2:22pm ET/1:22pm CT
Johnny/Taeyong
Johnny
My mom says hi.
Taeyong
Hiiiiiiii Mrs. Suh!
I miss your mommy.
Johnny
She misses you too.
She’s still so bummed you missed Christmas.
Taeyong
Me too! I loved being with Doyoung, but Christmas at Johnny’s home is so much more homey.
Johnny
My home is your home.
Speaking of which…
How weird is the apartment?
Taeyong
So weird!
You’re gone. Yuta’s gone.
And in two weeks, I’ll be gone. Can’t believe it.
Johnny
Yeah, I talked to Yuta this morning before he got on the plane.
He said the party was fun
Taeyong
So many people. It made me realize we’d never thrown a proper house party before
Johnny
Yay. You waited until I was gone to do.
Taeyong
Awwwwww I’m sorry!
Johnny
I don’t know.
I felt so responsible and lucky taking this job.
But now I feel like I made a mistake.
Taeyong
You didn’t! You are responsible and smart!
It’s only a year.
Johnny
This is going to be the longest year of my life.
Jaehyun barely talks to me and it’s only been a month.
I understand you guys not telling me about the party but Jaehyun?
Taeyong
You know he has a lot going on with studying for the GMAT and tutoring and starting classes soon and looking after Jungwoo.
Johnny
I feel like I’m priority number zero.
I write him these long thoughtful emails and he barely gives me 3 sentences.
Taeyong
I think Jaehyun is more of an in person communication kind of guy
Johnny
That’s what I’m afraid of.
How does that work in a long distance relationship?
Taeyong
You two will figure it out
Johnny
It’s not like you and Doyoung.
We’ve only been together 9 months, not two years.
I feel like I should have thought this through more
Plus I hate my job!
Taeyong
It’s too soon to hate your job.
Time doesn’t matter. It’s your feelings.
It’s your relationship.
Johnny
I should have figured out a way to stay in Michigan with him.
Jaehyun says emailing me feels like work.
Taeyong
I’m sure he didn’t mean it that way.
Johnny think of the positive things! You’re closer to your family now. They best people in the world. You’re making an awesome salary.
Johnny
It would go further in MI.
I love my parents but I can’t be there all the time.
Taeyong
Enjoy them this weekend.
Johnny
It’s hard to enjoy anything right now.
Taeyong
Awwww I really hate to see you like this!
Call Jaehyun okay?
Johnny
My hungover boyfriend
Taeyong
Happens to us all.
Cheer up Johnny.
It’ll be okay
Johnny
I’ll try.
🐻
August 8th 4:14 pm ET/3:14pm CT
Johnny/Jungwoo
Johnny
You gonna be home tonight?
Jungwoo
I think so! I think Mark is just going to come over.
Johnny
How is he?
Jungwoo
He’s fine.
It’s called a hangover! Not cancer.
It’s called passing out so he can’t call Johnny.
He’s asleep.
But I did what you say so don’t worry.
Johnny
He should be awake by now. It’s after 4.
Wake him up. Make sure he’s not dead.
Jungwoo
He’s not dead
He’s probably hiding. He’s probably embarrassed.
He was embarrassing! I’m not easily embarrassed.
I’ve never seen him drink so much.
Missing Johnny.
Johnny
Is that what you think?
Jungwoo
I knowwwwww
Johnny
How do you know?
Jungwoo
I told you he’s miserable.
Johnny
You did not
Jungwoo
I DID!
Johnny
No
Jungwoo
I totally did.
Crying over Johnny.
Johnny
He was crying?
You didn’t tell me that.
Jungwoo
You don’t listen to me!
Johnny
Will you tell me when he’s awake?
Jungwoo
Yeah… I will. Don’t worry. I’m taking good care of him.
Johnny
I know you are. Thank you Jungwoo.
🐻
August 8th 7:25pm ET/6:25pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
hey
Jungwoo told me you’re awake
How are you?
Jaehyun
Fine.
Johnny
Joined the land of the living?
Can we talk? Let’s video chat.
Jaehyun
I don’t feel up to it.
Johnny
We can just text.
Jaehyun
I have a headache so I think I’m not going to look at screens.
Johnny
We can talk on the phone.
We don’t even have to talk.
I’ll listen to you breathing while you do whatever.
Jaehyun
I’m sure you have better things to do.
Johnny
I really don’t.
Jaehyun what’s going on?
Jungwoo said you were embarrassing at the party and you were crying?
Jaehyun
You know Jungwoo exaggerates.
I just don’t feel good.
I can’t talk.
Johnny
Okay…
Text me when you’re feeling better
🐻
August 9th 8:03pm ET/7:03pm CT/5:03pm PT
ROOMIES Group Chat
Johnny/Taeyong/Yuta
Johnny
Where are you guys?
