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jeno was worried, he was really really worried. in fact, he was starting to freak out. he couldn’t even stay still in that lonely and cold hospital waiting room, so he was walking in circles as he practically ate his fingers due to his nervousness. suddenly a loud groan coming from the corner of the room was heard, but jeno didn’t even look that way.
‘jeno, can you please calm down? you’re starting to scare me.’ yuta said while he started to stretch his arms, letting out pleased sounds and some yawns. they had been waiting in that room for hours now and yuta was so bored that he ended up falling asleep and to his surprise jeno was still doing the same thing he was doing before.
‘I can’t.’ jeno whispered, letting out a little cry from his mouth when he bit one of his own nails too much, making it bleed. yuta sighed, standing up from his chair and practically dragging and forcing jeno to sit down next to him again. he patted his back, noticing jeno’s body shaking a little.
‘he’s going to be fine, jeno. everything is going to be fine.’ he tried to calm him down, but jeno just couldn’t. he looked at yuta and he could see worry all over jeno’s face, he was like an open book and it wasn’t exactly a happy one.
‘but what if something goes wrong? or if they touch something they shouldn’t and the surgery fails? he’s the love of my life, how could I be relaxed in a moment like this one? it’s been hours.’ he sighed and he put his hands on his face, inhaling and exhaling a couple times while yuta was looking at him with a wide smile.
of course he was fucking scared too, surgeries weren’t always successful and he was terrified, but in that moment hearing jeno saying that jaemin, his beloved little brother, was the love of his life and seeing how worried he was made him realize that jeno and jaemin were really meant to each other. he was so happy that jaemin found someone like jeno to share his life with.
‘I know how you’re feeling, I feel like that too. jaemin is my baby brother and I could die if something happened to him. but freaking out right now isn’t useful. so just calm down, alright? think positive.’ jeno nodded with his head, he knew yuta was right. he felt yuta’s arm on his shoulder, pulling him closer and giving him a small kiss on his head. jeno closed his eyes, resting on yuta’s chest.
in those three years that jaemin and jeno had been together, yuta and jeno developed a really good brothers-in-law relationship. yuta was like his older brother and jeno was like yuta’s little brother, they were family after all. they trust each other so much that they could hang out together when jeno went to his house and jaemin wasn’t there yet. of course that was before jaemin and jeno decided to move in together.
jeno realized that he was in love with jaemin and he fell even harder for that handsome and perfect boy that was always smiling at him and looking at him with eyes filled with love and adoration, just the same way he looked at him. jaemin was jeno’s home and jeno was jaemin’s home. their love was something special and they both knew that.
‘hey.’ someone who opened the door in that moment said and the two boys looked at him. hendery closed the door after going inside and jeno could see that he had two starbuck’s coffees on his hands. he felt the coffees on the table and opened his backpack, taking out from it some sandwiches.
‘I brought you food and coffee since you’ve been here for hours.’ he handed yuta his coffee and one of the two sandwiches. the older took a big sip from his coffee, enjoying the taste.
‘you’re my hero.’ yuta said and when jeno tried to take his coffee he hit his hand, making jeno frown at his actions.
‘what’s wrong with you?’ he asked and yuta put the coffee away from jeno, removing the wrapper from the sandwich and giving it to the boy instead.
‘you’re eating this and then you’re taking a nap or something. you’ve been awake for hours and you need to rest a little bit.’ jeno looked at hendery looking for a little support from his part, but the boy took the coffee that was supposedly his and he started to slowly drink it.
‘sorry jen, but I’m on yuta’s side. you look like dead.’ and after those words he decided to give up, it was a lost fight and he was indeed a little tired to fight them. he grabbed the sandwich, taking his time to eat it and feeling a little better after hours of not eating anything.
