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"I knew you were trouble when you walked in but I'd still let myself be enticed by you. I am still willing to watch you from a far."
Doyoung came back to reality when he felt a light elbow hit from Junghwan. Creased forehead as his daydream was intruded, mouthing "What?" once he faced the younger beside him.
"Still got the chance to tweet a cryptic confession, huh? Is she here? Is he here?" Junghwan flashed a teasing grin before started light jabbing him. Doyoung just shook his head to face the altar, not missing the chance to glance on the other side of the huge church.
Doyoung's homeroom teacher invited all of her students from her main section which is them and Doyoung have seen few familiar faces of alumni students that he must have seen either on school or on the hanging class pictures on one side of their room.
People on the same age as him or close to his age filled the seat on the back row while the elders and probably the family members on the front and he's fine with where he is sitting, a few row away from few of his classmates including him.
10 minutes left and the ceremony is about to start, still waiting for the main leads of the event. chitchats are everywhere but not too loud to disrespect the holy place. Doyoung let himself be in awe as he stares on the details of the church. it was huge, few birds get inside and out through the small windows opened for them, as three to four butterflies flew around, too on the other side doors.
He heard few of his classmates take pictures from here to there, some offered him to join so he just smiles and nod, do some poses until they are satisfied. Junghwan, too joined to take pictures with his classmates, his cousin must have earned eyes on his. such a charmer.
Just like Doyoung, Junghwan is sociable enough to survive places where there are nothing with him but pure strangers, and now even when doyoung's focus was not on him, he can feel that Junghwan is doing fine conversing with his classmates.
"Doyoung-ah," Doyoung searched the faint but familiar voice that was calling his name until he, again felt his cousin's elbow on his, it's starting to hurt. He groaned at the guy sated beside him before he found where the voice came from.
Doyoung shifts his head to the right side, a little forward on their row, he spotted Hyunsuk looking at him, all smiley, gesturing either phone or call with his pinky finger and thumb stem up the three other fingers closed to his palm, shaking it a bit. Doyoung smiled and nodded until he noticed that Hyunsuk is just a few heads away from him.
Doyoung shook his head, waking himself from the silly thought of interacting with him.
Few months left– 2 and a half to be exact and he's about the graduate from senior high school, soon he doesn't have to see him and feel something inside him when he's on sight. He can manage those left months without interacting with him. If the other was interested in that
Doyoung fished out his phone, opening it he was welcomed by the text message of his Hyunsuk hyung's invitation to meet him later which he instantly sent his response of sure.
He hasn't seen his Hyunsuk hyung for so long until today so at least he found another reason to stay until hopefully the after party tonight.
Soon the bell started ringing, a chime that made them all feel giddy, Doyoung hopes everyone are just like him because he's feeling a little nervous with what could happen.
It's his first time attending a wedding. And he has to be under the same roof as him. Not that he's complaining but, hoping that this was the last time.
Soon the wedding priest started the ceremony, Doyoung clapped when others claps, stands up when they stood up, the first timer just follows along.
Now Doyoung felt that the ceremony is about to end when it is finally the corner of the sharing their vows, obviously he's not the one on the altar but it is really nerve wracking that Doyoung is feeling it to the bones.
And the heart melting messages was sealed with the kiss granted by the priest, with a guidance from God above. Visitors made a celebratory noise by clapping their hands and few congratulatory screams filled the loving air.
Doyoung roamed his eyes on the scenery of sea of people, on their faces there is blooming smile etched on. Doyoung wanted it to get tattooed on his brain, where everyone in the room has a wide smile plastered on their faces, until his eyes met a pair of eyes.
The smile was obviously genuine and to his surprise, the smile went even wider that he can't help but to mirror it. Maybe the staring contest went a bit longer than it should be as he felt Junghwan elbowing him again.
Without wanting to end the eye contact, Doyoung decided to act childish and illogical than his usual self then sent his cousin elbows back, still smiling to the other and sharing the short lived up dreams.
