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Kazuha is a fairly calm person.
He isn’t prone to big emotions, exuding that relaxed vibe that can come off as aloofness, if not for the people who actually know him and can confirm he’s just… like that. Soothing.
(Jean likes to say the “aloofness” attracts a certain demographic of fans to 4NEMO, so he guesses no one can complain)
He’ll always make the most pondered choices, he’ll always be there to help is fellow colleagues in times of crisis, reliable and strong as everyone wants him. And he figures that fate bestowed upon him isn’t so bad. After all the stress is gone, the shenanigans those bastards (meaning Venti) get up to are pretty funny in their own right.
Except… in times like these.
In times like these, he allows his heart to clench and suffocate under the pressure, allows the feeling of loss so profound to engulf him to never let him out again, for just the few seconds he gets to see Xiao and Venti in a sweet embrace, comparing lyrics, stealing kisses and affectionate taps here and there. When all he can see is that, no distractions, no escape routes, no “Hey Kazuha it’s your time to record” comments to free him.
In these times he can’t afford to be calm, even if he wanted to, because he remembers what feeling that same embrace meant to him. How growing next to a star in the making and seeing it crumble under the full night sky, so bright, made him who he was and then almost broke him.
“We’re going to take the world by storm!” I can come up with all the cool moves and you can.... well i don't know look pretty!"
"Hey! I'll have you know I am extremely talented!"
"Oh yeah? What will you provide our duo with then, Mr. I'm so talented?"
"..."
"He he, thought so. Don't worry, we'll find something. If everything fails at least you can still be the prettiest."
"You really think so?"
"How many times do you need to hear me say you are pretty? So full of yourself, this is what i get for being-"
"Not that, stupid, you never let me speak. What i meant was... do you really think we'll... take the world by storm?"
"Of course. I'll promise it to you. Here and now."
"That's a very big promise to live up to."
"But I am sure we can do it. So I promise Kazuha. We'll become stars."
"You better not let me down Scara."
"I could never. Who else would take pity on you anyway?"
"HEY GET BACK HERE YOU INSSUFERABLE-"
In these times, he wonders what could have been. If the world didn't turn in unexpected ways.