‘come on dude, lay here.’ jeno laid down on the waiting room’s couch with his hand on yuta’s legs and the older one gently caressing his hair. it wasn’t the first time he slept like that, and he actually found it really comfortable. but sleeping in jaemin’s lap was way better, of course. he didn’t know when but he ended up falling asleep, remembered the day jaemin talked to him about the surgery.
jeno and jaemin had been together for two years and three months and they had been living together for seven months now. it was jaemin the one who asked jeno to move in toget her and move one step further in their relationship, and of course jeno said yes. he couldn’t deny anything to jaemin, especially when jaemin looked at him with puppy eyes.
in those two years and three months jaemin improved a lot with his talking skills, now he was more confident with himself even though he couldn’t hear a word. jeno was helping him with that. he was teaching him new words every day and he was always encouraging him to speak with other people, he was so proud of him and he kinda wanted to show the world how amazing and brave his boyfriend was.
but he also realized something in those two years and three months. jaemin was someone that never complained about being deaf, it was something about him that he couldn’t change from one day to another and he learned to live with it. in fact, he really liked it. he learned how to use his other four senses better and that gave him some privileges.
when he started dating jeno everything changed. during all his life he never asked himself ‘how will the birds sound when they sing?’ or ‘what will the noise of the waves be like when they hit the rocks on the shore?’. mostly because he didn’t care. but every time jeno said ‘I love you’ to him the strong desire to hear jeno’s voice grew on him, becoming stronger for each day that passed.
one day he found himself thinking about how jeno changed his life. he was a normal deaf boy before meeting him, and he was fine with that, but now? now he was a deaf boy that wanted to hear his boyfriend’s voice every single day of his life, when they wake up in bed, when they fall asleep at night, when they talk about their days…
and because of jeno he also wanted to hear more things such as music (which type of music did jeno like? and which one he would enjoy listening to?), his best friend’s voices, his family’s voices, even his own voice. that was probably what had him most intrigued, the sound of his own voice.
he spent weeks thinking about that, even months. maybe it was just a momentary thing and he’d just stop thinking about that a few days later, but those few days later never came and the desire of hearing was stronger than before. one day he just couldn’t hide it anymore, so he decided to talk with jeno about that and see if they could do something about it.
that day jaemin went to yuta and winwin’s house to ask them for some advice, his older brother and his boyfriend were the firsts person to find out about jaemin’s situation and as expected they were incredibly supportive with his decision, someone even cried a little bit but anyone would know that it was yuta, of course not.
when jaemin was standing in front of the door of the apartment he shared with his boyfriend he felt nervous again, his hands were shaking a little bit and also his legs. he knew that jeno loved him and that he was going to support him, but that didn't stop him from feeling like he was about to have a panic attack.
he closed his eyes, taking some deep breaths and putting the key in the door lock, opening it and closing it after going inside. he put his coat on the hanger and he went straight to his and jeno’s room. he knew that his boyfriend was there because the room’s lights were the only lights in the whole house that were on.
he stepped inside their room, noticing that his boyfriend was a little busy playing rocket league with his ps4. jaemin just smiled at the sight of jeno being so focused on his game and cutely biting the inside of his right cheek, it was something he does often and jaemin finds it adorable.
he approached jeno, putting one of his hands on his hair and slowly caressing it, noticing how jeno lifted his head a little more so jaemin’s hand could touch him a little more but without taking his eyes off the screen. he chuckled, putting his hands on his shoulders and sitting on his lap but letting him see the screen.
‘how did you know I was home?’ jaemin asked, leaving soft kisses on his boyfriend’s jaw and noticing jeno giggling. that was another thing he wanted to hear so badly, jeno’s laugh. the way he imagined it, jeno’s laugh was the most beautiful sound in the world, but of course he didn’t know that.
‘I heard you coming, baby. you made a really loud noise when you closed the door.’ and he wasn’t looking at jaemin when he said that. he was really curious about how non-deaf people could hear and talk without looking at each other or, for example, how did jeno know that he was home because of the door’s noise.
jaemin asked himself if he was that loud when he did some things, because that wasn’t the first time something similar happened to him. sometimes he woke jeno up because he was being noisy, but how could he know that when he couldn’t hear himself? that was a disadvantage for jeno; his boyfriend was sometimes so loud and he didn’t have the guts to tell him.
jaemin hugged jeno’s neck, still giving soft kisses on his boyfriend’s jaw, cheeks and neck while he was playing. he knew that rocket league’s games lasted five minutes, maybe seven or eight if they were longer, and he loved cuddling jeno while he was playing. he looked so fucking handsome.
he knew that the game was over when jeno leaned a little closer to the desk, leaving the controller there and putting his hands on jaemin’s waist, caressing them. their eyes met for a couple seconds and they both smiled before leaning closer to each other, starting a small make out session filled with soft and gentle kisses.
when jaemin felt the urge to breathe for a couple minutes he separated himself from his boyfriend, putting one of his hands on jeno’s cheek and brushing his nose against the older’s. jeno didn’t know why, but he knew that something wasn’t okay, he felt like something was off.
