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- I do not love you.
It was the last thing I said to Stiles before leaving Beacon Hills. I left with Jennifer. If I knew what would happen in the future I would never tell him that.
After I left I didn't contact anyone from Beacon Hills.
I let Scott work it all out since he was the genuine alpha.
Jennifer and I had a good life, we lived in London, I missed the pack, but Jennifer made up for it, of course with lots of sex.
After years together she becomes pregnant, great news as she would have a baby.
Her pregnancy was complicated, but it took her to the end.
When it came time for the child to be born Jennifer and my pup couldn't resist.
All of this is what I'm getting for making Stiles suffer.
After years of not returning to Beacon Hills I decide to return.
When I arrive I go to the loft, take a relaxing shower and end up falling asleep.
After hours I decide to meet with the pack and send a message to Erica. After a while she arrives at the loft with a tense and sad face and I ask:
- what does Erica hear?
- you were away for a long time and didn't keep in touch so I assume you don't know...
- so talk.
- Stiles... He's been in a coma for five years.
- That was the time I left... Was it after our discussion, Erica?
- yea. He was desperate. He was driving at high speed then hit a tree.
- and how John is with all this. – starting to cry.
- After a while John could not resist and had a heart attack.
- I need to see Stiles.
- I'll take you.
So we went to the hospital in total silence. It was weird and everything kept hammering in my head and I remembered the discussion:
-on remembrance-
Stiles came to my loft and saw me with Jennifer and was in shock:
- Jennifer is leaving I need to talk to him private matter. - I speak with indifference.
- sure honey. - She gives me a kiss and I left. I can smell the sadness and realize he is trying to hold back tears.
- what do you want Stilinsk?
- Are you with Jennifer?
- yea.
- and what do we have?
- you're just a hobby for me.
- I gave myself to you. You were my first.
- I do not care. I'm leaving with Jennifer.
Then Stiles notices the bags near the door and starts to cry.
- I love you Derek.
- But I do not love you. Now I have to go and don't forget to close the door.
-off remember-
We arrived at the hospital and went to the reception and they informed me which floor Stiles was on.
When I entered his room he had several things connected. Seeing him lying on a bed without his hyperactive mode made me anguish so Scott and Isaac come in and come to me:
- what are you doing here Derek? – Isaac asks
- I arrived a few hours ago and I found out and came to see him.
- but I shouldn't. - Scott speaks with rancor. - It's your fault he's in that bed. – and I feel guilty, I should have stayed with him, we would be happy now. – Get out of this room, Derek.
I left the room feeling awful, I love him and I spoke in reverse, he was the only man I ever stayed with and I ended up getting insecure and left with Jennifer at the first opportunity and let love slip through my hands. Now he is in a hospital bed in a coma. This is all my fault.
After weeks I always go see Stiles and I'm sure Scott knows but he doesn't want to meet me.
- Hi Stiles, I'm Derek, I don't know if you can listen. – Taking his hand. - I regret having said that to you. I was afraid of what was happening to us. I didn't mean to say that. - crying. – you were the best thing that happened to me, Stiles. Come back to me, my love. I love you from the bottom of my heart.
Then I feel his hand squeezing mine and call to Melissa.
I explain everything to her, but the same speech that can only be reflex, but I don't think so. Stiles wants to get back to me.
Months pass I keep visiting. The pack gathers at the preserve, but Scott hardly talks to me and when he does it with a grudge and sarcasm. I don't blame him for that and I think he's right to stay that way.
One afternoon everyone was training when Melissa calls Scott to let him know that Stiles woke up so we all went to the hospital, even though Scott didn't want me to go and the others made me go.
When we got there we all entered the room and like the boy lying down. Barely able to speak or walk.
Melissa explained to us that, having been in a coma for five years, she will have to learn to speak, walk, eat alone and write. Imagine for a boy who suffers from ADHD having to be quiet because he can't do anything.
It was comical watching Stiles try to do simple things. All helping with your recovery.
Always speaking wrongly, he took a few steps. Stiles is a kid again.
But there were also the hard parts, like telling him that his father died, he cried for days. Then we told him he was in a coma for five years.
Stiles missed a lot, like his graduation, college, friends' birthday party and the birth of Scott and Alisson's daughter.
Stiles and I started to have a friendship, he still hasn't gotten over everything that happened. Of course, it's been five years for us, but for him it was like getting a deep night's sleep.
I'm trying to win him over, but Stilinsk is hard to break.
We have jokes and laughs.
Scott still looks at me askance, he thinks Stiles couldn't forgive me.
I'm trying to make it all right this time, I love Stiles and I won't lose him again.