Until he decided to end it short– when the people beside him started talking to him, and that's when Doyoung realized, he's really an ephemeral of joy to him.
Doyoung lowered his head, afraid that someone might caught him on act devastated over the short and very insignificant moment– but he knows to him, it was something, not enough but he'd be fine with it.
He's thankful that once in his life, he got to see him smiling, still from a far but not for anyone anymore, but to him. Doyoung tried stretching the ends of his lips, to make himself at least far uplifted in a way he can't come and put into words yet.
Claps and delighted noise people made inside this holy place when the piano started playing, Doyoung only raised his head when an angelic voice started singing, and utter less, it made doyoung's heart thumped in triple speed inside his cage.
And how the familiar lyrics hits Doyoung, pinch his insides in a painless way, he love the feeling of it. Yedam singing this certain song made it even special, feels like he's the one who just got married by the way Yedam's voice sang every lyric of it as if he owns it.
Doyoung feed himself with the view of Yedam on the front, singing his life with a smile flashing. The wedding visitors head swaying to sides in a manner obviously enjoying Yedam serenading all of them inside this holy place.
Yedam really sounds like an angel singing if you'll ask Doyoung.
Yedam was far enough for Doyoung but as Yedam sounds to his ears, it's enough for him to feel that Yedam is close to his heart. The way Yedam's voice resonated in the four-cornered place, Doyoung's heart was filled with pure contentment on how Yedam's voice simply make him feel like a king seated on his throne.
Yedam was far from doyoung's reach and the way he watches Yedam holds the mic, from the way his eyes flutters open and sparkles as if it holds a galaxy for him. how Yedam clutches his hand and puts it on his chest.
Doyoung unaware that he mirrored Yedam on those simple gestures, the confidence his smile has, the free hand placed close to his heart and even how he sang the song in tiny, chorus with Yedam.
"Nothing can stop this love we have,
over and over again they try,
But in the end it's just you and I,
Nothing can stop us, nothing can stop us now.."
Doyoung was so into singing Jeremy Passion's Nothing with Yedam that he wasn't sure if he really saw Yedam looking at him, too. He was so into staring at Yedam's facial expression and on his way of falling hardest to the singer.
Yedam ended the song gracefully, and visitors even chanted a request to sing one more song which he shyly tried to turn down but when Mrs. Ashley, their homeroom teacher asked him if he can he just nodded.
Doyoung watched in awe as Yedam talked to the pianist, visitors clapping for him, to Yedam professionally swatted the praises in the air.
"I'll be going out now, I'll just see you later," Doyoung patted Junghwan's thigh first, bidding his goodbye before standing up, knees slightly having hard time to work properly.
Yedam caused this, once again.
Doyoung heaved a sigh once he finally got inside a comfort room, hands on the sink as he try to gain back his balance that he lost the moment he heard Yedam sung his favorite song, in a wedding, in front of those people.
He remember tweeting the link yesterday– wonder it that was really a coincidence or Yedam really liked that song, but the way Yedam belted it, he seemed to really loved it.
Yedam made Doyoung proud once again, he's such a pride for Doyoung even if they haven't even talked. He remembered it, if it is really possible for classmates of two years to never interact? As in never, not even once.
The thought of Yedam hating Doyoung is too much that tears started welling up on his eyes, blurring his sight to see his reflection on the mirror.
He closed his eyes as bit his lower lip, trying not to wail in a public over some unrequited love is the least thing he imagined will be the reason of his public self shame.
Doyoung harshly sucked up an inhale before getting his handkerchief to undo his messy state. While calming himself, and removing the flaws of his suit, he felt his phone vibrated on his pocket.
He stared on his reflection on the mirror. Before making faces, making sure if he can still conceal what he feels inside with his dorkiness, and he still can.
He fished out his phone and their group chat was up, asking for him to hurry up so they can take a group picture with the newly-wed. Wow. Are they for real? Literally waiting for some nobody?
Doyoung skimmed once again how he looked before he sent his response to them. At least 5 of his classmates mentioned him. Really flattering.