‘love, are you alright?’ he said when he caught jaemin staring at his lips and jaemin sighed, shaking his head. jeno could notice worry and sadness in jaemin’s eyes, and that made him worry too. he held jaemin’s hands with his, giving soft kisses on jaemin’s knuckles.
‘tell me what’s wrong, nana.’ jaemin sighed, caressing jeno’s hands with his thumbs and remaining in silence for a couple seconds without knowing where to start. his mind was suddenly empty and everything yuta and winwin told him an hour before vanished from his head.
‘uh… I just wanted to talk with you about my feelings lately. I’ve been feeling a little weird and I wanted you to know what’s going on and see if we can find a solution together.’ jeno’s face suddenly changed from a kinda happy one to a surprised one. jaemin didn’t know why because he hadn't said anything yet. jeno swallowed hard before talking.
‘you mean… feeling a little weird with me? with us? do you want to break up with me?’ jeno looked like he was about to cry in that moment and something inside jaemin broke, of course that wasn’t true but seeing the love of his life that vulnerable wasn’t the best thing in the world.
‘no, no love, of course not. I’m not breaking up with you, I love you so much.’ jaemin said and he cupped jeno’s face with his hands, immediately starting to give soft kisses all over jeno’s face, trying to cheer up his boyfriend. making him sad wasn’t his intention.
‘then what’s wrong, babe?’ now it was jaemin who held jeno’s hands, intertwining his fingers with his boyfriend’s and staring at their hands for a couple seconds until he finally started talking.
‘you know that you changed my life, right? when I first met you you made me feel lots of things that I’d never felt for anyone before. you made me want to see you every day, want to make you smile, see you being extremely happy… but lately you’re making me feel more things I thought I’d never feel, jeno.’ he stopped talking as he looked down, he didn’t want to read jeno’s lips nor his boyfriend to see his red cheeks in that moment. he just felt jeno’s lips on his cheeks, leaving kisses there and making him chuckle.
‘what I wanted to say is… before I met you I was a normal deaf boy that was alright with not hearing anything and now it’s different. everything’s different.’ silence. jaemin was used to that, but he was starting to not like it. jeno put his hands on jaemin’s chin, lifting his boyfriend’s head so their eyes could finally meet again.
‘what?’ he just asked and jaemin bit his lower lip.
‘jeno, I've been dying to hear your voice for the last two months. I never thought that I would want something as much as I want to hear you say even one word. and now look at me, wishing that someday I’ll wake up and the first thing I’ll do is hear you saying ‘good morning’ while you hug me and kiss my cheeks.’ jaemin felt tears escaping from his eyes, but he was also feeling jeno’s thumbs on his cheeks, cleaning every single one of them.
‘it’s so hard for me to want something that might be impossible, jeno. do you know what it is like not to know what your own name sounds like? because when I say jaemin you immediately know, but me? for me they’re just six letters without a sound. and I want to hear my voice too. my voice, your voice, everyone’s voices.’ jaemin let out a loud sob. he knew it was going to be hard, but it was even harder than he thought. he didn’t cry when he told that to yuta, but with jeno it was different. jeno caressed jaemin’s cheeks as their eyes met again.
