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Baekhyun stopped eating his instant noodles and looked at Chanyeol straight in the eyes for some seconds, making the latter turn to look at him, still chewing the food.
“I love you.” Baekhyun said.
“Of course, I love you too, bro.” Chanyeol smiled at him sweetly, unaware of the real meaning of those three words his friend said.
Baekhyun felt nervousness travel all over his body, from head to toe. He was angry because Chanyeol was too clueless to understand what he meant. He was on the verge of crying.
Before Chanyeol could turn away and take some more noodles, Baekhyun finally decided to cup the taller's face with his hands, making the taller confused.
They stared at each other for two or three seconds, which seemed like eons to Baekhyun while he stared at Chanyeol's big, round eyes that always had that natual spark he always loved.
The smaller then quickly leaned closer to his friend and kissing him.
Chanyeol didn't move his lips. He only looked at the other in shock. Baekhyun's lips were soft against his, and they moved slowly, trying to taste that moment while it lasted.
Chanyeol was tempted to reply to the kiss, and he almost did, but it would've been unfair to give false hopes to his best friend. So he stood still, softly pushing away Baekhyun a little. “Baek-…”
However, he didn't seem to want to stop, even if he knew he shouldn't do it, even if he knew Chanyeol only sees him as nothing more than his best friend.
The younger finally pushed Baekhyun away, yet too shocked to say anything that would make sense.
“Baekhyun…”
The smaller teared up. “You should've stopped me, you stupid fuck!”
Chanyeol didn't know what to do in that situation: whether he should ignore what just happened, or hug him and comfort him.
“I know you don't like me that way, you've been too dumb to even realize I've liked you for so long. But I couldn't resist anymore… I'm sorry…”
Baekhyun ran out of their dorm and went to Sehun and Jongdae's one for that night, telling them what happened.
———
Baekhyun and Chanyeol hadn't talked for two weeks, and the older didn't know if it were the best choice for them.
He knew he ruined their friendship. Even if they started talking again and act as if nothing ever happened that evening, he knows that they will never go back to before that moment.
But as he entered his dorm, he saw Chanyeol, and he felt the need to talk to him as soon as possible to at least clear the situation.
“Hey…”
Chanyeol turned to look at him. He looked normal.
“Um, Hi.”
“How's it going these days? Anything new?” Baekhyun didn't really want to start with that topic, so he went slow on talking with his roommate.
“I guess you can see it since we live here together and we attend almost all the same classes. What do you want to talk about?” His face was still soft and sweet. Nothing changed about him, apart from a smile that was no longer there when he looked at the shorter.
Baekhyun sat on his bed. His anxiety could be seen from miles away. “Yeah… I want to clarify the situation. I can't continue thinking about it.”
“I understand. That's all I could think these days too. I don't want to lose you… But at the same time, I can imagine how hurt you must be when you look at me…”
A veil of sadness showed on Chanyeol's face, as he looked at the other.
“… And you must feel sad too. I know I ruined everything, but I don't want our friendship to end because I like you. I will try to stop. You don't have to worry about me being hurt if I'm with you. Ignoring each other would be worse…” Baekhyun couldn't look at Chanyeol's eyes.
Chanyeol looked at him with a sad face, crossing his legs. “But I worry. I don't want you to be even more hurt, so tell me the best way… I would try liking you, but my heart says it likes girls instead of boys.”
Baekhyun knew his best friend was straight. As straight as a ruler, and he couldn't help feeling even more sorry for kissing him that night.
“I know you can't like me. And I'm still sorry for kissing you against your will… Let's just try staying friends again. I promise I won't be hurt. I will overcome this crush I have on you.”
But inside his heart, Baekhyun didn't want to stop loving the other. He didn't want to stop admiring him every time he woke up with his messy hair and eyes lost into space, he didn't even want to feel sad because he knew Chanyeol would never like him that way.
“I get it. But really. Whenever you feel bad about it you should tell me.” Chanyeol said, still having a worried look on his face.
Baekhyun smiled comfortingly at him, somewhat managing to hide his sadness in seeing his friend like that. “I will. Now let's have dinner!”
———
With time, the two of them seemed like they almost got to normality. They would talk a lot whenever they met. They would watch movies at night, together in their dorms. They would even fall asleep in the same bed when the movie would be extremely boring.
It was all normal. Except that they weren't too touchy anymore. They weren't always so sweet. They stopped saying “I love you” even as a joke.
Baekhyun thought it would be the best like this. That if they would proceed this way, he'd get over him, even if slowly. He thought his feelings for Chanyeol were starting to vanish.
However, one day Chanyeol introduced him his girlfriend.
A cute and small girl, with long brown hair, that she usually put in a top bun, pretty lips, big and round eyes. She was very energetic too. She was exactly the ideal type for Chanyeol.
They got along very well. They were a cute couple, which Baekhyun supported, and was happy for Chanyeol to have found his special person in his heart.
Baekhyun showed smiles and laughs whenever they met. But his heart ached seeing them.. He was jealous, of them holding hands and kissing.
Though time kept passing and they graduated. And he couldn't do anything for it, as he was getting used to seeing Chanyeol happy with someone else. But his heart kept wanting that tall guy with a puppy-like face only for him even if he couldn't.
Maybe Baekhyun would get over Chanyeol one day..