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Before I start, yes this is a venting fic based off personal experiences; and the users mentioned here are real! Check them out if you want :] enjoy reading!
Tubbo welcome Stream
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Tubbo sighed before going on Twitch, he wasn’t able to stream or contact his friends for nearly 1 month. His friends and chat, though still thriving, have been either concerned/worried or joking about him being Jschlatt the 2nd. The truth was that he has been dealing with both his physical and mental health, a while ago he accidentally slit his throat during a panic attack, not thinking rationally like normal, the doctors obviously thought that he tried to attempt suicide regards of him saying it wasn’t, and here we are now, a fucked up throat and mental health. When his throat was slit, his laryngeal nerve was cut and a vocal cord was paralized, he had surgery 5 weeks ago, though his throat being almost a tiny bit better he had to keep the bandages on for extra measures, the doctors have informed him of his voice never being the same, always being quiet, husky, and unclear.
So he was frankly worried about reactions, since he hasn’t been able to contact Tommy, Ranboo, Wilbur, or any of his friends for a long while; finally clicking on the Twitch icon he started a stream, [Hi? Important announcement :)] He tweeted about his stream and waited, as expected his viewer count blew up to 125k, with Ranboo, Tommy, Jack, Phil, and Wilbur on the stream as well, a bit nervous he ended the starting screen and just had a writing app pulled up.
Konitz_: Tubbo?
kaibcat: No face cam???
Tommyinnit: TUBBO
Tommyinnit: TUBBO
Tommyinnit: TUBBO
catJ4m_: Face cam not working
solarbeam__: Camera?
IOVELYSMILE: is the camera not wokring?
Crysstion: Overlay not working monkaS
zaisewastaken: peepoLove peepoLove peepoLove peepoLove
God_OfMangos: 🙌streamer cam is gone🙌
‘Guys I know the camera overlay isnt their’ Tubbo typed, chat was rather confused but were still happy to know that their streamer was alive and well; ‘before I turn on the webcam you need to know what happened-’ Tubbo took a deep breath before explaining to everyone; ‘um Tw for mentions of harm i guess? im not good at triger warnings:)’
Mooshry_: harm..?
mollifords: are you ok?
‘So liek a month ago my mental health was really dropping fast so I took a break, I forgot to check socials and all broke my phone lol, about 4 weeks ago I had a panic attacknprobably my worst one so far, and slit my throat’ Tubbo stopped typing a bit and thought of what to put next. The mods thankfully were present and put the chat in slowmode so he wouldn’t get bombarded with questions; ‘my mum took me to the er and I got surgury so I wont be able to talk for a bit preferably, I can if i wanted to but since the surgury was recent it can mess up my thoat permanently’
that_one_softgirl: Tubbo…
intelligentgarbage: D:
MsGallant: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
d3adkennedys: atleas your ok right?
fern_i_i: VirtualHug VirtualHug VirtualHug
Fossabot: nimchi_,please stop spamming symbols! Thanks :)
nimchi_: sorry!!!!
‘I wont be permanently mute guys, but my voice will be forever husky unclear and quiet so heads up for future streams:)’ Tubbo closed the writing tab and turned on his face cam, you can clearly see the stitches still present and attached on his throat, he looked at the camera and simply waved then made a heart with his hands while smiling; looking at chat once more he read a few messages
kutizoey: That looks painful…
noonemoe: Im so glad your alive<3<3<3
Ranboo: Tubbo join vc3 after stream
Ranboo: Tubbo join vc3 after stream
StreamElements: @risingsolis, We currently have 17969 Subscribers PogU
Ranboo: Tubbo join vc3 after stream
quipqi: hope you recover well:(
jekjbean: make sure to rest!
zcelebrates: WE LOVE YOU TUBBO peepoLove
Waving chat goodbye he ended the stream and went to vc3, not clicking on the voice channel yet but just writing a quick message before leaving his room
-Tommy Pov-
A month ago Tommy noticed on how tubbo suddenly stoped texting back, he didn’t even read the messages it was just nothing, he texted Tubbos mom about this and she responded on how Tubbo wanted a health moment, Tubbo also managed to somehow break his phone again, feeling less worried by a significant amount Tommy wished Tubbo luck and continued on with his day. 2 weeks later Ranboo asked him if he knew where Tubbo went, “he’s just taking long health break, y’know we need that time to time, last time I took one it lasted almost 4 weeks hA Ha” “I understand we need those, should I tell the rest so they wont try and contact Tubbo?” Ranboo asked, “yes please” “awesome” “pog”
“You’re visiting soon at June 22nd right?” *(in 36 days, the current date here is May 17)
“yup, I already have my seat reserved and belongings almost packed up” “I cant wait till we do vlogs! Then I can show everyone that I’m taller than you”
“You wish, I actually grew a bit more im now 6’7 almost 6’8”
“wha- wha- no no no no no thats not.. whAt!? Your literal fucking, fucking giant motherfucker”
“PfT- ……………….”