‘I want to hear you saying that you love me.’ jaemin looked so vulnerable at that moment, and jeno hated it. he hated seeing jaemin cry because his boyfriend doesn’t deserve it, he deserves all the good things in the world and he was always trying to make him smile. jaemin was like an angel.
he hugged jaemin tightly, feeling his boyfriend’s body shaking between his arms as jaemin passed his hands around jeno’s neck, hiding in his chest and wetting his shirt. the worst thing about hearing jaemin crying was that since he couldn't hear himself he didn’t know how loud he was. it wasn’t that jeno was bothered by that, but hearing his boyfriend’s cries filling their room was slowly breaking him inside.
it took jaemin like ten or fifteen minutes to calm down a little bit, and jeno took advantage of that moment to cup jaemin’s face, giving a small peck on his lips and brushing his nose against jaemin’s, making his boyfriend smile a little bit as a sob escaped from his lips.
jaemin pushed himself away from jeno just a little, taking his hands to his eyes and cleaning his tears while jeno started to caress his hair. then he was finally brave enough to look at his boyfriend, who was smiling at him.
‘you know that I’m in love with you, right? like, truly, deeply, madly in love with you.’ jaemin’s cheeks turned red when he read those words on jeno’s lips and his first reaction was leaving a small punch on his shoulder, which made jeno laugh.
‘I promise you that one day you’ll hear me saying those words, I’ll always be here for you and I’ll help you with everything. we’ll go to see an otolaryngologist to see if we can do something, okay? we’ll make your “impossible” dream come true and you will be able to hear everything you want. even your own voice.’ jaemin giggled at jeno’s words and he leaned closer to him, giving a soft and chaste kiss on jeno’s lips. it was his way to thank him for everything, and jeno loved it.
after that kiss another came, and another one, and another one until jeno finally separated himself from jaemin, giving soft kisses on his cheeks.
‘we can talk about this tomorrow, alright? now let’s go take a shower so we can eat something and drink some water later, you really need that.’ jeno joked, winning another soft punch coming from his boyfriend. they both stood up, jeno held jaemin’s hand and they headed to the kitchen.
that night jaemin and jeno took a shower together, ate dinner, watched a film together, laughed and kissed a lot and they ended the night by falling asleep on their bed as they were cuddling, both of them feeling incredibly happy.
since that day jeno went out of his way to help his boyfriend in everything he could; he went with him to his doctor’s appointments, he was always cheering him up and he was by his side for him when jaemin needed it.
jeno didn’t know how much time he spent sleeping on yuta’s lap, it felt like just five minutes or maybe ten to him, so when he started to wake up because he was feeling someone moving his shoulder he was a little confused. he slowly straightened his body, rubbing his eyes and passing his hands through his hair.
‘what happened?’ he mumbled, still half-asleep. yuta and hendery, who were now standing up in front of jeno, laughed at his cuteness. he looked so lost and adorable, like a small cute puppy who lost his owner.
‘you fell asleep and you had been sleeping for an hour and a half, but the doctor just came to tell us that we can go see him and we woke you up.’ the same moment jeno heard those words coming out from yuta’s mouth he stood up with the speed of the lighting, immediately taking his hand to his head because of the small dizziness that suddenly hit him.
‘and what are we waiting for? let’s go.’ and without letting yuta nag him because he stood up too fast (he knew that his brother-in-law wouldn’t hesitate in give him a sermon in the middle of the whole hospital) he left the room, heading to where jaemin’s room was. he wasn’t awake when the doctor came inside so he haven't heard what he said. he didn’t know if his boyfriend was okay or not.
the first thing he saw when he opened the door was the doctor standing right next to the stretcher where his boyfriend was laying. jaemin was still with his eyes closed so he thought that maybe the effect of the anesthesia had not yet worn off, so instead of panicking even more he decided to think positive, just like yuta said.
‘is he going to be okay?’ the doctor finally realized jeno’s presence in the room and he lifted his head from his papers, noticing that yuta and hendery were also inside the room. he sighed, looking back to his notebook, and that made jeno worry just a little. that and also the fact that he couldn’t read the doctor’s facial expression.
‘the surgery went as planned and without any inconveniences. he’s still with anesthesia but he should wake up soon.’ and for the first time in hours jeno could finally breathe in peace knowing that the love of his life was alright. the doctor approached them to explain a little more about the cochlear implants.
