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Ella couldn't breathe.
She couldn't move.
It was like if she had a switch and everything had been turned off.
She wished she could just sleep and never wake up.
Ella wished more than anything that she would have never gone out to get food at 11pm.
It was stupid. Why would she go out so late on a weekend no less when she knew how dangerous the area was at night.
All for some dumb tacos.
Ella tried to focus on anything else that wasn't the man touching her.
It was disgusting. Horrible and vile.
I wish it would end.
Please be over soon.
As the dark hooded man finished, you felt yourself slipping away.
It'll be over soon.
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When Ella woke she saw the sun pouring into the blinds of her apartment and could hear the traffic outside.
Just another day in New York.
But nothing is normal anymore.
Will it ever be?
As she got up she saw herself covered in some blood and semen.
Disgusting
Her head was pounding and she felt sore from the bottom half of her body.
He had left you naked on the bed. He hadn't even covered her up.
Animal
She stood up and felt dizzy and grabbed ahold of the wall as she walked towards her mirror.
She was horrified by what she saw.
So many bruises.
Bitemarks.
Scratches.
They're everywhere.
All of a sudden she felt her chest tighten and she couldn't breathe. Her vision started to blur as she felt herself start to hyperventilate. She felt herself slide down the wall and she sobbed.
How could I be so dumb?
She felt her body twitch and shake as she started screaming between her sobs.
It felt like an eternity before she was able to calm down. She glanced up and saw a picture on her dresser.
It was a picture of her and her best friend. They were laughing at the camera.
Why can't everything go back to that?
Ella knew what she had to do but she dreaded it. She felt so drained. What was the point if nothing could ever take that disgusting feeling away from her?
What was the point to keep going anymore?
Ella grabbed her phone and took a few deep breaths before calling the only person who could help her.
"Hello?" came a gruff voice on the phone.
"Fin I was raped please help me"
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"Who the hell did this?"
Ella almost jumped out of her skin. She hadn't heard him come in. She had hung up and cried.
"I-I don't know," she said weakly.
That only seemed to make him more upset.
As he walked around your room that was now a crime scene you could see a wave of anger in him you had never seen before.
Well of course he's upset. How could you be so stupid?
Ella felt her eyes water again. She walked out of the room. She couldn't bear to stand next to her best friend right now. He was probably so disappointed in her.
Who wouldn't be?
She let out a shaky sob as she felt herself fall apart again.
She felt a pair of arms engulf her as she continued to cry.
"Shhh" came a familiar voice.
"It's okay. I promise we're gonna nail the bastard that did this"
"You're n-not ma-ad wi-th me?" She hiccups between sobs.
Fin pulled her gently so she was looking at him.
"Of course not. I would never ever be mad at you especially with this. Don't you ever think I am okay?"
This only made her cry harder as she grabbed his shoulders like an anchor.
To her, he was her anchor. Always has been and always would. Ever since they were kids he had promised her that he would always be there for her. She trusted him. If he said they would get the piece of junk who did this then they would.
She knew he would.
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Fin's POV
The moment he heard he say she had been raped he felt as if someone had torn out his heart from his chest.
How? How did this happen?
He immediately went to Liv's office and told her. Ella was important to him. She was family to him.
Liv understood. It seemed to happen too much around the station.
He felt deflated as he drove to her apartment.
But most of all he was angry.
How could he let this happen?
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As he stepped into her apartment he began to feel uneasy.
But then he saw her. She was in a corner outside her room while other officers were processing the scene.
She looked so small and frail.
The strong confident happy woman he knew was gone.
And it was all his fault.
"Who the hell did this?"
He saw her flinch at his voice.
He mentally kicked himself.
Stupid. Why would he just go at her like that?
She looked up at him and Fin saw the hurt in your eyes and he felt his stomach churn.
"I-I don't know," she said weakly.
This should have never ever happened.
He clenched his hands into fists trying to keep his cool around her. The last thing she needed was a hole in her wall or a long string of cursing.
Instead, he walked around her room examined the scene. There was blood all over her at the foot of her bed.
Fin took a deep inhale to try and calm down. He was going to get this SOB and made sure he paid for what he did to her. Ella didn't deserve any of this and it was all because he couldn't protect her.
He looked back at the doorway and saw Ella had disappeared.
He immediately began to panic and thought the worst. He knew victims that went into dark places in their minds after an assault.
He walked out of the room to look for her when he heard sniffling coming from the other room.
He raced and saw her sobbing in a corner.
He went over and wrapped his arms around her trying to bring her back to him.
He tried to comfort her the best he could.
"Shhh" he said gently.
He felt her erratic breathing and wished he could take this pain away from you.
He gently rubbed her back in comfort as he said softly, "It's okay. I promise we're gonna nail the bastard that did this"
Fin could still hear your sobs and he had never felt more useless in his life.
He had always been the tough guy. At work and in life. But it was so hard now. His best friend since third grade. His partner in crime. She was so broken.
"You're n-not ma-ad with me?" She hiccup.
Fin swore he felt his heart tear in two.
He could never be mad at someone he loved so much with everything he had.
He lifted her chin up gently so she could look at him.
"Of course not. I would never ever be mad at you especially with this. Don't you ever think I am okay?" He said with all the care he could put into words.
She looked away and for a moment he thought she didn't believe him but was relieved when he felt put her arms around his shoulders.
She started to sob again and he silently made a promise as he continued to hold her.
He would get the man who did this to you no matter the cost.