Doyoung came back inside and he spotted few of his classmates looking at him, clueless he just smiled at them apologetically then he bows his head. They just laughed at him. They are on the line-up next to other group of people to take photos with the main leads of today's event.
Doyoung waved his hand to Hyunsuk who was smiling at him, until he was asked by Hyunsuk to come to him. He called for Junghwan who was busy having talks with few of his classmates so he can introduce Junghwan to his senior.
Junghwan excused himself from the group of Haruto and followed him. Before they could even get close to Hyunsuk Yedam already came to his side, flashing his smile to them. And even before he can back out Hyunsuk has seen him.
Junghwan decided to drag Doyoung by his wrist since the older robotically stopped on his track, weird. Junghwan made a mental note to tease him later.
Hyunsuk had his arms wide open for Doyoung and since the older was still hesitant, he pushed it a little that Doyoung almost tripped over Yedam. Making another scene, eh?
He only bowed to Yedam as apology then slowly get closer to Hyunsuk's arms. He wrapped himself on the warmth of taller before patting it. He really need a hug from someone right now.
Once they broke the hug, Hyunsuk is back to baby him again. He missed the feeling of being babied by Hyunsuk hyung, it has been so long.
"How have you been, Dobby? It's been a while," Hyunsuk pinching both of his cheeks before smiling cheekily at him.
"Doing fine, Hyung. And stop it, pleash," Doyoung trying to smile while removing Hyunsuk's hands on his cheeks which he easily got.
Feeling stares from Hyunsuk's friend, he bowed his head to them 90° for formalities and soon Hyunsuk remembers to introduce them to each another.
"Dobby, Hwan-ie, this is Jihoon, my boyfriend, alumni from Mrs. Jisu's section, too. Our classmates and friends, Yoshinori, Junkyu, Mashiho, Jaehyuk, and his boyfriend, Asahi." Doyoung shook hands with each of them as well as Junghwan.
"I don't have to introduce Yedam to you right? You are classmates after all," Doyoung wanted to decline that, tell him to introduce him, too, to Yedam while Hyunsuk introduced Junghwan to him.
And now there's something Doyoung is envious of Junghwan. He's got to hold Yedam's hands. Even if it was a swift and instant move for formalities, he can't help but to feel that way. He has never. Lord, when?
Before he can even mock up with his sulking heart, they are being called again, his classmates are now on the front, with their homeroom teacher Mrs. Ashley Park and his now husband, Mr. Harry Park.
He bowed to Hyunsuk and his friends to follow them when he felt a hand on his shoulder. Raising his head, he was welcomed by the sight Yedam smiling at him, mind blanking, not knowing what to do, he just nodded to him with a small smile as Doyoung can't bring himself to calm down.
"After the reception I'll see you all on after party, okay? Enjoy the night, okay?" Mrs. Ashley smiled to them before bowing, so they all bowed, too. They just finished taking few shots altogether, with Yedam still by his side.
They shouted their small congratulatory messages to the couple. Before parting ways he'd seen Mrs. Park thanked Yedam, instead of loving the scene, he follow his classmates on the way to the reception.
And they did, on Hyunsuk's circle Dobby and Junghwan was added, temporarily since Doyoung doesn't to be with any of his classmates, he stayed on Hyunsuk side, from reception until here.
Junghwan was busy conversing with Jeongwoo, his classmate and one of the singers earlier that Doyoung missed. He only got to know when Junghwan told him. Junghwan, Haruto, Junkyu, Yoshi and Jeongwoo has been talking even before they went to reception. So it's not a shocker to see them still having that long talk.
They came here 6 at night, when the sun was about to set. Lucky for them because the venue of the after party was a garden hill, but bound to be an event place for these kind of formal event.
Fairy lights displays hanged on the trees from not so far from where they are, as well as the lit lamppost on the path, trailing from the entrance gate. Few flowers on the path walk earlier, and up until their seats.
