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Maya walked into her apartment inside. She had a long day at work she was on shift for 14 hours with 3 two alarm fires and 1 four alarm fire she was, to say the least, exhausted. She hung up her keys and jacket and made her way into the kitchen, where she washed her hands then opened the fridge looking for a snack. Her phone buzzed in her back pocket and she checked and saw a text from Carina. “ Got pulled into an emergency C-section. I’ll be home as soon as I can Bella xoxo.“ Maya’s mood dropped. It surprised her how disappointed she was about not being able to see Carina soon. She just wanted to be wrapped up in Carina’s arms after her tiring shift. She wanted to smell Carina’s raspberry shampoo and feel her forehead kisses and the patterns Carina always traced on her back. She gave up on the fridge, grabbed a banana and dragged her way into the bedroom. She felt like crying and didn’t even know why. She didn’t even text Carina back. Instead she pulled the covers up to her neck and force her self to fall asleep.
“And here’s your healthy baby boy! Congrats mama!“ Carina exclaimed as she passed a newborn to his parents. The usual rush of serotonin flush through her as she saw the joy in the parents eyes. She’s recently been thinking more in depth about it than before but now that she has Maya and they’re in a good place, she could see herself with a little bambina or a bambino of her own. Of their own. she gave the nurse some final instructions before walking back to her office and pulling out her phone. Maya had read her text but didn’t respond. She frowned but decided she was probably just sleeping after her long shift. She hadn’t seen Maya in almost a week as they were on opposite schedules. She missed the failed Italian lessons, the cuddle conversations, the laughs and everything in between. She couldn’t wait to get home to her. She logged onto her computer, updated a couple last charts, then got ready to go home to her girl.
Maya jumped awake as the food dish hit the wall, her breathing rapid and shallow, her body covered in cold sweats. Is felt like she was right back there, at the table with her father. The dream felt so real, too real. She couldn’t breathe. She sat up and threw the covers off of her, panting and trying to control her breathing. “Bella?” she heard coming faintly from the living room. Carina’s home. She couldn’t even find the strength to stand up and call out to her. The tears started streaming down her face as she realized she was in full panic mode. She tried to stifle her crying sounds but it was too late, she was sure Carina had heard her. Yet she climbed back into the bed facing away from the door, covering her face with a pillow. A few seconds later, she heard the bedroom door creak open and she prayed Carina believed she was sleeping. She didn’t want Carina to see her like this, not again.
“Bella,” Carina said slightly above a whisper. Maya dared not to move. She heard the door closed and released a breath she didn’t even know she was holding. She let a big sob escape into the pillow and then she felt the bed sink next to her. Shit. Suddenly arms were turning her around and she didn’t even let Carina see her face before she dug her head in the crook of Carina’s neck. She was tense and Carina was silent for a while just holding her close. “I’m right here,” Carina said, pulling her closer. Maya couldn’t keep up her front anymore and started sobbing into Carina’s chest. Carina whispered reassuring words and she rubbed patterns into Maya’s back, knowing she loved that. Carina didn’t know why her girlfriend was crying but she knew she wanted to take her pain away. She kissed Maya’s forehead 3 times across and Maya clung onto her even more and continued to sob. Carina tightened her grip around her too wanting so desperately to soothe maya. And so they remained until Maya’s sobs turned into cries and her cries subsided. Carina brushed a few lose strands of Maya’s hair back to expose her face. She adjusted so she could see her girl’s face. She looked at Maya’s long pretty wet lashes, as maya kept her eyes closed, and blew on them gently. She missed looking at her girlfriends face so much. She knew maya wasn’t asleep, just comfortable snuggled up together right where they belonged.
“ I love you,” Maya croaked out, her voice hoarse from crying. “I love you more” Carina responded almost instantly. Maya’s eyes fluttered open and she finally made eye contact with her girlfriend after almost a week. Carina looked at maya blue eyes, red and damp from crying and she melted. She was so in love with her. Carina’s eyes glanced down to Maya’s lips wanting to kiss her so bad. Maya took the hint and closed the gap between them. Every time she kissed Maya, she had butterflies. That never changed. The kiss was sweet and salty from tears but neither dared to break it. Maya’s tongue slid across Carina’s bottom lip for access and it was granted. They slowly started making out with all the love in the world. Carina moved one hand to the back of Maya’s neck and maya slid a leg in between Carina’s and it instantly made her dizzy. Carina moaned and deepened the kiss and soon their bodies were moving in sync, fighting to get closer to eachother. Before things escalated, Carina pulled back and Maya groaned at the retreat. “ I missed you so much bella,” Carina said giving her girlfriend another peck. Maya inhaled and lingered, eyes still shut, taking in as much of her girlfriend as possible. “But I am very hungry and i’m sure you are too.” Maya smirked, “ I had a different meal in mind,” and started placing kisses along Carina’s jawline and neck. “Bambina come onnnn,” Carina begged, fighting her arousal. She wanted to make sure Maya was fed and okay before she had a chance to distract her with sex. Maya gave her one last kiss on her nose before standing up with the arm stretched out. Carina smiled and grabbed it, immediately intertwining fingers as they made their way to the kitchen.
Carina kissed Maya’s knuckles before heading toward the sink. Maya sat down and and her heart fluttered. She was starting to like little intimate gestures like that. She still couldn’t believe someone as caring as carina could chose to love and care for her. She loved watching Carina do daily tasks. She loved how effortless she makes everything. It’s so sexy. “ And don’t think i’m gonna forget about it okay?” Carina said snapping Maya out of her admiral gaze. Maya swallowed. She knew she promised to be more open with her but it still wasn’t that easy. “ We can talk later,” she says calmly. “I promise.” She wants to try for Carina. Carina took a break from rummaging through the cabinets to turn around and gives her girlfriend a small smile. “ Okay,” she responded before focusing her attention back on looking for food. “Baby, I don’t think we have any food in there,” Maya said. “Yea clearly,” Carina said while closing the cabinets and then making her way to the front door. “ You wanna eat out or get groceries to cook?” she asked grabbing her coat. “We can eat out and buy groceries for the week. But gimme a second let me change quick,” Maya said swiftly entering the bedroom. She quickly found a better looking shirt and shoved that on. She brushed through her short tangled golden locs and let them fall right above her shoulders. She grabbed her phone and hurried out the room. Carina smiled at her girlfriend who was clearly feeling better. “Whatttt,” Maya groaned at Carina who was grinning at her. “Nothing,” she said grabbing Maya’s hand. “Andiamo.”
As Maya drove, Carina’s hand was on her thigh. Maya was sure she meant it as intimate gesture- or did she? Dr. Orgasm over here. Whatever she meant it as, it was driving her insane. She glanced at carina who was scrolling on her phone and humming along to the radio.
“Babe”
“Hmm?”
Carina answered, still keeping her attention on her phone.
“Where do you wanna eat?”
“Anywhere is fine bella”
Maya glanced at her again. Carina seemed so distracted by her phone.
“What’s keeping your attention?”
Carina looked at Maya who now kept her attention in the road ahead of her.
“Nothing. Can we get pasta?”
Maya smiled and nodded. Carina sat back contently after seeing Maya ease up. She moved her hand higher up Maya’s thigh. Maya’s breath hitched and Carina smirked. “You always have all my attention,” Carina said barely above a whisper, drumming her fingers along the inside of her thigh. She knew how sensitive Maya was, especially to her, yet she continued to tease. “We’re not going to make it anywhere if you keep doing that.” Carina started to move her hand of off Maya’s leg. “Don’t,” Maya stopped her. Carina smiled to herself and returned her hand back to its rightful place and Maya exhaled.