Taeyong
At home.
Yuta
I am in PARADISE!
AKA fucking LA!
Taeyong
Yay!
Johnny
Where are you right now?
Yuta
The hotel room. Sicheng has a meeting.
Yuta
What’s up?
Johnny
I’m going fucking insane.
What happened at the party?
Taeyong
What are you talking about?
Yuta
Yeah we told you everything.
Johnny
I’ve barely heard from Jaehyun since then.
Did something happen?
Other than the body shots?
Crying? Jaehyun was embarrassing?
Taeyong
It really wasn’t a big deal
Yuta
Dude you know me and parties. If something happened, I would have told you. Jaehyun was extremely drunk. But he didn’t do anything. We’ve all been to parties like that.
Johnny
You didn’t tell us about Sicheng…
Yuta
Damn. But I did tell you later.
You can trust us. Nobody is keeping a secret about something that Jaehyun did at a party. We’re not keeping anything from you.
Taeyong
Yeah Johnny we wouldn’t do that.
Johnny
I know.
Like I said I’m freaking out.
He’s not talking to me.
Yuta
Have you called him?
Johnny
Everything! He says he doesn’t wanna talk.
Did he take something?
Taeyong
All we had was weed. The party wasn’t that big.
Yuta
We weren’t with him the whole time but if something major happened I think we would know.
Johnny
I don’t know what to do.
Taeyong
I’m sorry you’re going through this Johnny 😟
Yuta
Yeah man
What can we do?
Johnny
If you talk to him, tell him that I really want to talk.
Taeyong
Of course
Johnny
Tell me if you think about anything that could have happened at the party. Or if you hear anything.
Yuta
Do you think he cheated on you or something?
Taeyong
Yuta… don’t say that.
Johnny
I don’t know. I don’t know what to think.
Taeyong
I’m sure it’s fine Johnny. He might be busy. He might be sick.
Yuta
He might be ghosting you and if he is, I am hopping on a plane.
I helped that fucker move. I know where he lives.
Taeyong
Yuta!
Johnny
Thanks guys
I’ll keep you updated
🐻
August 9th 11:11pm ET/10:11pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
Hi…
Johnny
Haven’t heard from you all day.
I’m worried.
Are you okay?
Jaehyun
Yeah
Johnny
Okay?
Jaehyun
Johnny I’m going to bed
Goodnight
🐻
August 10th 2:33pm ET/1:33pm CT
Johnny/Mark
Mark
Hi Johnny!
I got the package.
I’ve never gotten mail like that before.
So cool!
Johnny
You’re welcome
Glad it came safely. I paid for insurance.
Mark
The picture looks even better in person
How should I hang it on my wall?
Johnny
You know what I’ve been using lately? Alien tape. It’s really easy to use and you can take it off when you move out of the dorm.
Mark
I’m going to put it on the wall next to my bed.
I have the bottom bunk this year.
Then I can look at Jungwoo and me right before I go to sleep every night.
Johnny
That’s really sweet. I’m glad you like it.
Mark
I love it. Thank you for taking a picture of us like that.
We look really in love.
Johnny
You do.
It’s beautiful.
Mark
Wow…
I’ve never seen myself in love before.
Johnny
There you go Mark. I’m glad I could do that for you.
Mark
I’ve never been in love before Jungwoo.
Sometimes I’m not sure we’re good at it.
You know what we say?
Johnny
What’s that?
Mark
We want to be like you and Jaehyun! Because you guys really love each other. Jungwoo says that all the time.
Johnny
Really? What do you mean?
Mark
Like you guys are always together and looking at each other and doing things for each other. I feel like everyone can tell that you’re in love. They think Jungwoo and I are just kids.
Johnny
You kind of are but… I get what you mean.
I take you two seriously.
And thank you for that. Anything you need, Mark, I’m here for you.
But Jaehyun and I aren’t always together anymore.
Mark
That’s just because you’re living in Chicago.
If you were here, you would always be together. And I bet you talk all the time now!
Johnny
Thanks Mark
I have to get back to work, okay?
Mark
Okay, Johnny. Thanks again for my picture!
Johnny
Anything for you Mark.
🐻
August 10th 8:19pm ET/7:19pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Johnny
How are you today?
This is getting ridiculous.
I heard something funny.
Mark said that he and Jungwoo look up to us and they want to be like us.
They think we’re a perfect couple.
It’s cute.
How wrong they are.
Where are you?
Why aren’t you talking to me?
What happened?
We can’t do this.
Jaehyun
🐻
August 11th 9:43pm ET/8:43pm CT
Johnny/Jungwoo
Johnny
Hey
Where’s your cousin?
