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She was still asleep, didn't want to wake her up, she looks so peaceful there sleeping beside me. She doesn't smile anymore, not after... I turn my head back, looking back to the roof. Touching my face, it's wet -apparently that is a thing now, crying without even knowing it- it's like my body is mourning him without me. I should stay and console her, but I can't stay here I don't want to see her wake up, I know she is dreaming about him, seeing her smiling happy face just disappear when she realizes it was just a dream, sometimes the good dreams are worse than the bad. No no not today -I'm not staple enough- it's not something I can take not today. So I take my coat, hat and the bag, and as quiet as I can, I go out. Running away like a coward. I know she needs me, but I can't -I'm too weak- I can't let her cry on my shoulder, not today.