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"You still look gorgeous.." he let out a heavy sigh and smiled as tears burned his eyes as it flows in his smooth cheeks, and his lips trembled. He wiped his eyes furiously and kept the his trembling lips to keep its smile.
I saw your face again but only at the magazine i was reading. It was kinda hilarious, cause when i slept that night you were in my dream.. we were holding each other's hand in that rainy night and i was so mesmerized with your beauty and you were just there laughing like the world is not against us. But when I woked up I realized that my life.. It sucks. Not like yours- you're a successful popular artist now and here i am, laying in the hospital cot wearing johnny gown for almost a year as my parents told me. The doctor gaved the detailed to me, opening up that i was in a coma for almost a year because of some car accident. My head hitted a very hard material that's why i ended up sleeping for a very long time.
I wonder...
My life..
Is this the end already?
Maybe? I guess.
But it won't stop me y'know? I still want to see you.. maybe hold you?
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"Do you miss him?" My mom suddenly popped a question. We came home after the doctor announced that i could go now even though my body is still recovering from my coma.
"Of course, mom." I replied, well there's nothing to hide right? I really miss him and that's what. She patted my back and hold my clammy hands with her other hand. She looked at me in the eye as if she was telling me something important but she just smiled and get up and pattted my head and walked away.
'Weird'
It really feels weird waking up and coming home from the hospital without bunch of memories from my past and to the accident that happened. It was all just fucking blurred faces and scattered places, literally everything. Thank god, i didn't forget him. He's still the person who holds my hearts even if i had a coma, what a life. Just great.
I started reopening all my social media accounts and it was all suffocating at once. So i started from instagram to facebook and twitter account.
That day, I passed out.
And I wake up.. I remember it all.
But one thing for sure that got my attention was the news that i saw, the person i love.. is getting married soon. And it will be held to the place where we both wanted to place our wedding.
I woked up and realized..
My life is indeed fucked up.
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I wasn't invited but i still wanted to come. Maybe for one last glance? 'One last chance to see you again in this lifetime, huh.'
I had my camera with me, the first ever camera you bought for me when you had your first pay from your work. 'Ugh, i hate reminiscing. But when it's you.. it even hurts more than being in a coma. How i wish i could have just slept the entire more year, right?'.
I saw you, you were with your man.
My bestfriend..
taehyung.
I'm happy you ended up being with him. Because i know he loves and care for you very much. Just like how i do. You were in his arms- laughing like how you laugh with me when i'm peppering you with kisses. I can see how much you are happy with him. Now, i can be at ease seeing you happy even if it's not me. Even if it wasn't me.
I did taked a last candid photo of you i wasn't able to move for a second but still did my best to captured your beauty. Our eyes met in a second, but you move your attention to someone else.
'You will always stay as my first love and last man I will love. Jimin, I love you.'
'naze konnanimo namida ga ahureruno...'
(Why are my eyes filled with tears?..)
A very sharp and loud deafening crack of thunder filled the room as the person pulled the trigger once… twice… dropping Jimin to the ground. With taehyung who was shocked of what just happened.
'nē soba ni ite soshite waratteyo...'
(Hey, stay by my side and laugh..)
Jeongguk run from the chaotic audience who runs to the exit of the wedding hall. He immediately holds Jimin's body with his trembling hands. He pressed his hands to jimin's wounds and shouted for a help when another loud shot triggered the room.
'Kimi no inai mirai wa iro no nai sekai
Monokuro de tsumetai...'
(A future without you is a world without colour. Filled with monochrome coldness...)
Jeongguk's body laid on the floor with jimin on his arms. His and jimin's blood tainted the red carpet.
'mitsume teru Kurayami sae mo so beautiful. Boku o shinjite hoshī...'
(Even the darkness is so beautiful.
I want you to believe me...)
Jeongguk.. saw it.
He saw, the one who pulled the triggered.. the person who ended him and jimin's life.
It was his father.
'Massugu ni kimi dake o mite
Doko ni mo ikanai yō ni.'
(Only looking straight at you
Not going anywhere.)
Jeongguk smiled when he felt jimin's hands holds his.
Slowly they both ambivently died with a smile on their lips.
Holding each other's hand.