Doyoung has been quietly sitting beside his Hyunsuk Hyung who was busy laughing with his boyfriend and friends while Junghwan on his other side was busy doing the exact thing but with his classmates. And Doyoung was thankful for that, he doesn't have to entertain his cousin since he's very sociable person.
Doyoung sip on his non-alcoholic wine after he tire his eyes from gazing all over the place. Lights putting up display on the venue. There's a mellow music playing, few pairs dancing on the center, and it's a sore in Doyoung's eyes.
Doyoung fished out his phone, he doesn't feel like watching people dance with their partners while he's here with his unrequited love for someone he hasn't even shared a talk with, not even 'hi-s and ho-s' that's just so unfair but at the same time he's the one to blame.
He can't have himself presented to Yedam even if they shared the two years of senior high school. He once attempted, but he just can't, after that one attempt, he has never had the guts to do so.
And this day is enough, it is elating to Doyoung that he's aware of how powerful Yedam is to him. How Yedam can make him feel contentment by simply watching him from a far, or just making him know where he is and where he could only be.
Am I doubting myself again? In this hour? Especially in this occasion? Doyoung woke himself up from his dark thoughts.
He must have been dreaming deep that he didn't notice that the few people on his side were all nowhere in his sight and there's. . .
a hand in front of him, from someone he never knew would go on his way, Yedam.
Brows almost connecting to one, that's when he came to realize that Hyunsuk was now in the center, alongside few of his classmates, he noticed their homeroom teacher was dancing there, too, with his husband.
Doyoung stood up and face his classmate, unsure what he should do, so he just go with holding Yedam's hand and before his mind go blank again, he will remember this moment and the question he had in mind just, why?
Doyoung didn't know how they made it to the center without him actually losing to his weakened knees or without his mind blocked out.
But one thing is for sure, his grip on Yedam's waist is strong, but if he won't he'll lose his balance, that's how weak he can get for Yedam.
The night air was cold, not freezing but still cold. Doyoung never meeting Yedam's eyes 'cause he know once he try, he's over.
They danced in rhythm, not exactly sure what the title of the song was playing but it was mellow, RNB type of song that is suited perfectly for the mood.
While Yedam was busy staring at the guy in front of him, both of his hands snaked on the taller's neck, his fingers intertwined in the back and probably Doyoung can feel how it trembles caused by both coldness of the night, and his shaking confidence that he didn't exactly know where he got.
But the moment he's seen Doyoung alone while other people danced in the slow music, he can't take his cowardice until here, so he went in the line of people wanting to get Doyoung's attention.
There's a lot going on inside Yedam's mind, on how, how did he get here, how come he's inside Doyoung's arms, how. . .
How come his stomach felt like there was something doing sommersault inside and his heart thumping so fast right now that it feels like it's about to jump out of his chest.
"Uhm,"
"Uhm,"
Oh, the way Doyoung looked at Yedam. Yedam mouthed 'sorry' and Doyoung watched how Yedam's lips moves and now Doyoung's up with what this night may lead them.
Doyoung never thought he'd be this close to his classmate. For almost 3 years since he got attracted to the other until he fully understand that his feelings wasn't easy to shrug anymore, that it was slowly a love that he knows will never be reciprocated.
It was just a normal day in their school, no events or occasion but the other class from the other room was loud, loud but it doesn't make ears bleed, but instead it makes them feel blessed to hear an angel sing, and that time, he peaked from the outside and he saw him.
Yedam was singing Angel 2 Me and that song was on loop on Doyoung playlist, that why it made a great impact to him, that up until now he still love that song.
And now, once again, it felt that everything's comung back to him, flashes of his memories where he sneakily tries his hardest to get a glimpse of the angel. Who was now on his hand. Smiling at him, flushing red, surely just like him.
Doyoung only nodded, sending Yedam a sign to continue but Yedam was quick to decline by shaking his head. His face lit and how his eyes twinkles, illuminated by the lights displayed and the moon from above.
"I like you."
Two figures stopped grooving and it feels like the whole world, too.