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Immortality:
~noun~
•the ability to live forever;
eternal life.
•the quality of deserving to be remembered for a long time; timelessness.
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Supposedly immortality is everyones dream, until they are immortal. Immortal beings generally would give everything to be mortal again.
Yanfei was no different. Maybe, once upon a time she didn't care about her immortality, focussing more on her job as a law consultant.
Back then, had she been asked if she would give up on being immortal, the half-adeptus would have laughed in their face and denied.
Immortality was seen as a curse by a lot of gods. Hell, even the Lord of Geo, Rex Lapis himself had expressed his distaste towards his own.
Whenever Yanfei asked the archon about it, he always brought up the loss of a loved one.
Having to keep on living after losing someone dear to you, that was something she didn't quite understand.
Rex Lapis did, apparently.
Yanfei had never experienced a 'loss of a loved one'. Actually, she barely had any time to spare outside of her duties. She didn't even have someone she'd consider a friend.
Sure, she'd chat with the other adepti and gods sometimes, but she wouldn't go as far as go call them friends... per se.
Yanfei never planned on making friends either, the loss that seemed an inevitable package deal with a friend was something she didn't feel like unpacking just yet. Or ever, for that matter.
After all, ignorance is bliss.
Fate had other plans for her.
Okay look, the half-adeptus may have told herself to not get involved with anyone, specifically mortals.
But something drew her in.
She wasn't sure when it had even happened, but before she knew it... Yanfei spend a lot more time around the wangsheng funeral parlor director.
'It's just because she seems so lonely all the time.'
Was the excuse the half-adeptus kept repeating in her head.
What she'd never admit, is that she got attached to a mortal.
When Rex Lapis had given up his gnosis -and immortality with that-
Yanfei didn't understand why he would do such a thing.
But now, thinking back at all those little moments spend together with her companion. She did understand.
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Burying someone dear to you is probably one of the hardest things ever.
First Rex Lapis, then Hu Tao.
And Yanfei felt alone.
Even if nothing changed, she felt like the littlest speck in a huge world. She had nothing left in Liyue harbor, nothing to anchor her to the place.
Staying... staying would only hurt more, wouldn't it?
Now that Yanfei experienced what it is like to live, her answer changed. She would give up her immortality in a heartbeat if it ment she got to spend one more minute with them.
But now it was too late.