Jungwoo
What do you mean?
Johnny
He hasn’t talked to me for two days.
Is he home?
Jungwoo
Whoa! Really?
He’s not home.
Johnny
You better not be covering for him.
I’m so mad.
Jungwoo
No! Honestly Johnny I wouldn’t.
I had no idea.
Johnny
How’s he been?
Jungwoo
Normal! I didn’t know.
Johnny
Where is he?
Jungwoo
I think he’s at the library?
Johnny
Has he said anything?
Tell me, Jungwoo.
Jungwoo
He hasn’t. I’ve been with Mark a lot and I haven’t seen him.
I’m sorry Johnny.
I’ll talk to him for you!
Johnny
Don’t.
I just want to know he’s okay.
Jungwoo
He’s okay. He’s not in the hospital or anything.
Johnny
Okay
Jungwoo
Are you okay Johnny?
Johnny
Not really
🐻
August 12th 01:34am ET/12:34 CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Jaehyun
Hi
Johnny
I don’t even know what to say…
Jaehyun
Jungwoo told me you texted him
Johnny
Okay. So otherwise you would have continued to ignore me?
Great.
Can we talk?
Jaehyun
It’s late
Johnny
We’re obviously awake
What’s your problem?
What’s going on?
Jaehyun
I need some space.
Johnny
Why?
What happened?
Pick up the damn phone!
Jaehyun
I’m going to sleep
Johnny
Jaehyun don’t do this.
Jaehyun
I’ll text you in a few days.
🐻
Aug 12th 1:12am CT/ Aug 11th 11:12pm PT
Johnny/Yuta
Johnny
Yuta
Yuta
Yuta
Are you there?
Oh my god
Yuta
Hey what’s up I’m here
Johnny
Can you talk?
Yuta
I’m in a club right now but give me like 15 minutes?
I can text
What’s going on Johnny?
Johnny
Jaehyun broke up with me
Yuta
WHAT?!
Okay I’ll try to get out of here.
What the FUCK?
What did he say?
Johnny
He said he needs some space
I’m reeeeeeeeeeeally freaking out
really
I feel like I’m falling apart
ugh
Yuta
I’ll be able to talk in about 5 minutes.
After I talk to you, I’m flying back to Michigan.
I am tearing him apart.
I’m so sorry Johnny.
I’m so FUCKING MAD.
I never thought he would be like this. I mean, this doesn’t sound like Jaehyun.
Maybe it’s not a break up?
Let’s talk. Hold on Johnny.
I’ll always be there for you.
🐻
August 13th 8:45pm ET/7:45pm CT
From: [email protected]
Subject:
Jaehyun,
This really isn’t fair to me.
Johnny
🐻
August 14th 10:11pm ET/9:11pm CT
Johnny/Jungwoo
Jungwoo
Hi Johnny.
Are you mad at me?
Johnny
Why would I be mad at you?
Jungwoo
Because… Jaehyun.
Johnny
I’m not mad at you.
What did he say to you?
Jungwoo
I shouldn’t get in the middle.
Johnny
Is he okay?
Jungwoo
I don’t know
Johnny
What’s wrong?
Jungwoo
Johnny…
Johnny
Is he seeing someone else?
Jungwoo
No way!
Johnny
Tell me what’s wrong.
Jungwoo
He’s really sad
Johnny
I don’t understand.
Jungwoo
He’s not talking to me either.
Johnny
Really?
Jungwoo
Yeah
Johnny
You know Jaehyun loves you more than anything, right?
You’re number one in his life.
Jungwoo
Johnny, I think that’s you.
🐻
August 15th 9:22am ET/8:22am CT
Johnny/Taeyong
Johnny
Have you ever just laid in bed in the dark for a whole weekend?
Taeyong
Oh Johnny…
Johnny
Were you awake?
Taeyong
Of course I am.
Johnny
I miss our apartment so much right now.
I hate being alone.
Taeyong
You’re not alone.
Johnny
There’s no one else here.
Taeyong
I would talk but Doyoung is still asleep.
Johnny
Your boyfriend right beside you.
Your boyfriend soon to be fiancé.
I was so stupid to think we’d get that far.
Taeyong
Johnny stop.
Johnny
I can’t.
Taeyong
Maybe move back home for a little bit?
Johnny
The commute would be 90 minutes each way.
Taeyong
I’m worried about you.
Have you heard from him?
Johnny
I’m seriously considering calling in dead.
I haven’t slept since we last texted.
Taeyong
You need sleep.
Johnny
My brain won’t shut off.
I miss him so much.
And I’m so fucking pissed off.
I don’t know what to do.
