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Eddie can’t die, Eddie was one of the strongest people I have ever known so he couldn’t die, right?
“Please, Eds don’t leave me.” I begged in to the night air, hell I would make a deal with the devil if it would mean Eddie was okay.
I should have told him, should have admitted how much I cared for him before he got shot because what if I never get to say it. Loving Eddie was probably the stupidest and best thing that had ever happened to me plus I got Christopher.
I’ve never had an actually family that cared and loved unconditional but I found that with the Diaz boys, even if Eddie could never love me back, I don’t think I can stop loving him.
“Buck, you alright?” Looking up I see Bobby and I sagged in relief.
“Bobby, Eddie…” I couldn’t stop myself from letting the tears fall as sobs over took me.
“Oh Buck.” Bobby’s strong arms wrapped around me and pulled me in to him.
“Bobby, I can’t lose him.” I whisper in to his neck.
“You won’t, Eddie’s strong Buck.” Cap says in a soothing way, his hands rubbing my back, like a parent would to a child.
A child…oh God Christopher. “Chris, Bobby how do I tell Chris?” More tears fell as I realized that Chris may lose another parent.
“He’s here Buck, Athena called Carla and had her bring Chris here.”
I pulled away and whipped my face quickly. “Where is he?” I look around frantically.
“Buck, you’re covered in his blood, you need to get cleaned up.” Bobby all but ordered picking up a bag I didn’t realize he had.
Look down I saw my shirt stained in Eddie’s blood same with his pants and hands, fuck I was a mass.
Bobby put an arm around my should and pulled. “I cleared it with the head nurse so that you can use the staff showers.”
I let him lead me because I needed to see Christopher and honestly Bobby was right seeing me covered in Eddie’s blood would traumatize him even more.
Bobby lead me to the staff showers and I made quick work of stripping down and hopping in the spray, letting it burn. My skin felt raw as I scrubbed Eds blood tinted the water pink. I want to breakdown again but I can’t, I need to be there for Chris and I can’t do that if I’m a mess.
I finish dressing and make my way back out to where Bobby plus Athena were waiting just outside the staff room.
“Buckaroo, oh baby.” Athena said in that motherly tone before pulling him in for a hug.
Fuck, I love my found family. “I’m okay Athena, I wasn’t the one shot.” He said pulling away lest he start crying again.
“I know but that doesn’t mean you’re not hurting.” She said going him a knowing look.
Athena Grant always saw through my bullshit and I loved her dearly for it. “I just need to see Chris.” The pleaded in my voice was audible to my own ears.
“This way.” Bobby pointed to what I knew was a private waiting room.
I rushed forward not bothering to look back at the pair and barreled in to the room, my eyes darted from the rest of the 118, Ana, Abuela and finally to Chris sitting beside his Abuela.
“Bucky!” Chris whined and basically threw himself at me.
I dropped quickly and caught him in my arms, letting my head rest on his as I kissed his head. “It’s going to be okay, superman.” I told him as hugged him tightly, felling his body shake.
“Family of Eddie Diaz?” A voice called out.