‘jeno?’ they heard jaemin’s weak voice after a couple minutes and they immediately turned around. jaemin was finally awake and looking at them. he had puffy eyes, messy hair and a very remarkable sleeping face. adorable.
‘nana.’ jeno approached his boyfriend, standing next to where jaemin was and carefully holding the boy’s hand. behind him yuta and hendery buffed.
‘really? I changed his diapers when he didn’t even know how to walk and the first person he asks for is his boyfriend? I can’t believe this betrayal.’
‘I know right? I was right next to him while you were changing his diapers and he stabs us in the back like this? I was his first boyfriend, come on.’ but jaemin and jeno were in his own little world, not caring about what they were saying. well, jaemin couldn’t hear it and jeno was just ignoring them.
‘how are you feeling?’ he started to caress jaemin’s hair in a very careful way, he didn’t want to hurt him. jaemin just smiled at his boyfriend’s actions, taking jeno’s free hand and slowly playing with his fingers.
‘I’m a little dizzy and my head hurts.’ by saying that and giggling at the same time he managed to get a little smile from his boyfriend even though jeno was worried as hell. he intertwined his fingers with jaemin’s, giving small kisses on the back of his hand.
‘the doctor said that you will be discharged in a few days and that we’ll have to come back next month so they can turn the implants on.’ the smile that appeared on jaemin’s face was the most beautiful smile jeno had ever seen. his eyes were sparkling like the stars in the dark sky.
‘just a month left.’ he said and jeno smiled at him too. it was a smile of true happiness because jaemin was finally making it. a smile that reached his eyes and made them look like two little moons. ironic, isn’t it? jeno’s eyes were the moon and jaemin’s eyes held the stars while their smiles were brighter than the sun.
‘just a month.’ jeno mumbled and he leaned closer to jaemin, giving him softs and cute kisses on his lips without even caring about hendery and yuta looking at them, still sulking because of jaemin’s ‘betrayal’.
that month passed so fast that without realizing it they were already back in that hospital. they were sitting right in front of the doctor’s desk, he wasn’t there yet but jaemin was already nervous. it was his last day living in his soundless and quiet world. he went inside that building knowing that his whole life was about to change.
jeno was sitting next to jaemin, holding his hand and looking at him. jaemin was so nervous that his hands were shaking and his legs too, and it was understandable. not every day you can hear for the first time in your life. he started giving some kisses all over jaemin’s face, making him smile shyly.
‘nervous?’ jaemin rolled his eyes, but he wasn’t able to hide the smile that was on his face. he couldn’t stop smiling every time he looked at jeno and realized that in a couple hours he’d be hearing his voice.
the doctor went inside and jeno separated from jaemin. the man stood in front of jaemin with a kind smile on his face.
‘are you ready?’ jaemin looked at jeno, who smiled at him while he held his hand a little tighter, and after that he sighed, looking back to the doctor and finally nodding with his head. the doctor guided them to another room where a big computer was and he kindly asked them to sit down.
he started by doing a small check up on jaemin's implants, making sure that everything was completely fine with them and then he proceeded to plug them into the computer so he could control them better. jeno didn’t let go of jaemin's hand at any time and jaemin was so thankful for that.
none of that would be possible without his boyfriend. without him he would never have had that ambition of wanting to hear anything, he would have stood still without doing anything about it. and even if he decided to do something, jeno was the one who was always there to give him the strength he needed to continue, to achieve his dream. to make him happy.
‘okay, I’m going to turn them on now.’ the doctor said and jaemin felt his heart stop beating while the man was looking at that computer. the whole world froze in that moment and jaemin found himself frozen in his place too. he just couldn’t believe what was happening.
after years, well, his entire life of not hearing anything he was about to enjoy the world as a whole with images, smells, textures, sounds… the room went from absolute silence to small noises that could be heard in the background, as if they were far away. his first reaction was to frown and he started to look around, trying to figure out what was creating that noise. it was his first time so he didn’t know that the further away a sound was, the less it was heard.
