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You and Bucky laid on the bed, naked, sweaty and panting. You just went three rounds of your “bedroom exercises”. You stared at the ceiling still in the post-sex haze.
“I’m seeing someone.” Bucky sais breaking the silence.
You turn your head to look at him, but he continues to stare at the ceiling, “Oh?”
“I think it’s getting serious.”
Your mouth suddenly feels really dry. You knew this would happen eventually, but you figured you’d be the one to break it off. Not Bucky. You wished it was you to find someone. But no. You couldn’t. Not when the guy you just had sex with was the one for you.
“What’s her name?” You looked at him teasingly, trying to hide the pain.
Bucky smiled, “Melissa, but she goes by Mellie.” Bucky turns to you and props his head on his hand, “Y/N, she’s so beautiful, kind, and funny. She knows about my past and she accepts me for who I am. It’s-It’s so amazing. She’s so amazing.”
You have him a small smile, the smile not reaching your eyes, “I’m happy for you, Buck.”
Bucky smiled, “Thanks.”
You immediately sat up and hopped out of Bucky’s bed picking up your clothes from the ground. Your heart hammering in your chest. You could feel tears well up in your eyes, but you wouldn’t let them fall. You couldn’t.
Bucky sat up as well looking at you confused, “You don’t wanna go another round?”
You slipped on your clothes, your back facing to him, “Nah. I’m beat. I need to take a shower still.” Bucky opened his mouth and you stopped him, “No, I won’t take a shower here.” You finally slipped on your socks and picked up your shoes. You sighed as you turned around putting on a fake smile, “It was good while it lasted, Barnes.”
Bucky gave you a sheepish smile, “Yeah. See ya around?”
You gave him a nod and left. You ran straight to your room and to the conjoining bathroom. You ripped off your clothes and turned the shower on. Once warm enough, you hopped in. You finally let your tears go and let them mix in with the water.
This is what lovers do right? They sleep with each other until one gets bored of the other or until one finds someone else, right?
You knew you what you were signing up for when Bucky made you an offer you simply couldn’t refuse. How could you? With his smile, his eyes, his hair, and his charm, you just couldn’t say no. Not to mention you already harboured a crush on the man.
So it’s safe to say that this is your own fault that you’re heartbroken. Right?
Lovers are only lovers for the physical aspect. No emotions attached. You have sex then you go about your days pretending you haven’t spent hours in each others’ arms naked. You smile and occasionally flirt. You talk and hang out as if you don’t bring each other to a pleasurable bliss every other night. That’s what lovers do. Right?
The next morning you drag yourself into the kitchen. Everyone was already there stuffing their face with some food. You sat down at your usual spot at the table. Steve sat down next to you setting a plate in front of you and sliding a cup of coffee to you.
You smiled at him, “Thanks, Stevie.”
He nodded, “You okay? You don’t look like you slept much.”
Steve knew the situation between you and Bucky. The poor guy accidentally walked in on the two of you while you were going at it.
You shrugged, “He told you, right? About the girl he’s seeing?“ Steve nodded, "Yeah. That’s why I look like I got dragged through a blender. I couldn’t sleep.”
“Hey, doll. You okay?” Bucky asks as he slides into the chair in front of you.
Steve answered the question for you, “Bad dream.”
Bucky looked concern, “Why didn’t-”
“You already don’t sleep that well, Buck. I didn’t wanna bother you.”
“Still, doll. If you need anything, just tell me. I wanna help you.”
You nodded, “Thanks.”
You looked down at your plate in sorrow. Steve cleared his throat and nudged you, “Wanna eat on the roof?”
“Sure.” You grabbed your plate and coffee mug and followed Steve to the elevator where you made your way to the roof’s lounging area.
You sat down on the comfy couch and picked at your pancakes not really having an appetite.
“I should probably warn you, he’s planning on bringing her by tomorrow. To have her meet everyone.
You groaned, “Steve noooo! I can’t face them! Not now!”
“You mean a lot to Bucky. So you gotta meet her. She’s actually really nice.”
You sighed, “Fine. But will you be by my side the entire time? Just in case anything happens?”
“You don’t even need to ask, sweetheart.” Steve wrapped his arm around you and kissed your head. You always felt safe when you were with Steve.