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Tommy knows he's a coward, Tommy knows he's a burden for everyone on the smp, Tommy knows he's just a useless kid who always screams and swear.
Tommy knows that the one who killed Wilbur his brother is not philza, but himself. He fails to save Wilbur, he's too coward to stop dream from manipulating Wilbur's mind.
But why is not he the one who died? Why is Wilbur? He doesn't deserve to be stabbed by his own father, he doesn't deserve to be killed as the villain.
After Wilbur's die, his mind is always thinking that he's selfish. He took Wilbur's place, let the man fall, and never give him time to finish his symphony.
So he feels what Wilbur's have been feel when the last time he died, but the selfish freak he is. He never dies.
But tubbo said it's not his fault. Is it? Or tubbo lying? But tubbo never lied to him right? Tubbo is his best friend, tubbo will never lie to him and betray his trust like that. Tommy trusts tubbo with his entire life, tubbo is his only family who cares about him.
He and tubbo make promises, that they never gonna betray each other trust. Tubbo will never betray him, tubbo will never lie to him. Right? But Is tubbo lying to him? Or Is he the one who being selfish to tubbo?
He knows it, after all this time it's his fault. He burns George's house, he deserves the punishment.
But why he got exiled? Why they did not kill him? Just like Wilbur. Maybe he deserves all the punishment first, and maybe after that, they will let him free.
Tommy trusts tubbo and tubbo trusts dream to take punish care of him, his best friend knows what the best for him. But Exiled has been rough for him, people nowadays forgot about him.
But he is also grateful They are finally happy that the selfish freak is gone, the loud annoying kid now is not loud anymore. He is happy for them, but why did he run away? Why did he leave? Dream is his friend right? friend doesn't hurt each other.
But he deserves it. after all, is his punishment. But why he felt that he need to go away from dream? Is he being selfish again? Will tubbo be mad at him when he runs away? Surely not right? Techno doesn't ever get that mad when Tommy steals a few of his resources.
After his betrayal, techno is not mad at him anymore. Why? He doesn't deserve techno kindness. He doesn't deserve techno help, he doesn't deserve the warmness from his brother techno.
He deserves to be left behind, to be punished, to be betrayed, to be killed. Surely techno knows that right? Yes, he knows.
After all the kindness that techno gave him, the selfish freak of him still betrayed his own brother. Even his father gets mad at him, helps his big brother blow up again the unfinished symphony that Wilbur gave him.
But why tubbo is not mad at him anymore? Tubbo doesn't need to apologize to him. Tommy deserves the pain, he deserves to be killed. He deserves to kill himself.
The disc is not important to him anymore, but why did he and tubbo have to fight the admin? He and tubbo is just a kid, why did the admin have to be bothered by two kids? He already knows the reason but he chooses to be selfish again, he knows what the admin wants but he chooses to ignore it and make another reason on his head.
Is it really the right choice? maybe it is. The admin got prisoned, now he's free from his abuser's dream. Maybe he and tubbo will have a good happy ending, maybe what technoblade said to him is wrong, maybe a hero didn't have to die to save anyone.
But all of that thought is absolutely wrong, only tubbo who has the happy ending. He doesn't deserve it, his selfish frick doesn't deserve it.
If he's gone will there's a happy ending for anyone? Will tubbo happy that the useless boy who always clingy to him gone?
‘Tommy come down here!’
Will his brother is not mad anymore if he dies as a hero?
'theseus?'
will Nikki and jake be grateful if their target is dead?
'theseus what are you doing up there?’
Will Wilbur be happy if his little brother comes and see him?
‘Tommy please come down! Get away from there!’
Will his dad be proud of him if he makes this choice?
‘Toms!’
Will dream let him free when the little broken toy is absolutely broken?
‘Tommy get away from there! Please!’
He doesn't know the answer to all his questions, maybe if he ends his life his gonna get the answer from the death itself.
‘Tommy no! I can’t lose you anymore’
That's a good idea! he must kill himself if he wants the answer!
‘Tommy please listen to me!'
but it's not gonna hurt that bad right? He saw Wilbur smiling when the sword stab over his brother chest.
‘Theseus! Whatever your thought, stop it!’
So it's not gonna be different right if he jumps from here?
"No!!"
"Tommy!!"
"Theseus!"
Yeah, that's nice.
Now he's free