‘love, are you okay?’ jaemin didn’t really understand those words since he didn’t associate any sound with any word or letter yet, but those four words were about to make him cry. he turned around and faced jeno, looking at him with glassy eyes. he did it. he achieved his dream. he was hearing jeno’s voice.
his voice was low and deep but sweet and filled with love at the same time, jaemin could feel it. it wasn’t what he was expecting, it was way better. it was still the most perfect sound in the world for him. it gave jaemin a feeling of belonging, it made him feel home and loved.
‘jaemin?’ he felt jeno’s fingers caressing his cheek as he heard him talking again. jaemin. that was his name, right? jaemin.
‘jaemin…’ now it was him who was saying his name, but his voice wasn’t like jeno’s. jeno’s voice was confident and firm, but his was weak and almost unheard. he put his hand on his throat, smiling out of pure happiness and letting out a loud sob, surprising himself.
‘how do you feel?’ jeno asked as he softly cleaned jaemin’s tears, caressing his cheeks with his thumbs and making eye contact with his boyfriend. jaemin smiled widely, biting his lower lip and sniffing.
‘happy.’ he pulled jeno closer to him, wrapping his arms around his boyfriend’s neck and hiding his face on his chest. he carefully put his ear next to jeno’s heart and he was able to hear a really low but accelerated heartbeat. he giggled, giving a small kiss on his cheek.
‘I love you.’ he whispered and he felt jeno’s hands cupping his face. their eyes met again and jaemin realized in that moment how much he loved him.
‘i love you too.’ he had a very strong feeling on his chest, one of those that can make you cry, and he did. he cried because in that moment he knew that he loved jeno way too much, he cried because he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, he cried because he was deeply in love with lee jeno and he felt like the luckiest person in the world to have him by his side.
he started college more than three before without wanting a boyfriend and now look at him. he met his soulmate, the love of his life, and he turned his life around in a 360 degree turn in just three years. the happiest three years of his life.
that day jeno and jaemin left the hospital at 1pm, but they didn't arrive at their apartment until 3 in the morning. they spent the whole day outside. jeno showed jaemin everything; the birds singing, the sound the waves made when they hit the rocks, they listened to music together and lots of other things that jaemin found amazing.
he didn’t know how awful the sound of the cars were or the annoying loud noise motorbikes had, he didn’t even know that motorbikes had any kind of sound. they went to the movies and jaemin was fascinated with the different types of voices that actors had. in his own silent world every voice was similar but in the real world everything was different.
and you will wonder, which one was jaemin’s favourite sound? the purrs of the cat that they found in the park? the sound of the breeze moving the trees’ leaves? or it may be the laughter of those children while they ate ice cream. but no. wrong, wrong, and wrong. without any doubts his favourite sound was jeno’s laugh.
when he heard it for the first time he felt as if he fell madly in love with his boyfriend again, and believe me, he already was. once, jaemin read in a poetry book that one of the most beautiful ways to love is when you fall in love with the same person every day, and every single day for three years he fell in love with lee jeno over and over again.
they stepped inside their apartment while they were giggling. they didn’t know why, they were just extremely happy. jeno closed the door and he approached jaemin, who was leaning against a wall and looking at him with a soft smile.
without saying anything he put his hand on his waist and he leaned closer, joining his lips with jaemin’s and starting a soft kiss that his boyfriend didn’t take long to reciprocate. it was a slow kiss, painfully slow, but they liked it that way. doing things slowly made them feel like they had a lifetime to be together, and just the thought of that made them happy.
after a couple minutes of just them kissing, jaemin started to giggle between jeno’s lips and that made him feel a little confused. he separated himself from jaemin, licking his bottom lip and giving a small kiss on his nose.
‘what’s so funny, pretty?’ jaemin put his hands on jeno’s shoulders, shaking his head as he continued with his soft giggles.
‘it’s nothing… I just really like the sound our lips make when we kiss.’ jaemin suddenly felt jeno’s fingers under his shirt, caressing his abdomen with his fingertips and making him bite his lower lip, trying not to let out some noises at his boyfriend’s actions. he was really sensitive when it came to jeno.