Taeyong
Give yourself time Johnny.
This is a little extreme but maybe take some Benadryl and pass out? I really think you need sleep.
I wish I could be there with you.
I love you Johnny.
It’s going to be okay.
Johnny
I don’t think so.
🐻
August 15th 6:32pm CT
From: [email protected]
Subject: Re:
Dear Johnny,
I know it isn’t fair to you. Saying I’m sorry isn’t enough.
We always said we wanted to be honest with each other and say exactly how we feel from the start of our relationship. That’s always been hard for me. I never really learned how to express how I feel. My family was all about appearances. Your feelings never really mattered. The only person I could share my feelings with was Jungwoo. But I didn’t want to overwhelm him with my issues. So even though we’re really close, I kept a lot from him. I wanted to protect him.
You’re the only person I’ve ever been able to be truly real with. But even that is hard. Johnny, the way you see the world is incredible. I’m not sure you realize this about yourself. You have a brightness to you that makes everyone feel at ease. You can make friends wherever you go. You genuinely believe that everything’s going to be okay. When I first met you, I felt at ease. It was the way you smiled at me. It was the way you instantly trusted me. You inspire me so much. I don’t know if I’ve ever truly told you that.
Everything in my life got better after I met you. I was happier. I felt secure in my new home. I felt secure in my own skin. I realized what I’d been missing in life. What I was missing was the ability to be myself. Before you I always worried that I wasn’t good enough or smart enough or interesting enough or worthy enough. You know I had that terrible future my father set for me hanging over my head. I truly thought I was going to spend my life with someone I didn’t love in a job I hated. I accepted that.
Then I found you and you instantly liked me, even though I didn’t do anything but sit there. You helped me find the confidence to believe in myself. You taught me that I was good enough just as I was. You never shied away from me, Johnny. I didn’t realize that I needed that so much.
There’s stuff I still don’t talk about. It’s not because I don’t want to or because I don’t trust you. It’s only because I don’t want that baggage to be a part of my life now. I want to focus on you and my future. I’ve worked so hard for this. You gave me the strength to stand up to my dad. I feel like I’m able to forge my own path in life because of you. It’s important, even though I don’t know what that path is yet.
I want a passion. But now that you’re gone, I realized that my passion is you. My passion is being with you. It scares me and excites me at the same time. Because I don’t know what to do without you. I didn’t realize this about myself before. You give me energy. You give me purpose. I don’t know if it’s good or bad. I really need you, Johnny.
After the party, it really hit me. I drank too much. It triggered something inside me. I felt like I was falling into a black hole. It was really bad. I’m sorry I didn’t talk to you. I should have. I didn’t realize how hard this would be. I didn’t even realize that I had that inside me. That something could hurt that bad. I didn’t know that I could miss you that much. I honestly didn’t know.
I’m not sure what to do. The only option is for us to be together. Please don’t think I don’t want to be with you. I hope you still want to be with me. I know I treated you like shit over the past week. I understand that you’re really mad and hurt. You should be. But I need to be with you and I hope you still need to be with me, too.
You asked me how I want to be proposed to. Johnny, it doesn’t really matter as long as we end up together. I’m with you. I want to be with you for life. I hope you know that and you believe me. I’ll prove it to you. Give me another chance.
I took the GMAT yesterday after all. I thought about what you said. There’s not just one plan. Actually, there is one plan. The plan is to be with you. But there’s not only one way to do it. I needed to take the pressure off myself so I got it over with. I probably tanked the test but it doesn’t matter.
I’ve never written my feelings down like that. It’s a good idea. I hope this isn’t boring to read. I’ll do it more often. I’ll share with you more. I promise.
Where do we go from here, Johnny? I hope you will talk to me. I’ll make it up to you. I know I’ve hurt you. Johnny, you are my only love. You are the most important person in my life. You are my reason for living.
I’m sorry.
I hope you can forgive me.
Love,
Jaehyun
🐻
August 15th 8:12pm CT
Johnny/Jaehyun
Jaehyun
I’m sorry.
I’m here.
I don’t know what to say to make it up to you.
All I can say is that I’m sorry and I love you.
I know I hurt you.
I need you more than you know.
Do you want to talk to me?
Johnny
Jaehyun you could shoot me in the face.
I would still want to talk to you.
There’s nothing you could do that would make me stop loving you. I’ve thought about it a lot. As much as it hurts, it’s true.
I read your email.
Jaehyun
I love you too Johnny
Johnny
Thank you for writing to me.
Jaehyun
I’m sorry I didn’t write back sooner.
Johnny
We really need to talk.
We can’t rely on texting anymore.
We need to talk each and every day.
Can you talk?
Jaehyun
Johnny…
Open your front door.