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To say he was terrified was an understatement, his best friend, who he has known for more than 3 years could have fucking died and he would have no idea; tears started to form in his eyes just by thinking if his friend had died, looking at the stream he noticed that Tubbo turned on his facecam; the scar even though it was mostly protected with bandages looked fucking painful to say the least.
“Holy shit…” Wilbur whispered mostly to himself, Tommy had forgotten that he was in v3 with Ranboo, Phil, Jack, and Wilbur, faintly hearing sniffling on an end
“I-ill tell him to join the vc after stream.. He can text the channel” Ranboo said, his voice being wavering and quiet.
They all saw the text Tubbo semt and waited for him (the text says “brb guys mum reminded me to change itcy bandages:D)
A few minutes later everyone heard Tubbo join the voice channel, “Hi mate how are you?” Philza said not really knowing how to carry this topic, on Tubbos end they could hear faint typing ‘Other than my thoat im acually feeling better :) my mental health has been better than a few weeks ago’ “If you dont mind me asking what caused this?” Jack asked ‘oh that well I was having an anxiety attack and I dont know why my mind gets really muddled when I try to remember the exact details’
“Its fine Toby”
‘I um ended up cutting my throat resulting on my laryngeal being cut and a paralzed vocal cord..’
“Would it hurt to talk? I-I can cancel the trip to the uk if you need me to” Ranboo asked
‘Its okay :) I want you to be here I just wont talk for about 3ish weeks more so they can remove the stitches’
“Ok.. if you say so”
“Want to play origins? We can continue doing the exit launcher”
‘Yep! Ill get on right now’
“C’mon guys log on” Jack said, who was already on the server building an actual home
“Wait you fucking twat”
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June 23rd
Ranboo arrived yesterday! Tubbo got his stitches out on June 7th and didn't talk for 1 more week, I mean.. Lets take precautions o-o, He streamed on June 15th naming the stream [I can talk now:D], Twitter was really thrilled to hear the news and made Tubbo trending for 5 whole days! Though his voice was noticeably more raspy he was happy to interact with chat again, since he admitted being insecure about his scar after a dono asked about the scarf his fans started making drawings of him and his scar to make him more confident, later Tubbo was still streaming and reacted to the drawings, in the drawings he looked so confident to show his scar he started to tear up, (at least chat finally saw him cry🙄✋ /j please don't get mad XD) He couldn't eat anything sharp or hard so that was a bummer, at least he got to still eat his jam and bread[not toast sadge] so that was good. ANywAyS back to the present, June 23rd, Tubbo was currently sleeping upstairs while Ranboo was streaming downstairs, originally it was going to be the both of them but Tubbo fell asleep in the first 20 minutes of stream (wait wait im going to draw a quick representation of what im imagining based off Tubbos description)
Jackie gave us $3
~where is Tubbo? Did
he forget to join vc?~
“Ah yes I think he forgot to join, but I can do the lore without him! Im going to turn off notifications for now, we have to visit the panic room”
3llin: Hold hands chat
microwavenoisesgommmmm: Nooooooooooooo
just_callme_jess: no more happiness
voidphobic: LORE!
dreamnotfound_tv: LETS BUNCH TOGETHER CHAT!
-----like… in the middle of lore:D-----
“-I didn’t do it Sam! Wilbur he- he is trying to turn you against me-”
“Then why was your book in a chest close to the prison..”
“Thats not mine! I-I have my book its here see!? I have it thats not mine you have to believe me”
“I cant take any risks”
“Sa-” *thud*
Mikakyo_o: it sounded like something soft XD
P4ndaArtist12: what was that?
Mya47: did anyone hear that?
onix_the_dumdum: What happened o-o
Konitz_: no more lore
shmoroll: monkaS
ajchromatic: streamer?????
georgia101807: did he hit himself?
jesswasntfound: what?
unhabee: LETS SPAM 7
Brumin: Dont Spam!
Brumin: Dont Spam!
Brumin: Dont Spam!
Brumin: Dont Spam!
Chat could hear Tubbo laughing in the background, “Tubbo…. Why did you throw that” “! $@!& ! ~*^1&” the reply was not clearly heard
“ Tubbo is there?” Sam asked being confused
weatherboo: TUBBO
hellooooo33: RANBOO IS IN THE UK!?
BlearyEnd: XD
violet_vxn: TUBBO!!!!!
malus_live: Did he throw a pillow? monkaS
sesbirae: I cant hear what he said
04uni: RANBOO IS WITH TUBBO
Ranboo moved closer to the mic after throwing back the plush to Tubbo, “Surprise chat?”
=the end:) please give suggestions! Im always up for a oneshot request=
This is what I consider normal length