‘oh, really? would you like to hear that sound more?’ jaemin didn’t say anything, he just smiled at jeno’s words, approaching him and starting to kiss him again, now a little more faster than before. now both jeno’s hands were under jaemin’s shirt, making the boy’s breathing a little heavier than before.
the next thing jaemin knew was that jeno was carrying him to their bedroom while his lips were on his neck, leaving some small bites and kisses there. jeno carefully put jaemin on their bed, now starting to unbutton his shirt buttons one by one and lowering his kisses, which were now in his collarbones.
jaemin closed his eyes as he put one of his hands in jeno’s hair, pulling a bit of it as he was letting soft sighs escape from his mouth. jeno’s lips on his body felt way too good to be true and his boyfriend knew exactly where he should kiss to make him feel like heaven with just a couple touches.
jeno went back to kiss his neck after taking off his shirt as he held jaemin’s hands on both sides of his head, fingers intertwined and jaemin’s body pressed against the bed. he left a soft kiss on jaemin’s lips, smirking when he pulled away and he saw the cute little mess he made out of his boyfriend in just a couple minutes.
‘so pretty.’ he whispered, making jaemin blush heavily. then jeno made a really slow path of kisses from jaemin’s lips to his chest, and he was being so slow that jaemin was starting to feel frustrated with that. then jeno gave a soft lick to one of jaemin’s nipples, gently biting it afterwards and that made jaemin let out a really embarrassed noise, at least for him. a kinda loud and high-pitched moan.
he sat down in bed like it was a reflex action with his cheeks even more red than before and his eyes widening. jeno frowned as he giggled at jaemin’s actions, but he was a little confused with those.
‘what was that?’ jaemin asked and jeno suddenly realized. jaemin had never heard himself moan and he didn’t know how whiny and loud he could be.
‘a moan, love.’ he said and jaemin looked at him.
‘and… and I do that every time we…?’ jeno chuckled at jaemin’s cuteness as he nodded with his head, approaching him and giving him a small kiss on his nose. jaemin just looked away.
‘am I always this loud?’ jeno didn’t know if he should answer that question. should he really tell him that he was way worse sometimes? jaemin wouldn't look the neighbors in the eye ever again. but he couldn’t lie to him.
‘actually… this wasn’t as loud as you used to be.’ jaemin felt like his face was about to explode from shame, so he just hid it on jeno’s chest, feeling jeno’s arms around his waist.
‘why didn’t you tell me?’ he whined, giving jeno a small punch in his abdomen and the older caressed his back, just laughing at the moment.
‘because I love hearing you like this and if I had told you, you would have stopped moaning. I didn’t want that.’ jeno felt another soft punch on his stomach and he laughed a little more, delighting jaemin’s ears without knowing it.
‘I hate you so much.’ jaemin whispered and jeno shook his head, hugging his boyfriend a little tightly and giving small kisses on his head.
‘you love me.’ jaemin separated from jeno just a little, enough to face him and be just a few millimeters away at the same time. jeno was smiling, he had that perfect smile that reached his adorable eyes that jaemin always loved seeing. he just couldn’t pretend to be mad at him. he started kissing him again, another slow kiss filled with love and shared smiles.
‘I love you.’ he whispered between the kisses and jeno loved hearing that because he knew that jaemin meant what he was saying, he really did. his mouth worked faster than his brain at that moment and his heart made him say something, but he also meant it, so he didn’t regret it. not even a little bit.
‘marry me.’ he didn’t feel nervous after saying that, why should he? he was deeply in love with his boyfriend and jaemin was deeply in love with him too. that wasn’t going to change anytime soon. the only thing he heard was jaemin’s laugh.
‘marry you? you haven't even bought me a ring.’ jeno’s hand searched for jaemin’s and when they found each other he intertwined their fingers, shrugging with his shoulders.
‘I don’t need a stupid ring to prove that I love you more than I’ve ever love anything in my life, I just need you by my side.’ he said that while he was staring at jaemin’s eyes, their foreheads were together and they were just a few inches away from each other.
‘marry me.’ jeno said again and jaemin couldn’t help it but to smile widely. he loved jeno. jeno made him feel safe, made him feel like home, he made him feel loved every single second they spent together. jeno was his other half and they were going to spend the rest of their lives together, so he didn’t have to think twice.
‘I’ll marry you.’