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2021-06-12
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when i would no longer follow you

Summary:

"You're terrible. Don't you have a heart?"
Not anymore.

Notes:

This work was inspired by manga chapters (namely 149 and 150, so it's somehow canon-compliant and contains spoilers of that; then, it will probably divergent from what's next, because the whole idea was born in my brain, before 151 and 152 came out, or it won't even address it, I think), overall relationship between Maki and Mai, two songs of Zoe Wees: "Girls Like Us" and "Control", and my heart still being broken over what occured, in the first place.

It contains of quick poem I wrote on my tumblr some time ago, being inspired then by Loi's "I Follow", which was the main reason I even considered writing something longer about Zenin's sisters, and two parts of actual fic: one will be written from Mai's and second from Maki's pov.

Hope you will enjoy it!
It's kinda sad, though. Mind the tags too! Rating will go up, probably when I will publish Maki's part.

Chapter 1: everywhere you go

Notes:

A quick poem, refering to Maki's and Mai's relationship, addressing mainly chapter 149 of Jujutsu Kaisen. Contains spoilers!

Maki's part is bold, and Mai's normal or italic.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

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everywhere you go, i'll follow

and everywhere you are is my home

 

i thought you were gonna follow me everywhere i would go

is it not true?

not a thing you once said?

and did?

 

so where?

where are you going now?

just leaving me behind?

the sea and its waters disturbed

rough

while the sky cracks from above

is it rain?

or what crying would feel like?

 

 

oh, you see 

it might be the time 

for my to finally stop 

only following around

 

a time for me to go

somewhere new 

the only place i can

on my own 

path yet unknown 

 

(me alone)

(waiting at shallow shore)

(for you to come home)

 

as you never were the one to follow anyone 

isn't it true? 

 

me being the one 

always chasing after you 

as far as i was capable of 

knees scraped and bruised

until i couldn't no more 

 

legs giving up 

while always trying to reach

(a little closer now)

hands and fingers extending 

only to came back with nothing 

as you turned away

 

all i ever saw

the back of your head 

 

(a silent goodbye)

(heart shattering)

(why to go where i could not follow?)

(for so long)

(promises forgotten)

(don't let go, 'kay?)

(i won't)

(was it not?)

(we're sisters, right?)

(what you once said?)

 

this time around

that's me going forward 

(voices calling)

don't look back

 

but you must 

stay and live on 

so strong and unyielding 

all you ever yearned to be 

so different from me

yet the same in many ways 

(ying and yang) 

 

as you never were the one to follow anyone 

isn't that right? 

(don't start now)

always the one to be chased around

(how does it feel like?)

 

you must survive 

for both of us 

(to live thorugh)

(you are me and i am you)

can you do that? 

 

as everything i ever wanted was 

indeed 

just to follow you 

my very existence 

but if you die now 

what will be left of me? 

 

but promise me one thing

i say as i smile now

giving you my all 

one last time 

a parting gift 

(whatever it takes)

 

destroy everything 

everything

big sister 

 

 

and maybe then 

when it's all over 

you will finally be

for the first time in your life 

the one to go and follow after me

 

(just come and find me)

(i'll wait)

(how much time you think it will take?)

 

(you still got work to do)

(after all)

 

ok, mai, let's get started

 

and all the stars can fall, i'll never leave your side

Notes:

Thank you for reading, hope you liked it! I already have this whole story planned out, just need to write it all down. I've started Mai's part, but I needed to postpone it, due to deadlines at college, that haunts me, eck. So it'll probably take some time for me to update, up to 2 weeks, I think, but I will try my best!