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The doorway to my heart
Laura Schmechel
The doorway to my heart
No one was allowed in
All the light came from the other side of the doorway
Where I found him
The doorway to my heart
Is a beautiful place
Surrounded by trees
It kept me pleased
Till he came along and cracked it open
Now all the hinges to the door have been broken
They have been broken down by one simple phrase
“You deserve so more than some awful mistakes”
The doorway to my heart
It stayed open for a year
No one but him has ever seen clear
Into my heart, my soul, my life
Into my dreams and by delight
No one has ever came close to him
Everyone else’s lights stayed dim
The doorway to my heart
It has a sun on the door
It’s rusty and old
But on the inside everything is gold
That’s all because he saw my ways
And helped me realize that I’ll be okay
He makes me smile, laugh, and cry
But then I had to say goodbye
The doorway to my heart
It’s been closed for a while
I fear that no one can make me smile like he did with his gorgeous eyes
His personality
His smile
His laugh
His goodnites
Sometimes they made me fear for my life because I knew I could not have him
No matter how hard I tried
No matter how much I had to lie
And I would do it all again just for a glance!
Because he’s the only guy who could ever make me dance
Both on the inside and out, he made me glide
And now he’s broken the door to the inside
The doorway to my heart
Has changed my life
He’s made me lose sleep, friends, and nights
Up talking to him till 2 in the morning
Tons of new things we both were learning
Not only about each other, but about our hearts
What we want to do in life
How to start
How to make ourselves happy
It was all extremely sappy
But we made it work, sappiness and all
And all it took was one single call
To make me smile all through the night
For him to simply change my life
The doorway to my heart
Makes me wish I could hate him
But I know better than to be mistaken
Everything comes back to him in every single line
Everything comes back to him
As I continue to pine
“He loves me,”
“He loves me not,”
Is that really all I’ve got?
But then I look and I see that he’s perfect
And in those moments it all felt worth it
The doorway to my heart
He left it so quickly leaving me thinking
I could even feel my heart start sinking
And I thought “is that good enough for you? Is staying really that hard to do?”
But apparently it was considering he was gone
Leaving me with a door that isn’t even hanging on.
The doorway to my heart
It is forever broken
The doorway to my heart
Will always be outspoken
The doorway to my heart
All the insides are dying
The doorway to my heart
All it’s life isn’t trying
Because it knows better than to fall for someone new
Which is also extremely hard to do!
Because I loved him.
I loved him!
And everyone knew
He was what I wanted
He was a dream come true.
I slept on his shoulder
I beamed in his light
I broke my own heart
I ruined my life
So be careful when you open your door
Because once it's broken it can't be fixed anymore
Find happiness in things other than life
Find happiness in yourself, your interests, your nights
The doorway to my heart
Will stay unopened until he shows up and changes my mind
And I am left with a million goodbyes
No one will ever be him.
The man who changed my life
The man who made me feel special
Who filled me with delight
Who made sure I was okay
Even in the darkest nights
The man who made me break by heart and then vanished from plain sight
And I know that door will be broken for the rest of time.